Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

I'm in!

Hi all

wasabi good to see you - I was on your thread and glad you've found your way here. I had a really similar experience in November with blood tests and scans and it was a horrible month or so.

On the subject of ttc abreviations, I have a nightmare of going to see the dr/consultant and actually saying 'my dh' or 'since my bfp'. On the other hand, he might think - aha! A mumsnetter

Hello ladies , I'm currently at work I already lost it 4 times and I got here 3 hours ago, I can tell everybody is a little better today...It gives me hope for the rest of the day.
here are some of the comments of my co-workers:
" you look like shit what happened to you"
" you lost another one?"
" well I guess some things are just not meant to be"
Thia one is the best one from another woman around my age " well you already have 2 kids you should be happy and stop tourtouring (I'm not sure how to spell this one, my brain is dead) yourself.

Nice pleople!!!

Thanks for being there!!1
Love you all

Well I've been booked for another scan, first thing tomorrow morning, due to all the crampy pains I've been having. I'm just at the point now where I can't think straight, so not going to think at all , see I'm not making much sense!
Not had chance to catch up sorry, will do tomorrow xx

lobeov seems crass remarks have passports then - ae you ok to be back at work so soon? I know its not easy nad rl carries on but it is such early days for you.
heebee I know.

right I'm going to go in a minute and lurk on ebay or somewhere.... vjay I will be thinking about you in the morning.

Oh my you lot have been busy
Jools How have you been feeling today? Little less hormonal? I like the positve thinking with the diet, go girl
HeeBee The bloods for the tests I've had back were taken on 9th Dec so just over a month for the results, the longest one he said would be the genetic one, which can take 10 wks
lobeov So glad you are being referred, let's hope you find some answers. I just love all the insensitive comments people make, sometimes when they are well meaning you don't mind, but some of those were downright rude! Keep your chin up
Scamper Really hope time flies by until your scan, will keep everything crossed, make sure you update us asap
Gingermumi I have definately requested to be your friend, it won't let me do it again as it says I've asked already If the request isn't showing you can look for me instead, I've got a beer glass in front of my face, initials KS and I'm on Barbies friends
VM {angry* at your friend saying it was stress, my MIL tried to tell me that last time, she got the sharp edge of my tongue I can tell you!
Mermaid Loving the PLAN! I'm so pleased you got supportive people yesterday, they seemed very sensitive and caring. I think I'd like to work for you too after hearing of those terms of employment Did you buy anything on Ebay?
Curly I've used that excuse for so many things!
Blue I will fight you for Rob Lowe mind!
4ever Please don't stress yourself out for feeling low, at the end of the day you can't switch your feelings off like a tap (bloody well wish we could) so you can't make yourself feel better, you are bound to be terrified and it's perfectly understandable after what you have been through. I know I would feel exactly the same, just take deep breaths and I will be thinking of you on Friday. Oh and what a lot of b*llocks workshop!
wasibipeanut Hello and welcome, so sorry you have had to join us, but glad you have found us
Vjay Good luck for tomorrow my lovely, I am sure all will be well and will keep an eye out for an update x

Big waves to MM & Barbie

Hello ladies,

Hectic around these parts atm, family coming from the States tomorrow and DD dancing show on Sat so rehearsals last night and tomorrow, not mentioning all the extra stuff we have to bloody buy for it. I am sure on Sat night I will be sitting with a tear in my eye but atm just about had enough aaarrggghhh. I wouldn't do it but she loves it so I guess we will carry on................and probably be bankrupt by the end of this. And back to work tomorrow but will deal with that then.
Deep breath...............enough ranting from me.

mermaid how are you hun, thankfully you finally got some excellent care on the NHS, I guess it shows both extremes of care in the NHS. So glad to hear about your plan, sounds positive that you are thinking of the future.

wasibipeanut welcome to our lovely thread, if you have been lurking a little then you will have seen the support you get from the lovely ladies on here. Glad you found us.

vjay good luck for tomorrow, really hope it puts your mind at ease.

vm and lobeov what stupid comments both of you have had said to you....................it's a case of if you don't have anything to say then don't say anything at all. Don't listen to any negative comments and just come to this lovely cave and hid away from these numpties...........love that word.

