Oh Essbee, I had no idea it was you on the other thread.
I can understand why you are feeling sooo bad but i'd just like to say that i think you are one of the loveliest people i have ever spoken to.
You are brave, loving, generous, funny, articulate, shall i go on, cos i could.
The amount of times i have read some of your posts and though 'god i wish i could be like that'.
You are going through a difficult time i know, but honestly you will get through this.
I had depression when i was 16 and took an overdose. I regretted it immeidatly and luckily got help before it was too late.
Even having been through that I still was not brave enough to go and see my doc when all the stuff with the flat was going on, and i know now that deep down i am still depressed, but i haven't the courage to sort it out.
You have been to your doc, and you are taking steps to sort things out, that takes lots of courage and you are so brave.
I am crap and giving advice so i'll just say that I know you will get through this and you will be happy again.
Anything i can do please let me know, anything how ever large or small.
Take care
Nutty xxxxx