Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 2 xxxxx

[barbie1]

Hello to everyone coming over from the previous thread and for all the new girls who will sadly be joining us...
You will not find a better bunch of girls to help you through such a hard time, we will get through this with the help of each other xxxx

Jonesey, I think there's something very similar in your and your ds's expressions, even if you don't think he looks like you... To answer your questions: Until two years ago I was a teacher but stopped to write full time when my book was accepted (doing two jobs and managing a family was just too much; apart from ds I also have a step dd!) The first one took me TOO LONG to write; hope the next one is quicker! I'm also finding being 39 not bad... it started off with my pregnancy, which was totally unexpected. If I can have another (successful) one before I'm 40 I'll be over the moon.
Have you and DP made up now BTW? Just around the time you first came on this thread I had a row with my dh which I then had to patch up with lots of humble pie - realised this would sadly be necessary if any future pgs were going to result .

mm, so glad your book's arrived; as I've said before, I'm really motivated now thanks to you ladies to get on with number 2!

4ever, welcome back, sorry to hear you've been having a tough time in RL. Best of luck at the specialist today, thinking of you!

hopefullypregnant, I'm so deeply sorry for what you've been through. I can't even begin to imagine it. Do come on here any time; the girls on this thread have seen me through many a dark day and will be there for you too...

((waves to all!))

jools1 hi and welcome... I am so very sad for you . I wonder if I was in the same Due May thread with you before I had my mmc last week - I recognise the name Jools? I was 12 weeks too and like you, my body did the self same thing and it is an awful and truly traumatic experience. Do call your GP, you can probably talk to them on the phone and get them to sign you off for a few days. I don't advise going back too soon as your hormones may well be all over the place not to mention your grief for what has happened. What you need now is support (this thread has helped me enormously) and some time to grieve. Take as much time as you need.

Hi jonesy - yes, I remember you from the May thread. Sorry to "meet" you again in such sad circumstances for both of us

Was it you talking about a necklace ? Sounded lovely

It is a bit premature I know, but one of the things really worrying me at the moment is the thought of this happening again - I was, I guess, relatively lucky this week in that I had the day off (booked for my scan ) when it all started. The thought of having such a bleed whilst out and about or at work fills me with terror and I'm worried it will stop me wanting to try again.

Jools1 - so sorry to hear your news, its just awful. I was similar to you (although 8 not 11 weeks ) in that I miscarried at home but ended up in hosp due to excess bleeding, managed to avoid going to theatre tho'. Like many people I've found MN a godsend - only wished I found this thread sooner.

I also used to lurk on my old ante-natal thread (april 09) but stopped that a few weeks ago which I hope is a healthy sign!

hopefullypregnant - welcome and my heart goes out to you, what a horrible time you have had. Courie in and get much needed support here.

4everhopeful - I don't think you've been on since I joined so and love your name!

Jonesy - how are things today with you and your DP?

VM - feeling premenstrual yet?

Sabs - very thoughtful of you to start a ttc thread being mindful that some may not want to hear about bd and OPKs!

Anyhoo, back to the chores x

jools1 I know how you feel about being out and about if it ever happens again. I was off work with a cold when I started miscarrying. I always wonder if that was a sign - my body telling me to slow down for other reasons, but which led to something else.

jools, hello, I remember you posting on the 'grapefruit juice drinking' ttc thread just recently to tell the ladies there what had happened - I'm so very sorry for your loss. What a terrible experience. Welcome on here; the girls are great and will wrap you up in TLC. Sending you ((hugs)).

sabs, I'll pop over to the ttc thread and say hi! Will be ttc any day now - erk!

bluesatinsash, now that you mention it, I'm definitely weepy and moody today. AF still a few days off, but I guess this is the fanfare before her arrival...

Right, nearly school run time...

welcome hopefully, I'm so sorry for what you've had to go through, and welcome to jools too, I'm glad you've come over.
Nice one circular for signing up, you've just got in there, what is it you've chosen, I'm doing 'chance, risk and health'. The OU can get a bit addictive can't it, in fact it actually helped me this year to take my mind off things.
vm your book made me giggle last night, thankyou.
Barbie I hope you enjoy rl and having your mum to visit, my mum rang the other day to say she will visit me in Jan next year, I just hope it's not when I'm ovulating
Hope everyone else is ok xxx

blue, vm, sabs frosty is best description of the household I'm afraid. Slept in spare room ! Must remind self not to make rash decisions while hormonal and depressed... My dp is generally very mild mannered, easygoing and tolerant (needs to be!) but every now and again is alarmingly insensitive, moody and stubborn. This is one of those times unfortunately so I will see if he's any better tonight, otherwise I'm in the spare room again..hmmpphh!

