@biwi thank you so much for taking so much time to help me out I feel genuinely very touched.
Don't worry @Ninkanink I am no where near throwing in the towel. Just having a (Monday and kids are off isolating whilst we wait for test results) sulk!!!
I have a history of disordered eating which, most recently, includes bingeing / vomitting (I am calling it that as I think purging is avoiding the issue and I want to be honest) so I am concerned that I've lost a sense of what is normal 'full'. Counting eg. calories is very dangerous for me usually as it leads to very restrictive eating. So that's one of the reasons I wanted to give this a go - as the focus is so much about nourishing your body and listening to your body and that's what I'm absolutely terrible at.
I am really enjoying it - I need to focus on that as well, I think. All the new vegetables I have discovered I LOVE and also rediscovered some which I stopped cooking as no one else liked them.
I LOVE that I'm learning / making the effort to make more things from scratch and getting rid of processed crap. And sugar - so much sugar that I used to shove down my neck. I feel better, I know I do, I have way more energy, I'm sleeping well (apart from all the weeing
, my skin is better, my mood is better.
Maybe it's the psychological trick that you are all coming to the 'end' and I keep forgetting I'm only really just starting!!
I've ordered some new plates too as we've only got a couple of what I would call 'normal' ones, the rest are gargantuan IKEA numbers that encourage some vast portions.
I will take some photos as it will be interesting to see if my portions are out - I do strongly suspect they are but happy to stand corrected!!
Again - thank you so much everyone for the support. This is truly a wonderful place to be.