4ever it sounds like you have so much to deal with atm hun, like mollie says take deep breaths and you will get thru this. You know we are all here to help and will be thinking of you on Friday.

mollie what a carryon with your results, I know what they were like getting blood from me and I would not have been too pleased repeating it because of a mistake with labeling. Good news you got one back and it was all clear, one down. I think I get all of my results back at the same time. Seen your comments on DD, she is pretty cute................sometimes. Btw love brothers and sisters too!!!!

jools hope you are feeling better today hun.

barbie fantastic news on the villa, bet you can't wait to get moved in....................well that and 24 hr internet. Hope you are good today and not getting sunstroke to make us jealous.

Running out of time here but big hellos to blue and sabs my new fb friends so good to put faces to the names, not forgetting scamper, curly, ginger, heebee and anyone else I have forgot to mention.

Hello Ladies just got back from work..longggggggggg day!!!
mermaid you are probably right I should take some time off, but at the same time keeps me busy.
Vjay Good luck tomorrow you are in my prayers.
wasibi hello, I hope we can help..
I'm totally drained.. talk to you tommorrow

Love you all

Hi there

Just popping in as I'm off for my blood tests today -

Moolie thanks for the heads up - I was going to ask the phlebotomist how long they would take. They're not doing the chromosome one at the moment, but are doing natural killer cells, whatever they are.

mm my niece was in a show last weekend. Apparently as the curtain went down, so did she, on her haunches waving frantically at the audience

vjay - thinking about you - let us know how you get on

mermaid - hope ebay provided a suitable distraction/retail therapy

lobeov - I used to think that work was at least 7+ hours where I could think about something else, but take care and if you don't fancy it one day, then take the day off

Welcome wasibipeanut hope your nearly over the worst of it by now. I had to wait 10 days for any bleeding to start after last MMC and that was so hard as first MMC all happened same day as scan. I felt like I was waiting to go into labour(i.e. bag packed for hospital, wanting to stay close to home) but at the other end of the happiness scale . Haven't you managed to avoid any surgical intervention or are they keeping an eye on you? Both my MMC dated lo at 6 weeks and the amount of 'product' that came away with my natual mc was overwhelming.

Anyway, get comfy pour yourself a coffee/tea/herbal and settle in x

MM - That's so great your DD is into dancing, I was a ballet/tap addict when I was wee. I used to get dressed up in leg warmers et al to watch 'Fame' every Thurs night and wore my tap shoes around the house. Ah, those were the days...

Vjay - I'm thinking about you today x

Heebee - good luck with bloods

eek, better go, DS has just woken up (he's a bit under the weather and had gone back to bed). Duty calls!

Thanks for the warm welcome everyone

bluesatinsash Yes I have managed to avoid intervention so far although I am going back next Tues to check on progress. I am bleeding and have been since Monday but it's no worse than a heavy period with v small clots hence I am back at work. I suspect worse may be to come so have warned my manager I may have to disappear suddenly and they are fine with that.

Heebee - best of luck with your blood test. Not sure of your story yet so now sure what they are testing for but I hope the outcome is good for you!

VJay - best of luck with your scan too.

Lobeov - sorry you had to endure those comments at work. I've had a couple of similar ones, especially "well at least you've got ds" which is true but..........well, you know. Personally I really wish someone would say "that's really shit, I'm so sorry. That would at least make me smile and agree with them.

Hi all,

At work today so another quick one!!

vjay thinking about you today, good luck.

wasabipeanut hope you are doing ok today.

vm always thinking about you my lovely.

blue lol at 'fame' I remember it all too well, leroy. One of the songs they are singing is starmaker from fame, had a quick peak in rehearsals and I've been in tears everytime...............oh pass the hankies. It was funny DD was singing away in the house and I joined in, the look of shock on her face was a picture, "how do you know that, it's my dancing song". We ended up on youtube played clips from the original show, let me tell you I was smiling from ear to ear.

Anyway that's put me in a good mood now, big waves to you all and will try and catch up again later xxx.

Hi there

I'm back - slightly lightheaded after 6 vials of blood! I wasn't on here when I was referred, so in a nutshell, after my 2nd m/c in November - wasabi it was a very similar story to yours - I had an early scan at 7 weeks due m/c in Feb and there was everything apart from the baby. I had another scan at 8/9 weeks and there was something but it was too small to make out a heartbeat. In the meantime I'd been having blood tests which showed the hormones were rising, but not doubling. I had an ERPC as my body clearly still thought everything was fine (I had morning sickness on the day of my erpc ). My consultant carried out the procedure and is carrying out some recurrent miscarriage tests

blue I remember jumping off the sofa in legwarmers to the Fame theme tune!!!