jools yes the necklace was me and I'm finding it a real comfort. Keep touching it today when I think of what's happened. It is from Azendi, they have a lovely shop in Reading but I found it on their website. I can understand why you might be put off ttc by the possibility of bleeding out in public but I don't think you can think like that. It may seem raw at the moment but that will subside in time. I was at home when it happened too and hadn't thought about it being in public which I agree would be horrible. Most women who have an mc usually go on to have a perfectly healthy pregnancy nxt time around so please don't be put off by this, hard as that seems now. This is my 2nd one but I have an underactive thyroid which may have been a factor and even if it wasn't, I will still be ttc as if I didn't I think it would make my 2 mc's even more sad. I still hope to have a healthy baby one day (that's if I ever speak to dp again......). Best not to make any decisions about next time for a little while until this has settled down for you I reckon.

vm what did you teach?

sabsgaspnot going, not going anywhere yet,digging my heels in and squatting if necessary. Its nice here, I like the wall paper and that postcard from rl that 4ever* sent us.
jonesy give that dp a hug when he comes in from work.
jools a sad but warm welcome - we have to travel hopefully, (I am trying for the full sailed galleon approach at the minute) the thought of our bodies letting us down again and in a humiliating way is a horrible thought . But its early days sweetie and slowly but surely like my galleon under sail you will arrive at that destination. but take some time off if you can, your body and head need to begin healing.
hopefully sending you a huge hug of welcome, you have been through a terrible time, go gently on yourself and rest lots.
4ever ouch, nasty prickly rl - water, broken windows, back pain and the long awaited appointment..how did it go? fingers crossed that it was helpfulx
I am in a very good mood cos I went shopping and bought a car so have turned into Mrs petrolhead my name is really jeremyclarksonlookatitswheelsitsgot4 etc etc!
waves to allxx

Hi all and thanks for the welcome!

4everhopeful, how was your apptment? I really hope it offered some help/encouragement.

Jonesy, I think arguments with DPs are par for the course after our emotional (hormonal!) rollercoasters. Hope you get back in from the spare room tonight!

Jools, dont think like that - try to think positive. Apart from anything else, you had a warning before the torrents of blood this time and likely you would again. You were on the May thread with me and I remember you though I would have been further on than you now. I am sorry you are also here.

More soon! x

Hi everyone, I've been feeling sorry for myself for a couple of days and haven't seen all your posts yet but hope you are all doing well.

I think I'm going backwards - I just feel so down at the moment. A week after the ERPC I'm still getting pain and lots of bleeding. I spoke to the hospital today and they want me to come in for another scan tomorrow. I've put them off till next week in the hope that it will stop but I'm so fed up. I nearly started crying a few times in work today and I just want to crawl into bed and not get out till this is over.

Sorry to be such a misery guts and for such a "me" post. Now that I've had my rant I'm going to catch up on what is going on with you guys. And my one bit of good news is that my Bellini Madonna arrived today so I'm really looking forward to reading it. Anyone finished it yet?

jonesy68 sorry to hear you had to sleep in the spare room. Hopefully you guys sort things out for tonight

mermaidspurse what car did you buy? I don't want to leave this lovely, warm and comfortable place either, but like to think we can visit both places

curlywurlee sorry to hear you're not feeling too good today, but feel free to rant away and post a "me" post...I do it all the time! We are all here to listen and suppor each other

hi curly, don't be too hard on yourself sweetie, I was like that after my 1st mc, this time round I've taken it really easy, slowed right down, cried when I needed to and not held anything back, and I seem to be coping a lot better this time. I do hope you start feeling better soon.

Evening everyone,

4ever - sounds as though you've had more than the standard three sets of bad luck...I hope today's appointment went well; did you get any more information about your situation?

jools1 - you've found a safe harbour here on this thread. Your experience is a little similar to mine as my mmc started two days before I was due to have my 12wk scan. Hope today has proved to be a little easier than yesterday - one step at a time is the only way to deal with mc in the early days. In any case, you're in good company here because there are so many ladies on this thread who are of a 1968/69 vintage!!

sabs - I'll check out the new thread in order to have it appear in my TIO section...

VJ - the course is, 'Understanding the Weather'. It appeals to me! I think it will be interesting....I reckon I can kill it in 8-10wks because 5mths seems a bit ott...

mermaid - new car, sounds nice and er, what colour is it? (chuckle)

curly - sorry to hear you've been feeling down of late, I guess these moments come when you least expect them. Perhaps your body is simply dealing with the aftermath of the first D&C...and as you say, maybe your body just needs a few more days to recover fully. I hope you feel better soon.

