Hello everyone,
The Low-vember goals are all great. Mine will be a) 4 lbs off, and b) to get better at dealing with feelings of sadness and disappointment, without trying to eat it away.
It's my turn to post with a moment of weakness that turned into a transgression. I know exactly what triggered it, too. I was mumsnetting yesterday and came upon a thread, nothing hugely out of the ordinary but it was specifically to do with something that I have always wanted to do, that someone my age and with broadly similar life trajectory is actually doing. I have long since got over the fact that it's not going to happen for me and most of the time I'm fine with it, but yesterday I really really felt sad, the kind that is painful right down in your middle. And for me sadness always turns into anger at myself (because it's my fault that I couldn't do it - I was/am perfectly capable but for various reasons it just couldn't/didn't happen). It is intense and extremely difficult to deal with. I wasn't very good at riding it out this time.
Food yesterday was:
Breakfast: a boiled egg
Lunch: half a cucumber sliced up, with tuna paté
Dinner: Beef stew, roasted celeriac, buttered spinach, and veg crush (can't remember what was in it, was carrot and swede maybe, only had one dessert spoon)
Snacks: Two squares of dark chocolate
Unnecessary evening snack eaten only for the purposes of eating away my feelings: Poppadoms - about 20g of carbs. I hate disappointing myself.
NSVs for this week so far:
I have not had any of my morning ritual cup of mocha at work - used to 'need' this to start the day feeling okay about being at work
I have stopped having milk in my tea - Yesterday I had a Lady Grey first thing, then one decaf, then one rooibus, then one mint, and finally one big mug of bouillon towards the end of the day. Plus plenty of water.
I no longer have to have flavoured sparkling water, I am fine with just drinking water (used to really dislike plain water).
My clothes are all starting to be much looser, in about a month's time I will have to buy new jeans again (already had to buy one size down).
KOKO, everyone.