IVF November 2022 - thread 2

[countrypunk]

Hello everyone, shiny new thread for us IVF warriors.

@Crystal88
@Jx3303
@LF82
@Hopewishprayer
@Foreverhoping33
@Cat89

@countrypunk first injection done for me

I had worked myself up all evening about doing it, but in end wasn’t bad at all. Felt so natural again

sorry you are feeling negative I am trying to stay positive, just want Friday to be here for first scan to see if anything I have done this round affects my growth in folicies xx

@Crystal88 well done on the first injection!

@countrypunk there’s so much conflicting things we read that it blows my mind! Hoping your new doctor can put your mind at ease perhaps?
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@LF82 I know, I need to stay away from the internet. I've since read other research which says the first thing I read was rubbish. So now I feel better and I'm not reading anything else!

How are you getting on?

@countrypunk glad you are feeling better! It’s so hard to know what to believe isn’t it! I am ok, started my withdrawal bleed at the weekend and now taking the pill for 21 days, then on day 2 of my next AF I have a scan (🙈) and hope that it shows all the follicles from last round have gone so I can start again… will be a freeze all cycle … again. Desperate now to actually have a transfer! But hoping to get some embryos in the freezer at least x

@Crystal88 great news your period came and you've gotten started with stims. Hope you're feeling ok and hope for some good growth and numbers at your Friday scan 🤞🏻

@LF82 hope you're feeling ok on the pill, I did that before both my NHS cycles (it was for scheduling purposes them then) I hope the next 3 weeks fly by and it helps regulate things and give you a fresh start for your next cycle x

@countrypunk sending all the luck and love for you starting stims. There are so many stories online, from all sides of treatment, protocols etc it's hard not to read them and worry. Lots and lots of people have success on high stims, is this dose much higher than your previous? Perhaps you could speak to your clinic for some reassurance? I'm really sorry you've feeling this way 😔 good idea to step away from google, as hard as it is! Xx

I'm doing ok thank you ❤️ I went back to work (from home and will just be here for the next few weeks anyway as work getting new A/C) Monday and am just taking my time. My boss has been super understanding and I had a nice chat with her yesterday. I have come a long way but I still have days when I'm sad and just so wish this hadn't happened.

I'm back to the hospital next Wednesday for another scan. After the meds didn't work we decided to wait and hope (given we've tried everything and they were keen to operate again - and neither am I) that the tissue still there (but had moved down at least) will pass either before or with my period. I've been trying to move on a bit even though my body isn't quite there yet. Xx

@LF82 Bloody hell, what a palaver. Are you feeling OK? I hope you get some embryos to freeze too x

@Crystal88 Good luck with your scan on Friday, let us know how it goes. Glad you're staying positive x

@Jx3303 Thank you. Reading stuff online isn't a very good idea, I've decided. Just need to trust the clinic and hope for the best. Got a bit worked up last night so need to somehow detach myself.

So glad your boss is being supportive, that's exactly as it should be. Is it good being back at work? Sometimes a distraction is good, but I hope it's not stressful.

It sounds like you're taking steps forward which is brilliant. It is very sad and it's difficult to move on when your body won't let you xxx

@countrypunk we've all done it I'm sure, it's hard not to google and want to know as much as possible about everything, totally understand. But yeah, trust the clinic and they will be closely monitoring you throughout. When do you start?

I was just offline Monday catching up on emails and things then back on teams online yesterday. I had a bit of a teary day with people saying nice things about me being back. When I say I have some sad days, really they are all sad with what happened but some days more than others I guess. Sure you know what I mean. Trying to take my mind off it and I have managed a few days of no tears at all. Then I feel bad like I shouldn't not cry. Messes with my head a lot.

I'm counting down the days til our summer holiday. All this meds have really made me pile on the pounds though so I'm trying hard to lose a bit before we go. Another hard thing to come to terms with, I feel super unconfident about myself. Sorry I'm off on a negative note again. But a year+ on and off of meds, emotional eating, hormones has really made me hate the way I look. Being a woman is hard at the best of times! Xx

@Jx3303 Friday! I'm on 450 of menopur and then 5 days later I add fyremadel to the mix. Hopefully the side effects won't be too bad this time because no buserelin.

I do know what you mean. I felt a bit weird/guilty about how soon I felt OK afterwards, but actually starting a new round has brought it all back and I'm really scared of it happening again. We're strong people. Don't forget that 💪🏽

God, tell me about it! It's ridiculous really isn't it. We go through so much and then on top of that we feel bad about ourselves putting on a bit of weight, which is totally understandable! Try to give yourself a bit of a break on that front. You've got a lovely holiday coming up and you're going to have a fabulous, relaxing time! Xx

@countrypunk I really hope less side effects for you! Just take it easy, rest plenty and be kind to yourself 💕

I think no matter how we feel we'll feel guilty won't we. It's such a mix of emotions. Wanting to feel better then feeling a bit bad, but also feeling even more awful when I'm miserable cos I must be so hard to live with, my poor OH. I need to get some of my old self back, for me and for him.