Hi ladies,
I haven't managed to catch up on all your doings since my last posting, but I sincerely send out my heart to all those of you who are struggling with this burden, and only hope that your paths become clearer soon.

I have a bit of news - I got a BFP on Tuesday!!!!

After the inital joy and jumping up and down passed I have to admit right now I'm feeling TERRIFIED. All I wanted to do after my MMC in November was get pregnant again, but now I am I'm not sure I can cope with it - is that daft? DP is being lovely and supportive, but I keep having these deep moments of panic where I feel I just can't go through it all again. Do you think requesting one of those reassurance scans at 7/8 weeks is a good idea - does it help? I feel like I never want to go near another scanning machine again, because last time at the 12 week scan seeing nothing but an empty sac was totally devastating.

Please come and tell me I'm being a right tit.

lionstar congratulations. Everything you are feeling is absolutely understandable, book that scan, it will put your mind to rest for a day or so. I think for all of us the absolute joy of being pregnant will be hampered with panic and worry. well done you clever lady

Huge congratulations Lionstar

Given that we are similar ages and it all happened at similar times, you give me hope for this cycel

I think Mermaid said what I would have done - hang around and chat to us here, or go find the knicker checkers in the pregnancy forum and just talk through your worries - they are perfectly understandable - The only time I've been scanned is to confirm all was gone - never saw my baby and that really haunts me

Can't stop smiling now - you have made my day !

As for Fame - LOVED the TV show and could probably still remember the words to Star Maker (I have the album somewhere - yup, on vinyl !)

Have been feeling OK since AF left - amazing what those hormones do to you I keep getting strange twinges in my uterus though - I have to keep telling myself there is no way there are stretching pains cos there is nothing there

CD4 today .... I want a Valentines BFP !

Congratulations Lionstar - I hope this is the start of a great run of luck on here. I can totally understand why you would be apprehensive. A scan I think is a good idea. Maybe even have one before 6 weeks - you won't see a heartbeat yet but hopefully it will reassure you that all is developing as it should be.

I think Jools that your goal of a valentines BFP is great! I won't be able to play sadly but am hoping for a nice Spring surprise instead!

All together now "StarMAkeeeeeer"

Congratulations Lionstar I would book a scan, just to give you something to break up the time before the 12 week scan.

Jools I'm cd 5, so joining you in a Valentine's bfp

Hello ladies,please may i join you. I was on the Aug 09 antenatal thread but at my nuchal scan appt yesterday i found out that my baby had no heartbeat and was measuring 9 weeks so had died 3 weeks previously.

I was in total shock,that was the last thing i expected, id had a early scan at 7 weeks as had some spotting and we saw a good strong heartbeat, and now this. All i can picture is looking at the screen and seeing my poor LO with no heartbeat,the consultant took ages measuring etc with all the while me looking at our poor LO knowing all wasnt well.

Ive has a mmc at 9 weeks with sac visible but no embryo and a mc at 6 weeks then my DS who is 3.3 and now this. I cant stop blaming myself and feeling like my body has let me down. IM 39 in June and feel like time is against me.

Im booked in to have ERPC next Thursday as a day case, ive had one with last mmc so know what to expect.

Look forward to getting to know you all

Welcome Anniecam

Sorry you've had to join us You will get all the support you need from these lovely ladies - I'm not sure what I'd have done without Mnet when it happened to me in Nov

As for age - I turned 39 the weekend I miscarried and this would have been my first child - goal is now to have a baby before I'm 40, so am going to be very busy in early feb

So sorry Anniecam I am in the middle of an mc at the moment - mine didn't make it past 6 weeks.

I hope that you and your dp can find some comfort in the days ahead. I don't know what I would have done without MN in the last couple of weeks.

Just a quick question for Lionstar - did you get an AF after your MMC and before your BFP ??? Am only being nosy - you've achieved what I was aiming for

anniecam do not even begin to blame yourself sweetie. my mum says that guilt is man made and nothing to do with us. thinking of you and sad welcomes.

Jools I have my fingers crossed for a Valentine BFP for you - that would be lovely! And to answer your question, yes AF came before the BFP. After the MMC (17-Nov) I had OV signs around 7-Dec then AF arrived 19-Dec then OV signs around 4-Jan and finally the BFP on 20-Jan.

Thanks to everyone else for their reassurance too, I think I will get an early scan if possible, just because waiting until 12 weeks will proabably be unbearable.

anniecam so sorry to hear your news, especially as you had an encouraging early scan too - that is devastating. Everyone here is so lovely I hope you find some comfort.