oh, what a nice message batters. Memories of my mum really do help every day when I an faced with my boys.
Essbee, make the most of your saturday evening and thanks very much for the compliment. I am sure you are a lovely mother. In the middle of the worst times you see the good side of your children. Your messages on here bear this out. When you describe your son's behaviour you always seem so very balanced and sensitive about him.
When you have that appointment in November, see if you can talk about your feelings too - it's not just about your son. It is not right you should feel so at fault. I hope you can ask for, and get some professional reassurance.
Anyway, off to Alton Towers tomorrow - 6.00 start. Must get some sleep now!