Recurrent miscarriage testing and beyond.. Part 6.. Over here!

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We have filled up the last thread so here is the next.. Deep breath and grit your teeth for the roller coaster of emotions that continues... Hope tea and butterfly and all find it!

Poor you school, good you got to hear the hart beat though!

I had no idea about the link between alcohol and blood clotting. Have been wondering about having a glass of wine, am nearly through the 2ww and am an emotional wreck and would really love a glass of a rich red... am going to the shop!

I have a couple of cups of caffinated tea or coffee a day, had got down to nothing but, as per concensus on here, have decided it wasn't helping.

Look as us all planning holidays and getting on with our 2ww's! Anyone would think we were normals!

Ha Twenty I doubt I'll ever be normals!

Tonight I was all set to dye my hair. But started googling (again!) and wimped out just in case...argh!!!

Only just got round to updating.. They ended up keeping me in overnight for observation! Was pretty surprised as didn't think they would even get me to come in! So I'm attached to a drip and they are pumping me full of fluid and paracetamol to manage he temp and also antibiotics as a precaution as they can't find what's causing the temp. Think I've had about 2 hours sleep but the midwives have been brilliant. I will apparently be here till tonight at least.

Get well soon school. How are you feeling today?

Feeling a lot better thanks Baking.. Think all this paracetamol they are pumping into me is keeping my temp under control so that's good. Feels a bit like a holiday getting waited on! Will find out later I think if I can go home today.

Glad you're feeling better School. Sounds like you're in good hands. Do they have any idea what caused it or just a virus?

Hope you feel better soon School, and hope you get to go home in order to get some sleep!

Thanks guys. No they don't know- that's what they're trying to find out with all the tests.. Could be viral but they are giving me the antibiotics on the off chance it's bacterial. More bloods should be back tomorrow which might give some answers. DH bring DS in shortly - cant wait to see him!

Twenty- I reckon I will sleep tonight whatever as am sooo tired!

I feel like Tony Hancock - they took six vacutainer tubes of blood today. I haven't got any left for Thursdays leeches.

Glad u r feeling better school hope u r home with ds soon I have been to gp today with a pain in my groin on right side and they said cos its so long ago my dd was born its like havinf first again and muscles etc have healed and tightened so its normal think they had enough of me now I feel like a bit of a pest with one thing after another I think I am very paranoied need to try and cope without gp or epu x

I wouldn't worry about the amount you've been to the doctor/EPU LandsN. You totally should be getting the amount of care you have been getting.

2WW is driving me a bit nuts now. On day 26 and would normally be due on day 28. Thinking about buying tests on way home tonight and testing tomorrow morning. I'm feeling really impatient. I've been really bloated after eating the last few days, which is obviously getting my hopes up just because it's something that's out of the ordinary. But I get paranoid that my obsessing about symptoms causes me to feel symptoms that aren't there..! Hence feeling a bit mad and like I need putting out of my misery...

I presume you got home Tuesday School? How are you feeling?

LandsN don't let them put you off. You've got the rmc "diagnosis" the epu is there to reassure and it's the only thing they can do that's got statistical significance for a positive outcome. Also, are you sure they feel that way about you? Do you struggle receiving help?

GuppieK, uff, I'm with you on the unbearableness, madness of the 2ww. I'm due anytime from now until Sunday with Friday most likely. I am insane with hormones and was overly tearful about a work slight yesterday. My OH was more like my carer last night as I cried fairly uncontrollably while he provided tea, cuddles and tissues. I am not proud. I hope you are bloating for good reason. My breasts are slightly bigger and I'm exhausted but have also not been resting very well so I only have slightly bigger boobs to go on really - and I've not got my period spot - the mountain of a pimple that signifies af's imminent arrival. I've been poasing of course, today's only cd 24 but I can have short cycles. Fx for you tomorrow! We need one (several!) this month!

Oops, meant to say I bet you do feel drained Baking, hope you can provide what's needed tomorrow!

I do tend to feel like I am a burden on people but that's just me hating feeling like a nucience my oh has a go at me for it he says I worry too much and am too soft! They have not said anything just feel like I am there all the time could also be the fact I have been quite emotional this week and think I am getting a throat infection so back to gp Monday least it not pg related this time :) how's everyone else today x

Hope the misery o the 2wws ends soon for you waiters (in a good way!)

Lands don't feel a nuisance- always always better to be safe.