Hello to everyone else...

Thanks Sabs. DH has gone out with the boys for the first time in three weeks and I can't stop crying. I don't know what is wrong with me. But I've read through the posts for the last few days and it does so help to have you girls around. BTW your dream sounded really positive. I have a lot of faith in stuff like that meaning something and I really hope some day soon you are posting about your little girl being born

And good on you VJ on taking the news of ur friends pregnancy so well. I seem to be okay with my friends being pregnant when I knew about it before the MC but I don't know how I'll react when I see their babies. When I see a tiny baby at the moment I just feel this great big empty hole inside

Awww curlywurlee i just want to give you a big massive hug.....we all know what you're going through as we have all been there, and probably still going through it at times...

Let us know if there is anything else we can do to cheer you up...

Thanks Sabs I am cheering up I promise. I love this forum. It's hard to stay miserable with you girls

Jools, just catching up and saw that you had joined. Sorry to hear your news but hope things get better for you soon. And hopefullypregnant what an awful awful decision for you to have to make (not that you had any choice hun). It really puts my complaints into perspective. Stay strong and we are here if you need us.

We are all going to get through this

Circular thanks, I'm feeling much better now and congrats on signing up for your course. What a fab subject!

Mermaid I saw your post from yesterday - do you think you might really be pregnant? Sorry if I have totally misinterpreted - my brain is fuzz right now?

4ever, how did it go?

Evening girls,

4ever finally your hospital appointment, hope it went well today. You have been thru so much and now you deserve a bit of good fortune. I am so hoping you are sitting feeling more positive tonight. So glad you sorted things out with the minister hun, the services are difficult but healing also.

curly you are not going backwards unfortunately it is part of the healing process, just when you think you are starting to move on it hits you like a ton of bricks. It does get easier but just takes some time, hope you feel better soon and rant away on here as much as you like.

jools sorry you have had to join us on here and sorry for what you went thru yesterday. I had a natural mc this time and the physical pain was more than I could ever have expected. Hope you are doing well tonight and find the support you need from this thread.

jonesy I think that is the problem with the photos, will try again tomorrow when I have more time, thanks for the tip.

vm how is my chat buddy, not had a chance to catch up with you during the day...........I would say I will be on tomorrow but then again I may just be engrossed in your book. You sound more upbeat these days maybe it's the thought of your busy month ahead.

barbie if you get a chance to check in looking forward to seeing you Sat, will chat later hun.

Big hellos to mollie vjay circular mermaid sabs hopefully and blue hope you are all doing good. Take care mm xxx

Ds is tucked up fast asleep, dh has gone out so I'm off to bed now with a hot choc and vm's book....bliss

Evenin MM. I think it's brilliant that you and Barbie are meeting up on Sat. Reading back on the posts you have all been such good friends to each other so it's just lovely that you are getting to meet in person. Say hi from me (tis very quiet without her tonight) - and I can't wait to hear about the first ever Emmsys RL meeting when I'm on next!

I'm going to copy VJ and have an early night tonight. Sleep tight everyone and thanks for being here

curly 1 step backwards and then in a little while you will skip forward a few steps and so it goes on. I dont expect I am pregnant.... wishful thinking of course and it never happens easily for us, um I mean quickly, and cos the clock is ticking for me I am a little panicky.
circular its silver with lots of initials which mean things to pimpley boys gunning their novas at the lights. Most importantly its built like a tank which is very important to me since encountering the Lithuanian on the wrong side of the road last month. My cunning bit of skewed female logic was to to buy a car with only 3 doors which means I will definatley absolutely get pregnant next week and have to change sporty sleek number for 5 door bus. lets see if it works.

DP still not talking to me.... brrrr it's cold in here... ..

barbie pops her head in to wave and blow kisses to you all and rushes back to rl but really would rather stay here and chat

i miss all of you!

Mollie sticks her head in quickly to say that her broadband is still down, I am reading your posts and I hope you can feel the my presence You lot have chatted too much for me to catch up at work with.
Hello to the newbies, sorry you have had to join us and a big fat wave and a hug to you all

Oh dear.... DP is leaving.... ... This is lot to cope with in 2 short weeks. Feeling a bit shell shocked. Don't know how will break the news to ds he will be devastated. Life can be so unfair sometimes... Am at work and don't know how will hold this together today.