I know I'm with you there - its scary and I have the same fears for when we go again. I think that's why I've taken a break, I need some space from appointments and always waiting and things going terribly wrong. This is a whole new round, a brand new clinic and I really hope that you get some lovely embryos and a great transfer. Is it a single cycle? You're doing amazing, you've made the huge step and you're right, we are strong x

Thank you - I just want to feel a bit better in myself for bikini wearing. So trying my hardest this week. Although we're going to our local beer festival so that won't help haha but I think it will do me some good to get out properly and socialise - I hope so anyway! And the weather is looking amazing for it so fingers crossed 🤞🏻I have a hair appointment for Friday too, new hair new me haha if anything some self care xx

@countrypunk @Jx3303 i am doing ok at the moment - mainly I think as I have no choice. We are going away on holiday on Sunday & that is helping me a lot! Haven’t had much time off work this year bar for ivf so a break will be welcome. I definitely know what you mean about ivf, drugs, lack of exercise impacting my body! @Jx3303 self care is definitely called for! Glad work is going ok & your boss is being so nice x

@LF82 ah lovely I'm glad to hear you have a holiday too, where are you off to? Totally with you, I've used so many holidays for IVF (although my work were also good with me just taking time for appointments and working away etc) I've carried over the last few years and always say I won't but never know what I'm going to need. But I plan to use the rest of them this year if I can and not on appointments. Self care is definitely what we all need, just trying on holiday clothes was a reality check on the weight gain 😂 so I've 3 weeks to try my best to shift a bit xx

@Jx3303 i keep putting off trying my holiday clothes but might have to do it tomorrow in case I need an emergency shopping trip! We are going to Spain for a few nights. Can’t wait! X

@LF82 I tried on some from last year that fit but not quite as good as our September holiday so got some new things and a pile that isn't coming from probably pre-ivf that had no chance of fitting 😂 lovely, you deserve the break and the time away for sure, we all spend so much time and money and effort on it this journey I'm really glad some of us are managing to get away for some time out and a refresh x

@Jx3303 i agree I think my holiday put me in good stead to start this journey again. Currently listening to relaxation music, doing a adult colouring book with hot water bottle on, let’s see if this Makes any different to scan Friday xx

@countrypunk good luck for starting tomorrow xx

@Crystal88 good luck for your first scan!

@Crystal88 good luck for your first scan today! I hope it goes well!!

@countrypunk also thinking of you starting the new cycle today! Hoping that the new protocol works well for you!!

@Jx3303 a holiday sounds nice. Ivf was really starting to get to me too. It just takes over our lives and there is no rest from it at all. This holiday has done me the world of good and I really hope a holiday will fo the same for you. Thinking about you lots. Xxxxx

Update from scan is mixed news, I have a cyst on my right hand side which they aren’t worried about but means I probably won’t get any viable focilies on that side

left is working well though I have 2 at 9mm and 3 small ones

so for moment they are letting the cycle run and have another scan Monday

they are still hopeful I can get to EC so let’s see what happens xx

@Crystal88 How are you doing? Did they tell you anything about why the cyst has appeared? Am glad the follicles on the left are working well 🤞 hopefully they will be progressing nicely for you over the weekend x

@LF82 ive had one before no symptoms was picked up on a fertility scan last year and it disappeared on the next scan a month later. It’s very common the nurse said and they will just ignore it, they usually happen after your cycle when you don’t release the egg they fill with fluid, must of been from one of last cycles has I only had my baseline in April and it wasn’t there . She said it should affect EC as long as it doesn’t grow and they will remove all the focilies on left and on the right side they will remove any big ones has long has they aren’t touching the cyst, has they can’t do them. So I am just preparing myself for none on right and go with all on the left. Still feeling positive about it all and keeping up with my meds, starting the cetrotide on Sunday. Predicted EC is Friday or Monday so I think the nurse wouldn’t have said that if she wasn’t happy with how I am progressing. Nice early scan on Monday at 8.10 so hoping for relaxing weekend and then let’s see what Monday brings. It’s strange when she told me I was stressing about the cyst but after a few hours I am now thinking what will be will be. I can’t change anything, I just need to go with flow stressing won’t help and hopefully we will get at least one viable egg xx

@countrypunk hows meds going, when you 1st scan xx

@Crystal88 I have everything crossed for you tomorrows scan goes well!

@countrypunk how are your meds?

@Foreverhoping33 i hope you had a lovely time in Italy!

@Jx3303 hope you are doing ok?

I am on my first day of holiday - had a guilt free glass of wine x

Sorry, I went dark again!

Had a really busy weekend and my period was late so I only started on the meds yesterday. Got a bit stressed mixing it all but OK in the end.

I'm not sure when first scan will be, I need to phone the clinic today.

@LF82 Lovely! Enjoy your holiday x

@Crystal88 I'm sorry about your cyst, that's very annoying. Good luck with this morning's scan. You're right about going with the flow x

@Jx3303 I hope you're OK and enjoyed the beer festival! 🍻 x

@Foreverhoping33 Thinking of you too x

Update from scan, they asked me if I wanted to cancel as at moment they think there will be only two follicle big enough, but decided to carry on. What will be will be. Another scan on Wednesday to see by a miracle some more grow but the nurse wasn’t hopeful

still going with the flow and seeing what happens. Trying not to stress has that will not help xx