Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 2 xxxxx

[barbie1]

Hello to everyone coming over from the previous thread and for all the new girls who will sadly be joining us...
You will not find a better bunch of girls to help you through such a hard time, we will get through this with the help of each other xxxx

thanks mm and another goodnight! quiet the habit now

Goodnight hun, hope you go to bed with another smile on your face, but honestly if you need to chat tomorrow don't hesitate. Sweet dreams and I will be thinking about you tomorrow xxx

HeeBee Thinking of you today
Jools I so hope you got the wine and pudding last night It was probably a good idea to tell your boss, you never know when you might need their support.
Daisy How are you doing?
Barbie Good luck for today, and sock it to them with all your questions my lovely Hope you don't still smell of biscuits
Jones Love the tattoo, but now I want to see pics of your new hair! And I agree with Barbie your DS is really cute
Scamper New York I loved NY, I'm so glad you had a good time it was probably just what you needed. LOL at your Christmas request
Sabs Sorry to hear about the visa problem getting worse, it all sounds very worrying either way, if you don't get it and if you do all the trouble that's going on. Will you still go?
MM How are things with you?
I'm taking it easy over the next few days as I've injured my knee and when I went to work Monday it just got progressively worse from walking around. So instead of going on a course today and tomorrow I'm lounging around the house resting
Mollie waves to Lionstar & BlueSatin and everyone else

Morning all

work getting busy now, but it is a new project and I'm quite enjoying it

Thinking of you today Barbie - hope you get some answers.

Yes Mollie - I had two lovely lovely glasses of Sauvignon Blanc and a sticky toffee pudding last night followed by a lovely breakfast that included an exceedingly runny poached egg - yummmmmm.

Only got time to say a quick hellooooooo to everyone else - will hopefully be able to catch up (and do some tattoo viewing) tomorrow

Well girls i went the hospital and what a lot of good that did, not!
Well ok they confirmed that my cyst was normal size and nothing to be concerned about, they saw a few follicles on my ovaries, what ever that means... i'm off to google in a minute and my uterus has a healthy lining.....So nothing nasty going on there. i asked my long list of questions but the lady said all she was there to do was too scan and i'm best to go back to GP for answers. i was told to wait a few weeks so i can get scan results at the same time, so back to square one.

On the way to the hospital i hit the car something was in the middle of the road, no time to swerve as a car was on the other side, so went over it and bang sat shaking for a while until i was brave enough to have a look. There is a big hole under the car and bits hanging off....so by the time i got to the appointment i was a wreak, coupled with lying on a bed about to be scanned which reminded me of my scan to confirm mmc i lost it a bit l lay on the bed crying...
Went to the garage on the way home and got the guys to get it up on the ramp....thankfully not too much damage...and they didn't charge me either

hi vm and heebee i hope your appointments went better then mine
Hi to everyone else, im working til 10pm tonight so ill miss you all x x x

hey barbie, you poor thing, bad timing for car nightmare - glad that you at least got it fixed for free.

that you were understandably upset at scan, it does bring it all back. Sending you a (((hug))). I am dreading the next time I have to go to st thomas hospital again as the place only has bad memories.

Sorry you did not get answers - hope your GP is more helpful when you get the scan results back

I think follicles on ovaries means all is well - several follicles develop each cycle until one gets bigger than all the rest, then shoots an egg out into the fallopian tube.

more later, waves to everyone else as well

Barbie - I agree with Scamper - follicles growing is good news as when they get big enough, you will ovulate

Hopefully when you eventually get talked through the scan results, they'll be able to tell you when the egg is lightly to be released, and predict AF from there. What with that and a healthy lining, this sounds positive to me.