Well I didn't get out till tonight in the end. Bit over cautious really of them but at the same time I'm pleased they were so thorough and they looked after me really well. They don't know what it was- probably a virus but I've come away with antibiotics as a precaution and also iron tablets as my iron was really low too. Glad to be home!

School glad to hear you are home. Look after yourself!

Guppie good luck for testing today. FX.

LandsN it's really no surprise you are a bit paranoid after your previous experiences and all the worries you've had so far this pregnancy. I'm sure nobody is judging you for it.

Twenty FX for whenever you decide to POAS this month.

I'm seeing consultant today for appointment with dildocam - hoping it gives me the all clear on the physical front. Day 14 and think I'm due to ovulate so hope she can see a healthy looking follicle. Also have what is hopefully the last lot of bloods taken. Then a l-o-n-g wait until June when all results should be back and we have an appointment to discuss a plan of action. I'm struggling this week and tempted to just throw in the towel and give up. It's very sad that I should have been meeting my baby this week and instead I'm going through all this crap.

Sorry you've been going through it Twenty. I hope you're feeling better today. Hormones are a bitch and the stress of the wait doesn't help at all.

Baking, good luck for today. Are they just having a general look to see if all healthy? I found it quite interesting when consultant did that as she pointed out where everything was and there was an egg waiting to be released. It's not very clear what anything is, but quite fascinating if they explain what they're looking at. I'm not so keen on dildocam though!

School, glad you're home now and that they took good care of you in hospital.

I tested this morning and got BFN. Feel like AF is imminent now. Feeling quite disappointed. I've been really feeling like this month could be the month the last few days. It felt like everything was right this month. Oh well. Onwards and upwards I guess.

Boo for BFNs Guppie

Got on ok today other than that internal scans always make me feel sick. It was just a general check to see if all in working order. I'm used to looking at ultrasound scans as we use them at work so all quite interesting. She said there were plenty of follicles so looks like ovarian reserve is ok, but no dominant follicle which there should be by now, so will either have a long or anovulatory cycle but no biggie so soon after MC. Only one tube of blood donated to the vampires today, and now have a long wait until June for all the results to be back.

Guppie you're not out yet, but I know what you mean.

Hope you get helpful results baking, that is a long wait.

Glad you're home and on the up school!

LandsN if you tend to struggle with feeling a burden then the likelihood is you rely on them less than other people do. Get your support. This is your time to recieve it.

Afm, bfn's so far. Emotionally I am now thankfully more balance though so I fear it's as a result of my lining starting to shred, hence hormonally less ! No spotting yet. AF has arrived either on this cd or tomorrow since last mc but I can vary so I presume it's coming. I have no real symptoms either way. I have some twinges that don't seem to be cramping but could be the start of cramping. Wait wait wait wait...

Hi all,
May I join this thread please? Sadly just got back from a scan where they feel I'm likely to have a blighted ovum at 6 weeks. This will be my 3rd loss after one at about 5 weeks and another at 8 (probs another blighted ovum TBH, I hadn't been scanned). I have a scan in a week to see if anything has grown but don't hold much hope.

I have no kids yet and am 34 ... we started trying only less than a year ago, and each time I thought "it's OK, you're low risk..." but each time it has happened. I just feel utterly defeated. I will be 35 in summer and this is a risk factor, I cannot help thinking it will just get worse and worse (though EVERY DR has been at pains to explain that it's not a 'switch' on my birthday and at 34-36 my chances wouldn't change that significantly).

I want to get tested but at the same time, know this could be wasting valuable time. Such a dilemma. Many of the hope stories talk about 'trying for 8 years' but I DON'T HAVE 8 years.

So yeah... sorry for the very down at heart post. Just a bit fed up. Thought this one was going well - no bleeding, high HCG and very high PG, sac growing... just with nothing in they think.

Hi everyone.
Just a quickie to say hello and sorry for not posting much. It's been a busy week as we're going away and I had quite a lot of work to finish off & last minute panic buying to do!

Hi Squiz. So sorry that you've found yourself here. Your post sounds so sad and I know just how you feel. I saw your other thread about referrals for testing. I saw a consultant privately for an erpc and he offered to do tests on the nhs. Nothing was found which is a bit if a double edged sword really. I know what you mean about not wasting time though as we took time out for testing and now trying again and its taking longer than before and I feel like I've wasted loads of time. There is a good chance you are just 'unlucky' & everything will be fine next time. As you probably know often tests don't find anything. But I found having them was necessary so I felt like I was doing all I could. It helped my sanity a bit. I don't have time to write much more now but just wanted to offer my support and to say that I hope you find some comfort on this thread as we unfortunately all know how you are feeling.

