Home and sitting out in the garden in the sunshine. Feeling a lot better, bleeding a good bit but pain relief has eased the cramps.
Hardest part was the scan prior to the procedure where she asked if we wanted to keep a picture. I broke down and said I didn't know- she was lovely and said it's on your notes, ask for it before you leave if you do want it. We decided not to as it would be a keepsake that we would get upset over, so we decided that a new little tree for our garden would be a more positive memory.
Going in to the procedure was also scary for me as I've never had an operation or been in hospital other than to have my son. But the staff were so supportive and when I had some tears in theatre a lovely lady held my hand rubbing it until I went off to sleep with the anaesthetic.
When I woke I had some tears again and when I got back on to the ward. DH gave me lots of cuddles and was a great emotional support.
Prior to leaving the lovely nurse told me that I did not need to wait to ttc again but it might be useful to wait until my period arrives to get things back to normal but she said if it happened before that, it is nothing to worry about. She also said you are more fertile after a mc and may find that it happens again quite quickly so to use protection if I was not ready for that.
I'm feeling relieved it's finally all over, it has been a very long week. DH and I are planning a nice day trip on sat to take our minds off it all and try to get back to some form of normality.
I know I will have ups and downs, but I feel closure right now and also that I am blessed with everything I do have in my life. There's just one thing missing and we will get there, sometime soon I hope x