Just wnat to write a few words each day to help me through. Feel free to ignore as it will be mostly ramblings, but i feel it will help me.
Worked out that on Saturday, i will be 6 weeks.
Luckily at this moment in time, i do not know anyone else who is pregnant too.
This is always torturous as when i miscarry, and they continue blissfully with their pregnancies, it is painful to see them grow bigger and to then give birth.
There are allot of reminders within my circle of what i could have had.
Every night, i get into bed and think, "thank God, another day with no bleeding"
Every time i go to the loo, i try to force myslef not to look......just in case, i just cant bear it.
Mostly i dont, occasionally i do, and its like i have stopped breathing and suddenly taken a huge great breath of fresh cool air when the loo roll is clear of blood.
I feel ok, not strong symptoms this together with the faint positive leads me to think that this is not a strong and viable pregnancy. Waiting for it all to start again.
Appoitnment at the end of the week at Liverpool, see what they say. I started the 5mg folic acid, and asprin, but not sure about the injections, im not convinced about them, but what if they increase my chances??????
So every day is a bonus.
Refuse to post on any of the preg bourds, not told a soul, except dh obv. I am completely ignoring and putting it to the back of my mind as if it isnt happening.
every day, is a good day...i spose.