Guppie and Twenty sorry about the bfns but you're both still in with a chance!

Baking how did your appointment go?

School how are you feeling?

I've been feeling so much happier this week as been totally focused on going away and getting excited. Planning on testing next weds/thurs so will keep you posted. I have no idea which was it will go as I seem permanently convinced I'm pregnant these days!! I hope my opk was right though as we've not really been dtd since so hope I've not missed it!

Right must sleep!

Hi guys, welcome squiz, I'm sorry you're in the midst of it. And don't feel bad at all about posting what you did, of course you're feeling down at the moment, it's a tough time.

Tea, how exciting you'll be testing soon, fx for you!

Afm, I'm waiting, still. Finally have what might be a period spot (on my eye brow - ), it came on last night. Otherwise no symptoms either way, bfn's (I think I tested yesterday but I can't recall), I didn't even bother testing this morning, which is stupid in one way but really af should be here any minute so felt sure I would have an answer by now and just couldn't be bothered to faff around with collecting wee and dipping a stick and waiting the 10 minutes. I have a cuple of time today and yesterday had (my apologies) bouts of cm. Each time I think "ah, there she is", but no. And I'm practically putting the toilet paper under a magnifying glass hoping to catch first sight of af. I shouldn't have wasted that fmu this morning, a bfn would have eased my mind for the day... mumble, mumble, mumble.....

Guppie? Any more clear news down your way?

Hi ladies how is everyone feeling today? I am feeling alot better now think I was just having a hormonal moment :/ I have got my 12 week scan thursday preying its all good but feel alot better :)

Squiz so sorry to read your post it is so hard after my last mc I decided to try again asap and if that didnt stick I would be tested its sucha hard decision to make I really hope you are feeling a bit better but will say this post really helps even if its just to moan you can always get very good advice or just a chat! All the lovely ladies on here have helped me a great deal xx

Hey, hope everyone's having a nice weekend. I've struck out this month with af turning up on Thursday about 4 hours after I tested (always happens!!). I was quite gutted on Thursday because I'd really felt 'different' that week. Clearly me feeling fat and bloated just meant I am fat and bloated! Double bummer. I feel more pragmatic now and am enjoying a large glass of wine! Will it ever bloody happen again though?!

Twenty and Tea - fingers crossed for you both. Twenty, I know the feeling about peering at toilet paper looking for the faintest tinge of pink! I've been doing way too much that over the last year and a half for one reason and another as I'm sure we all have :-( Tea, I do hope you're right with your feeling.

Squiz, sorry you're here and going through this at the moment, and hope this thread can help. I'm quite similar to you in that I've had 3 losses all between 6 and 8 weeks and I'm now 35 with no kids. We started ttc when I was 33 and I thought that was just about okay. I just try not to worry about the age thing and I do have quite a few friends who have had healthy pregnancies aged 36-38. I sympathise with the feeling of being defeated the third time. I really thought I would be third time lucky - that I was just unlucky twice. There's something about 3 that makes you feel like surely it can't just be bad luck. I had the testing and they found a blood clotting problem which they'll give me something for next time. I think if I could go back in time I wouldn't have stopped ttc for those 3 or so months we were waiting for the tests and results because - like Tea - now it's taking me longer than I thought to conceive and when you're in your mid-thirties that time is valuable!

Baking - your scan sounds positive and good the blood tests are over. I've never had as much blood taken as during that time. It's amazing how much they need!

Hi Squiz I'm so sorry you are going through all the heartache again. I'm in the middle of testing at the moment. As I'm 38 we are not waiting to TTC, but I don't think I ovulated last cycle (after MC) and from scan doesn't look likely this time either, I think each time it's taken 3m for my body to sort itself out hormonally so probably we'll have results by the time I'm back in gear anyway. We paid for a private appointment to get the ball rolling then GP has agreed to run a lot of the tests for us, leaving us paying for a scan which the consultant wanted to do herself and a blood test which is not available on the NHS. I really hope we will get some answers and a reason why we have had losses, preferably with something that can improve our chances next time, but I know that realistically in about 50% of cases they find nothing even after 3 MCs. I think it's still worth pursuing the tests though, makes you feel less impotent and stops the worry that there might have been something simple that would make a difference.
at everyone else.