Where have all the fit, interesting and available men gone (part 24)

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Hello!

Hi Monty, how interesting, meeting up with Juice and Al surprising you. Edi is great, it's a while since I've been. Did you take any pics so I can have a nosy in fb?

Sponge, chin up, hope it all turns out ok.

Monty- sounds like you had a great time in Edi - fab that you got to meet Juice, and good to hear you and Al are sorting stuff out :)

Luckily DS1 is ok now and sounded much more cheerful and lively when I spoke to him earlier, so I didnt go home in the end. Still not sure whether faking, indigestion or something else. am worried about his weight though and despite SCL's experience (good to hear the outcome of that btw) think I may have to seek GP advice as he is comfort eating a lot recently and getting bigger and I don't know what to do about it. I don't want to make a big issue of it but am at a loss.

WM is back in contact, but in such a bad mood I really can't be bothered with him at present there's only so much effort I can make to try and cheer someone up, and my resources are somewhat low at present.

please excuse repeated use of at present...you can tell have been writing lots of work letters today!

Eve, Al took pics and I'll upload them when he emails them to me. I don't like any of them of me, but I'll put some up briefly and let you know lol.

Hi sponge, sorry you feel that way. Am feeling a bit down myself. Have spent the morning investigating carers for my mum as she wants to stay in her home as she really cant be alone any more. Getting there slowly.

Not heard from sailor. I guess my morphing from blond sex kitten into middle aged woman caring for her mum must be a bit of a shock and a real passion killer! Wouldnt be surprised if he runs away

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hi everyone how are you all?
i shall need the collective wisdom of you all soon - am not sure if something is just friendship or something else and no it's not mr boots

Hs glad your Ds improved. Sorry work is so rough though. I've been places where everyone was hating it. it saps everything from you

I do agree that not leaping into bed is better in the long run. I think some of this is my lack of self esteem wondering if he just doesn't fancy me physically. Clearly our personalities match but I have the body of a woman who has spawned three kids :( Maybe "it" isn't there. and that is without me having raised the fact that i am still breast feeding and prone to leakage.

XH turning me down when we were meant to be dating before the break up knocked me a lot.

hey all

sorry to hear all the rough stuff people are going through on hear - the health of loved ones puts everything else into perspective

elasta, if sailor thins out at the first sign of something challenging he isn't good enough for you

HS - not trivial what you are going through - we spend a lot of time at work so when it is as you describe it really makes you wonder why we bother

Tranquility has returned to my house now - full skip gone, cavity wall insulation in, virtually all freecycle stuff gone and lovely parents left. So now finally contemplating date on saturday night with GMM....seems slightly surreal tbh

quick one from me as still no computer at home so won't be posting over the weekend!

good luck to those with dates this weekend (Mily and FS), am sure all will go well and will await the update next week...

aurora - whats this about a man? more details required!

have had a much better day today, and feeling generally more positive, went for lunch with my team today which has boosted morale, and they have all said they realise I am doing all I can to resolve current issues, and what a great manager I am which is always nice to hear!

looking forward to a quiet weekend and 2 days away from it all though!

As for the WM saga, he annoyed me yesterday but then apologised, so is forgiven. He referred to himself as a doomed soul which is a bit really, especially as he is very much a mans man usually.....

Hi

Sorry not been on for a while RL been getting in way!!

I am finally childfree for 2 whole days

So am out tonight and tomorrow

Damn RL

Glad things are smoother today HS.

I could do with some advice. I skipped a few ADs so my mental reasoning is a bit skewed atm and don't know what to do if anything.

It is fairly trivial. Carrot came round the other night, I was playing a game on the xbox. He said he'd not played it, played a bit. On Weds he told me he had a confession (his word) - he has in fact completed the game before and was playing badly intentionally.

Seems small, but I have huge trust issues (he doesn't know about them), and feel like I have been lied to about something pointless, so what would stop him lying about big things.

Do I say anything? "Normal" me wouldn't be as bothered as off meds me, but I would still be a bit bothered. I feel like I am too old to be pissing about not saying anything - I wasted a lot of my marriage keeping things in, but at the same time I don't want to be over reacty too.

i dont think it is anything to worry about flame

anyway hello all, what have i missed?

I hate psycho me :(

Flame, chill! It's only a game. Strugg it off and worry about the big stuff. If he is honest about that then that's all that matters.

