Pamela thread 6 - Bile Duct Cancer, Continued

[WilsonMilson]

Hi all

It’s Kerr here, I wanted to post a quick update as I’m conscious Pamela hasn’t been on for a few days and the thread seems to have reached its limit.

Pamela hasn’t been feeling so good over the last few days - on a positive note, her bloods seem to have stabilised and, all being well, she might be ok for chemo round 2 in the next couple of days. She had a blood transfusion yesterday which, we hope, will also boost her energy levels. On the downside, her jaundice has returned, the bilirubin levels are increasing significantly. The CT scan at the beginning of the week showed no new blockages and our Consultant thought that some early necrosis of the tumour after the last chemo might be contributing, but nobody really knows what’s causing it. Further discussion to take place tomorrow. Seeing the jaundice is one of the worst parts of this, it’s so clear and obvious when it’s happening yet there’s nothing we can do to alleviate it.

Just wanted to let you know the latest. Please, please keep praying for her - she’s my everything, my world, and every thought and prayer is deeply appreciated.

Kerr

I shared this on a previous Pamela post and sharing again because, as I explained to Pamela, it is my favourite poem and after a while I began to associate her journey with the words. An inspiration, a true joy and how proud I would have been to say this was my wife, family member or friend. May you get some rest after this fight Pamela. Your a winner, of many hearts, I hope the thoughts of love wrap around your precious family at this sad time.

To dear Kerr, Jacob and to all your family,
I checked in this evening to see how things were and was so sad to read your updates and sad news about Pamela. Her posts tell what an amazing and brave lady she was and what a loving family she has. May she rest in peace. My heart goes out to you all and I send you my prayers and condolences. xxx

I previously posted on the fake thread, and am horrified that someone behaved in such a way, it’s despicable.

Kerr, I am deeply saddened by the loss of Pamela. Whilst a stranger to each other, but the same age, I was in awe of the way she wrote with such eloquence and honesty, whilst maintaining dignity and a sense of humour. It was clear that her fight was hard fought, but she also wrote about the pain and discomfort she endured and I hope you can take solace in knowing that she’s at peace now and no longer suffering.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, Jacob, and her mother. Pamela reminded me to never take anything for granted, to appreciate the simple things and to look for the good in everything. For that I will be eternally grateful, thank you @WilsonMilson 💐

Fake thread?

Yes, there was a fake thread. Removed now.
Despicable.

Kerr and Jacob, you must be so proud of her. The way she shone in the darkest time of her life. She touched the hearts of hundreds of people, rest in peace Pamela x

I’ve been very moved by this thread and just wanted to express my sorrow to Pamela’s family for your incalculable loss. And my admiration of her courage.

Rest in peace Pamela I hope you are Free of pain now You were so Brave and so Strong I’m sorry for your loss Kerr, Jacob & the rest of your family xx

So sorry for your loss. Your lovely girl died surrounded by love 💐

So deeply sorry for your loss and sending lots of love to you, Jacob and the rest of the family. Thank you Pamela for choosing to share part of your raw and honest journey with us for the past few months and I hope you are now peaceful and pain free. The snippet we saw of you was so beautiful and wonderful and you have genuinely touched us all. Rest easy xx

So sorry to hear the very sad news. Sleep tight Pamela. xxx

Sending best wishes to you all on the loss of someone who just seemed amazing. You must have felt lucky to have her in your lives and it is so desperately sad that she is gone. Sending you lots of strength and good wishes for the coming weeks and months

So sorry for your loss, Pamela seemed like an amazing woman. Thinking of you, Jacob, your family and friends. Xx

Kerr and Jacob and Pamela's family, I am so sorry you have lost your beloved Pamela. Her wonderful kind spirit came across in her posts.
I am so sorry a fake thread was created and try to ignore it, it is one person who has some sort of issue to do something like that but I can imagine how upsetting it must have been. You can see how many strangers have cared about all of you since 17th May when Pamela was so unlucky to get this diagnosis. She fought with such courage and we were all hoping she would get more time with you all. I am so sorry and send prayers to you all.

I kept hoping beyond all hope that Pamela’s outcome would be a happy one - I am so very sorry that that wasn’t to be xx I keep thinking how this could be any one of us at any time and I for one don’t think I would have the strength and courage to keep posting everyday to keep everyone informed of how I was doing xx Pamela was a complete stranger to me but through her posts I felt she was an incredibly brave and inspirational lady I read each and everyone of her posts and tried to put myself in her shoes - thank you Pamela for making me realise that life is for living and I now try and cherish everyday - rest in peace beautiful and thank you so much for sharing your incredible bravery with us all - much love to Kerr and all of your family - i am sure your loss will be felt greatly by everyone who knew you xx

I have been thinking of Pamela and was really hoping to hear some good news. What a true inspiration she was. You sound like a truly wonderful family. My moto is always be kind, I will devote all future random acts of kindness to Pamela, and will wear my lipstick with pride. Rest in eternal peace xxx

Hi Kerr, I don’t know if you are still reading these but I am so, so sorry for your loss and that it all happened so quickly. My thoughts are with you, your son and all your family. Pamela was clearly an incredible woman and we have all been privileged to see just a tiny fraction of that through these threads. 💐 x

Hi Kerr, I'm so sorry to hear that Pamela has passed away. She was clearly a beautiful person, inside and out. Sending you all love.

Hi AlleycatMarie

Yes, I continue to read, and re-read every single one of the messages that have been posted - it’s a source of huge comfort seeing how Pamela’s light shone amongst Mumsnetters. I saw that every single day which is why she’s everything to me. Quite a few people asked if I would be keeping a permanent record of the blog - that’s something I’ll certainly be doing.

I’ve been going through old photos and I wanted to share this as the thread comes to an end. I have many favourites but this one stands out, taken several years ago - me and my beautiful wife.

Take care and thank you for everything.

Kerr

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Utterly perfect photo Kerr....
Much love to yourself and Jacob
Forever in my thoughts xx

She was beautiful, inside and outside. Thinking of you 💜

What a beautiful photo, it shows such love.

Bless you all 🌷

Absolutely stunning xx

Thank you for sharing that lovely photo Kerr.