Recurrent Miscarriage Support Thread 24 - tests, treatment, trying again.

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Jady
Girlie and Sun good luck tomorrow. Thinking of you, and sending positive vibes.
Cloud how's the spotting? Thinking of you for Saturday.
Tiny, hope you managed to take a moment today.
Scott has had a much better day... hope tonight is as good...
Waves to everyone, sorry, I can't keep track on my phone.

Sorry Sun good luck to you too tomorrow xx

Thanks for the good wishes ladies. Crapping myself - feel like cancelling scan and just pretending the whole pg thing isn't happening. x

sun sorry missed you have a scan tomorrow too - good luck.
wadsy hope your appointment goes well.

Glad you've had a better day with Scott today just. Hope the night goes just as well x

just - great news that Scott had a good day. Fingers crossed you can take him home very soon. x

Thanks for the good wishes. I'm still praying for a miracle but the reality is I'll be having surgery later tomorrow. Am at peace with it (although of course I wish it wasn't happening) as think three weeks of doubt has meant that I've had time to get used to it.

Already planning next steps (is that wrong?) Definitely going to visit Coventry (Pom poms at the ready) and give acupuncture ago but first we're going to book a holiday and have a lovely summer, as spring has been pretty crap.

Sorry a very me-me post. Will read back today's posts. In the meantime thank you ladies for the support so far x

Hugs girly - will be thinking of you tomorrow. Am really hoping that your miracle happens lovely. x

No need to be sorry Girlie, you absolutely should be thinking about you. I so hope it ends with your miracle. I think it sounds really healthy to make some plans you can look forward to. Big hugs.

And Sun stay strong. Will be handholding tomorrow.

Wadsy** i also check ds breathing every night before going to sleep...he is my everything. Bonkers parents unite!

Sorry you feel its all driving you potty sasha. You are a wonderful font of knowledge and support but i understand if being in-touch regularly is making the situation more unescapable. For me this thread helps me contain the problem, else i might be inappropriately bringing it up all the time with random people! This is my pressure valve, my medicine - but i totally understand what you feel.

Brummie** - boobs, mine are such numpties - it takes them ages to realise we're pregnant. How i long for small, keen, alert boobs - nipples poised like Pointers, ready to sniff out the slightest hormonal change. Mine are like those half-witted dogs you see, eyes crossed, toungues hanging out, running wildly for no appatent reason, no fucking idea what they are doing! Infact, they actually have a kind of 'wha??' and they were fuck all use breast feeding too! So don't read too much into what boobs think.

Freckle love your boobs!

Sun and Girlie keeping everything crossed for you tomorrow.
Jady that is fabulous news!

Sasha I have taken time out of the thread before for similar reasons. If/when you want to come back, we'll be here.

Wadsy I think my DH would rather split up than go to anything organised by a church, even if there was no mention of God! I am considering looking into some relationship counselling though.

For everyone in those early stages, please try not to get too caught up in symptom watching. I know I had it bad, but look what a nutjob I am!

Great scan news jady

Will be thinking of you tomorrow girlie. We'll all be in there with you whatever the outcome x

Fingers crossed for you as well sun x

wadsy I'm a wimp and dh does my injections. Could you ask them for some tips tomorrow? Hope your appointment goes well. I check Ds is breathing before I go to bed as well. Even though I can usually hear his snoring.

loopy I can't survive at the moment without my zonked out naps every afternoon or on my lunch break. I always feel worse when I wake up but need it. Have to lie on my back or I end up going back to work with a crumpled up face!

Well we're off camping for a couple of nights tomorrow. Test run for more trips in the summer. Can't say I relish the idea of a toddler wake up call at 4.30am in a light tent but hey, life is short and he deserves a couple of days away adventuring with us. Even if it rains. Hoping it will help distract me from all the mc stuff in my head right now and get me a few days closer to 12 weeks.

Will be thinking of you on Saturday cloud

Girlie**, not a 'me' post at all. I think we are all totally invested in the happiness and well-being of each other. You are important. Your pregnancy matters. Do not appologise (rmc has made us all sorry enough). I hope for a good result for you tomorrow, and a good summer which ever way it goes...sending you love and strength for tomorrow. X

Quick post to send hugs to tiny, tanny, anyone else feeling down. It changes something deep inside - but mc does not define us. Dates and anniversaries are extra tough times, for marking or ignoring or hiding in bed until they're gone, but we do survive and it does get a little better as time passes. I'm at anniversary of falling pg with mc1, weird kind of constant melancholy, just wishing and wishing and wishing none of this had happened.