Hi all, Am back from funeral, went OK, in fact it was quite jolly with just immediate family and lots of toddlers running all over the place, even the vicar commented that he hadnt seen such a family gathering including all the kids for a long long time!

Mum is really poorly, having lots of discssions with my brothers on what to do for best to support her

Sailor is texting on and off, but I think is slowly backing off, who wouldnt, we dont really know each other. Will talk to him on Sunday and see what happens. am going to delete my internet profiles, just dont have the energy for this kind of game atm.

flame, hang in there girl and try to stop worrying!

:( Elasta. I am thinking of you a lot.

It could be that Sailor is just backing off as he knows you need space.

I know I need to chill . Tomorrow the pills should start kicking in again. I hate that my brain doesn't work properly without them. Thursday morning I was bouncing, from Thursday lunchtime onwards I have been paranoid, twitchy, on edge and tearful. I've warned him briefly that I am liable to snap at random things for a few days and why, and he seemed ok with it, but paranoid me is convinced he will have sat and thought today and decided I'm not worth the hassle.

Worrying about XH too as he has fresh injuries and as much as has gone on with us, I hate to think of him being low enough to self harm again.

Sorry for being nuts

I've woken up with DD2 and feel much more stable . Found a text from midnightish, just a random chatty one. :)

Hey

Elasta, you are impressively strong given all that is going on for you. The sailor thing will work itself out, you are focusing on the right things

Am off out on date (having bath and hairwash vwith dd2 in prep is a million miles away from getting ready last time I was 'out there'

Will report back

Good luck mummy, hope your date goes well do check in later, need someone to cheer me up!

Mum is getting worse am at home with the kids now but guess I will be back there on monday. Brother trying to get docs out to her now.

sailor has just txt me. Am going to call him tomorrow and explain what is happenning, then he can either run away or hang in there...He is the least of my problems

Hey elasta

You poor thing, it is so hard what you are going through

Well, I had a nice night. Have got very mixed feelings. GMM is a lovely man but I don't have a spark aboutr him. There is isn't the carrot or sailor (or for that matter WM) thing going on. I enjoyed his company and had a rather good snog to say goodbye....but I don't know

I guess I'd rather not fall head of heels for someone as I don't have the time or energy for a grand passion. Am not yet divorced so must take my feelings with a pinch of salt as I suspect am a bit all over the place

There's maybe something a bit forced about the whole thing

God knows

Any thoughts wise M.N. friends?

hi mummy, am a bit pisssed so take eveything i say with a pinch of salt.

I dated a lovely man before I met sailor but he didnt do it for me and I knew that. Then I met traveller, who messed me around a bit, so I walked away, but I would have shagged him in a second!

Then I met sailor, ahem Still in contact, may come to nothing due to my circumstances, which are very difficult atm, but it has taught me I know how I really feel.

Hope this helps

Glad to hear you are pissed

I feel like I inhabit a different universe to this guy and although we have common likes and interests we are just living incredibly different lives and that makes it hard to imagine really connecting

And part of me would love to get completely carried away and fancy the pants off someone (sorta where I was headed with prof...in my head at least )

Oh well. I should get some sleep.

I know hugs aren't the done thing on m n elasta but ((((( )))) anyway

Nn

You can tell I'm tired, got me brackets wrong

Morning all!!

Well I have a bad head this morning!! I was so stressed yesterday I drank most of a bottle of wine before bedtime.

My brother has been down to take mum to the Drs this morning to try and get her treated and I am sorting out nursing care for her at home as she doesnt want to be in hospital. All very sad.

Have walked the dogs, turned out the horse, and am doing some housework. At some stage I will try to get the kids off the x box and out of the house for a bit.

:( Elasta

MILY - I have no idea tbh. I started this whole thing for a laugh, and there was Carrot and Man A. Man A sounds like yours - although I didn't meet him, we seemed to have things in common and get on, but there wasn't that spark. The spark was there from the first message with Carrot. If I hadn't met him, then I would have been content to just enjoy myself with a "nice" guy iyswim.

My head hurts. Drank vast quantities of wine. Our meal out went a bit awry - he brought round wine to watch x factor (I love that he is as sad as me ) before we went out. Got through that and it turns out he had both not eaten all day, and is a lightweight :o Decided we couldn't be arsed with going out properly, so went to the shop for more wine and a pizza, and watched a film. He has far more willpower than me. {whimper}. He does want to though - assured me of that - so I am less insecure now.