Where have all the fit, interesting and available men gone (part 28)

[ninah]

lilac where are you????!

I really want him to be listed as zammo

i read that on popbitch

have copied and pasted what it said below

Love lockdown

and they put the link to his profile in too, which is here

Awww it is sweet

i love his profile picture!

Who's up for sending him a message? tbh Grange Hill was a bit after my time, being an old woman this year but I did watch it and remember him now I've checked out his profile.

Feeling a bit better. Went to bed this afternoon and Sinutab and red wine have sorted me out.

you aren't old eve. i remember zammo too but can't remember what he looked like

google him and ewwww not nice now
sorry

he never was nice tho but i still love his profile pic

hi everyone - place marking too

I remember Zammo from Grange Hill.

Also the lyrics to runaround sue by Dion - there was a film with David Essex which featured lots of songs from that era. Can't remember the film's name though.

Hope to be on a bit more soon - hope to get new work laptop next week. Its actually been at work for ages but our IT department have been unsuccessfully trying to encrypt it.

Anyway need to read back a bit. Hope Skool's date is going ok.

Oh in case Monty looks in - going to see Plan B in March.
Have to have something to look forward to

hi scl - wa sit that one where he worked on fairground>?

'that'll be the day'?

Back from date two. Thought it was going really well, went to the cinema. Lots of hand holding, leg feeling. Nice smog at the end of the night, all instigated by him.
Then he says its a bit difficult to arrange things this week but could I be free in the week. And we left it st that.

I had a nice time though.

sounds good kool did you get his number??? or have i not caught up properly again

am off now nnxx

I have his number. I don't know. Just maybe felt s little flat.
Maybe not quite what thought.

Oh crap.

So coming round for a dvd may not have been the best of plans. I need to develop self control . Plus I am now not entirely sure if I can be bothered to see him again.

Did you build it up too much TooKool?

Maybe I did. Too high expectations.
I text him to say thanks and hope he's not too ill today. He said he felt rough and by the end of the night didn't look all that great. He said he hoped he hadn't given me any of his germs and I don't get it.

He's def not interested in only trying to get his leg over which is good.

If he does ask me out in the week ill ask him if he wants to come over... lack of baby sitter abd chance for bit more snogging.

Don't worry about lack of self control, sonetimes you just want a no strings shag... and that's fine :)

Ah fuck it. I shall wait till a decent hour and reply to his last text, and ask him if he fancies coming over one evening.
If he says no, then ill know and move on.

I've got a few other people I'm talking too, but I'm not any good at dating more than one person at a time if that makes any sense.

just done my usual thing of deleting online dating account, based on too much frog spit and utter despair at finally talking to male friend about 'us'. we are, it seems 'just friends', so i'm back at the point of not allowing myself to get too close to anyone, so i can't get hurt. sigh arguably that means i miss out on the good times, but i honestly cannot bear yet another 60 year old propositioning me and thinking i should be lucky for the attention.

Hi all,

Dont write it off just yet TK, I would ask him over and see what happens.

Am off to the ball tonight with university man, he says he is really looking forward to it - seperate rooms though.

Snape - know just how you feel. Have just about got to the point of thinking I should be deleting my on line accounts too. Fed up of being used and abused by players

oh i understand that totally.

I had a bit of an ephinany last night when i came home and just felt a bit 'meh'
First thing i did was call the ' other man, who from now on ill refer to as mr big. ( to steal it from carrie!)
ANyway, after a nice natter with him i realised something. hes kind of my safety net. I am free to love him, or get angry at him or whatever, because its safe. I know nothing will ever happen ( despite thinking i want it to sometimes) I know im not going to get rejected or hurt, and because we have this ' thing' i can kid myself that its some kind of relationship, and dont have to risk real life feelings, or get too close to anyone else only to get rejected, or cheated on or anything else horrible.
Does that makse sense?

Which then of course explains my slight ( probably unfounded) disapointment yesterday. Because want i really want is for someone to be head over heels in love with me from the offset, and of course, it doesnt actually work like that. But i cant help but compare things to mr big, which arent actually real or tangiable.

So, if i see a guy, and hes still on a dating site ( like dogman is) and really, why woldnt he be after two dates, i still am. I get a little bit miffed. because i compare it to mr big.
Bcause that is easier than taking a risk, letting someone in, and risking getting hurt.

I think thats why i over anaylise things too. Im actually looking for a reason for it to be crap, so i can make an excuse and go back to the relative safety net of mr big.

I might need to explain the mr big thing a bit more too, but we have never even had sex. Its a purely emotional thing.

So - now ive figured all this out. i dont actually know what to do with it.
????

and ive text dogman this morning but havent had a reply yet.
He may be asleep.
or may just not be into me.

we shall see.