Hand holding for scans tomorrow girlie and sun and for Saturday cloud and for Monday bythesea and all the others I've missed. Isn't it amazing how many on the thread are pregnant? I swap between hope and a speck of jealousy and back to hope and joy.

Waves at everyone else, I read and think of you all often.

Freckle that boob description is brilliant! You should be a writer (perhaps you are)
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Sorry in advance for missing people, knackered and trying to stick to early (already late!) nights.

jady brilliant news! So pleased!

tiny hugs to you. There's no doubt it changes a person.

Sasha totally get it, see you when we see you x

girlie hugs and more hugs, 3 week limbo is just too much. I had similar on no.4 and by the end I just wanted it over. Still hoping its not another one for you though x

sea and cloud good luck for upcoming scans.

longest exciting exciting! You are very nearly 40 weeks, right?

Welcome rainbow, so sorry for your losses.

wadsy you are 1 day ahead of me, though I am 3 days earlier by O.

snoopy I have found the ups and downs of coping and hoping and not managing and despairing are an evitable part of the journey. Hang in there.

I heard back from Prof B about the hcg. I had expressed my concerns about the birth defect link (albeit tenous and only mentioned in a few places as far as I can tell, but I am on prednisolone too which also has a very small link so that worries me). I basically said epu won't prescribe it, help what shall I do, I am just not sure.

He said leave it. He said given that there is really no evidence behind it (which he was always clear about) and given my age, and higher chance of poorer quality embryo's, and the fact I am on several meds already - let's leave it. I think I am ok with this. I will be in a panic now, but would be if I take it too. So much is still so poorly understood, and there's the whole medical thing of at a minimum, not doing harm...

just hoping Scott has a good night - justcrealised I left you out.

Freckle loving your boob action! Not a sentence I ever thought I'd say!

Girlie wishing you all the love in the world. Never apologise. We are here for you.

MrsD - another camper. There's a lot of camping action on this thread I'm more a mojito in Vegas kinda girl. So not a camper. Not happening.

I held off going to the loo tonight until I couldn't bear it anymore. I'm actually scared to go to the loo in case of what I might see.

That said I'm officially 3 days late for AF so something is happening.... ignoring the 37 day cycle way back

You ladies are ace xx

Oops bugger forgot Scott too!!! So glad he's doing well Just

Longest bloody hell - we are nearly at day 0!!!!! It's within touching distance

24 hours and 48 minutes it will be your due date!!!!! xx

Great news Jady!

Sorry but I haven't been able to read back as work's been hectic. I'm going away on holiday for a few days but I'll catch up when I get back.

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Just seen littlebear had a good scan. Really pleased to hear it! X

freckle that boob description! The best! have you ever tried stand up?! That could be your way out of teaching!

girlie huge hug lovely. Holding out a hope that all is ok but we're here handholding if you need it.

sun good luck tomorrow too.

tiny hope you found a little space for you today. MC is so hard, we're all changed by it for sure xx

jady yay for good scan news!

just thumbs up for Scott!

wadsy I check his breathing every night too!

mrsd enjoy the camping. Dh is trying to persuade me but he's got a long way to go yet!

sasha we'll be here if you need us. I'm a slightly addicted to this thread girl, it stops me boring/making uneasy everyone in real life by talking about it all the time, but can totally understand the need for a break from everything. Good luck with the ttc and hope you're back with good news before too long x

urgh no memory -sorry for anyone I've missed! Xx

Struggling to keep up with who everyone is and what they're up to so sorry in advance - good luck to everyone with upcoming scans, fingers massively crossed. To everyone who is pregnant and anxious, someone said upthread that this pregnancy lark with never be as carefree and exciting for us compared to ladies who have never been through what we have. So I guess we have to make our peace with that and try and cope as best we can.

Saying that I totally lost my shit today with all this baby stuff - it's lunchtime here and I'm on the gin. So maybe do as I say not as I do!

Quite right with the gin oz . Hope it helps.

Loving the boob description freckle
and I'm totally with you all on the checking the breathing. We (half jokingly) call it 'the life check', but i do have that little panic before going in occasionally that something will be wrong. I would say I'll be glad when she gets a bit older and i don't worry about cot death, but probably that just turns into worrying about some other thing.

Loving the boob description!

I'm another checking for life before bed. Have always done before mcs, so think it's just a flaw of being a parent rather than anything specific about mcs for me.

Thinking of you today girlie