Sorry about the car nightmare - I'd have been a gibbering wreck ! Glad it was sorted out easily

As for the scan - an understandable association - hopefully next time though you will be lying there looking at a jumping bean

Barbie Oh lovely I'm so sorry to hear about the car, but at least the damage wasn't as bad as you thought. It's understandable that you would have flashbacks to the last time you were there, unfortunately it doesn't go away, hope you are now making yourself feel better by doing something nice. Make sure you get booked in with your GP for your results and hopefully by that time you will have OV'd and see a proper AF soon after that
Jools Sticky toffee Yum

Oh barbie, really sorry to hear you've had a prang on your car on this day of all days, but your scan sounds A-Okay. The follicles are just the little structures with eggs in the ovary that mature each month - it's a sort of race between them and the biggest and ripest egg gets released at ov. If you'd had PCOS (where the follicles don't ripen properly) they would have told you there and then, I think. Normal lining and normal follicles = good news! I'm sure you'll get a follow-up letter sent to you and your GP and maybe you can ask her your questions then?

My scan was fine and we've now got the go-ahead to ttc. Feel mightily relieved and rather exhausted too - guess I was storing up a lot of anxiety prior to the scan! Sorry not to post personally to everyone; a quiet (?) evening with dh and ds awaits... x

Just a quick hello to mm, have been thinking of you and hope that you're feeling OK! x

I'm glad your scan went well vm and yours too by the sound of things barbie, I know you didn't get answers as such, but what they said does sound fine.
I've been at work today then got home and done the housework, dusting, hoovering, mopping...I don't know what's come over me .
I'm going to sit down now and have some dinner with ds.
Hello to sabs mollie blue mm scamper heebee jools daisy and anyone else I've missed xxx

Vjay - can you come over and do my housework too?

barbie - what a rubbish start to your day with your car but positive outcome from scan, as VM says, it looks like everything is in working order. Have you been googling all afternoon?

VM - great to hear your A-OK for ttc, have a grapefruit drink to celebrate!

I'll be offline all weekend (yikes, how will I cope?!) as we're off to England to stay with relatives. Unfortauntely I'm full of the cold but hopefully a good nghts slepp will do the trick.

Have a lovely weekend everyone

my spelling!

hi blue I'm absolutly jiggered, maybe next week . Have a fab weekend too, hope your cold isn't too bad.

Hello ladies,

Another quick one I am afraid, just so tired tonight so early night on the cards but just had to check in to catch up on the appointments today.

barbie got your message, what a morning you had hun, I only hope your day got better. Sorry you didn't get any direct answers but you did get some positives so just focus on them. I know you you feel lying on the table for your scan, all the scans I have had during my mc's have been in the same room at the EPU and I now hate that bloody room with a passion, every time all the memories come flooding back.

vm yeah you got the all clear. I know you were thinking that anyway but it is always nice to get reassurance. No wonder you are now exhausted it's hard work carrying all these emotions around everyday. Hope you enjoyed a nice evening with ds and dd.

I got my hospital appointment in today..........well sort of. It's for Wed 4th and Wed is actually the 3rd so need to call them tomorrow to clarify. I would like to say I am feeling elated at finally getting the appointment but I am more feeling overwhelmed with everything atm. Everything is getting to me right now and even small things seem difficult..................... Oh back to small steps mm, why does there just seem to be a million of them.

Anyway enough from me the thread should be happy tonight, will need to make time to catch up properly but until then big hugs to mollie vjay blue jools sabs scamper lionstar jonesy daisy hope I haven't missed anyone, 4ever how are you hun not heard from you in a while. Take care everyone and promise to catch up with you all soon. mm xxx

just got home from work and the garage had left me a voice mail.....£850 to fix the car
im glad your appointment went ok vm and im thinking of you heebee
Thankyou girls so much for all your support, i have been an emotional mess all day..thankfully its nearly over, roll on a better day tomorrow

Night night xxx

Just a quick good morning to everyone. Went to a quiz night with people from work last night so didnt log in in the evening. My team came third from last but had a good night!

Also find out today about my visa for india...

Promise to catch up with everyone later on. Hugs and kisses to all

Morning all. Got back from my business trip after 9pm last night, so ended up going more or less straight to bed. DP had thoughtfully got me a chinese takeaway, but I couldn't eat it That was the meal I was eating when I first noticed bleeding - don't think I could ever eat chicken satay again

Was woken up in the night with abdominal pain - in the ovaries I think It wasn't like normal ovulation pain. Maybe it was OV, and just more painful than normal - who knows. If it was, I've missed the gg DP was keen this morning but I'd been kept awake so late with pains that I didn't want to know

Must try and get some matchsticks under my eyes and do some work - will catch up with you all later

Barbie - £850 for a car repair !!! eeeek I thought you said yesterday they'd sorted you out for free - how wrong was I

oh i how i wish they sorted it out for free, nope what i meant to write was they looked at it for free!
Im off to work again and then the gym, oh happy days....
sabs good luck with the visa
jools oh dear at the chicken satay i hope your pains are good ones and signs that your body is getting back to normal
mm i missed our goodnight last night hope you are ok hun
vm as always on hand to reassure me that im ok and everything will have a happy ending! felt silly yesterday googling follicles because of course i knew what they were!

power going on laptop catch you all later xxx

barbie, hope you're feeling better today ((hugs)). Don't feel silly googling follicles - I tell you I googled every single word on my scan report once I was home just to make sure that I understood it all (and I'd already had the consultant talk me through it after the scan!) Paranoia! Still can't actually really believe that I'm reproductively fit. Surely lightning will fork down from the sky and strike me (and my follicles) at any moment.

mm, just take it slowly - it's so great that you've got an appointment for next week. The anticipation is always the worst part, but this really is the beginning of a whole new phase. May you soon have the answers you need ((many many hugs)).

jools, sounds like you're ovulating all right! I think I said a while back that I also had the most excruciating ov pains last month - they were honestly even worse than my AF pains. I was actually glad we weren't ttc as I don't think I would have been able to do the deed! Mentioned them to my consultant yesterday after my scan and he said, 'oh, that's normal - some women have such bad ovulation pains that they get rushed into A&E thinking they have appendicitis'! He also said that 'each ovulation is a unique event' (doesn't that sound lovely? ) so these pains can be there one month and absent the next.

Dh is home today and we are doing odd jobs around the house so this is just a quick post ((waves to everyone)). Hope you are all OK!

Morning ladies,

barbie £850.........an expensive day that turned out for you. You should try shopping around for quotes especially at this time there is a real chance you will get it cheaper, I know dh works in the motor industry. Will try and be on later tonight to chat hun.

jools little things trigger the emotions don't they hun, hope you get thru the day and get and early night tonight, heah it's Friday anyway!!!

sabs fingers crossed for you visa today, let us know you you get on.

Need to call the hospital today to confirm my appointment but stupid me left the letter in the house so a trip home from work at lunchtime. Fell out with dh last night right at bedtime so we went to sleep not talking, I hate that. Sort of chatting this morning but I think he is just leaving me be atm, guess I am feeling a bit sorry for myself atm. Was feeling postive the other day but it seems to be fading......

Will catch up more later at work atm.

vm crossed posts, you are right it is the anticipation that it getting to me now, hopefully I will feel better after next week. I honestly cannot think of anything else atm and that's why I can't believe I left the letter on the table this morning. Anyway ignore me you got some goooood news yesterday so you focus on that, enjoy your day with dh..........you wouldn't be putting up your christmas tree now would you....... Take care hun xxx

Morning ladies, jools it sounds like you're laying one mighty egg hun
mm I'm sening you a bbbiiiggg hug, you sound like you need it at the mo xx
barbie you just don't need that car bill at this time of year do you, I'm sending you a hug too, what the heck....bbbiiiigggg hhhuuuggggssss all round xxxxx

Oh mm, I really feel for you - and falling out with dh probably makes it all worse... can you two talk later? I'm sure he understands that you're stressed at the moment... dh and I had a long talk about all my fears after yesterday's scan and it was a huge relief. Today we're actually trying to do all the DIY stuff we've been ignoring for a year or more. I won't be putting up a tree till the last minute! Argh! Christmas!! Thinking of you... x