Come on Clomid! Thread 2019 v3

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Wow looks like lots of us on tww. Best of luck to you all. Let's do this! 😬

@DobbieFreeElf I've only felt symptoms about a week after last Clomid pill and crazy cramps on my ovaries during Ovulation. It's only my first cycle on it so we'll see how the rest of the month goes !

@Jemstar33 I'm feeling ok just so worried about the fact it's the last month, going to be really strange not taking clomid now😂 AF will be due on the 25th-26th so I will probably test a week today. When do you test? x

I’m testing on Sunday, will be CD26 by then 🤞🏽🤞🏽
Have you spoken with your docs about next steps? Really hope you don’t need to and Tuesday is your day! X

Feel like I need to rant and you guys might be the only ones who don’t think I’m a complete bitch. So cycle day 21 bloods showed no ovulation, cycle day 28 bloods yesterday and was due a phone call in the afternoon with the results, no phone call and clinic number straight to voicemail as always.
Today I called them all morning, straight to voicemail, I went out and made sure my phone was on loud and I was loading the car at the shops and a very sweet man who lives locally and has learning difficulties started a conversation with me, unfortunately he was distressed as nobody wanted to talk to him today and so we chatted for a bit but I insisted several times I had to get going but he didn’t pick up on the cues ☹️. Missed the call didn’t I. And now it’s going straight to voicemail. I’m irrationally annoyed even though that human interaction probably means more than a blood test result but I’m livid 😂
I’m only desperate to know if I’ve ovulated already so I can stop having sex for this month because I’m done!
Husband said I’m cold hearted but fertility fog is real right?

@Goingbacktokansascity I totally feel you. It starts feeling like a duty to populate rather than "getting close" to your partner. But the fact that you realise that you speaking to that man is very meaningful means a lot. You're allowed to feel that way imo. Best to let it out then shake it off 😉

@Rinoa 😘 thank you. Clinic closed for the day and didn’t Answer my calls so I’m going to try and populate the world again tonight 😂😭💤💤💤💤

@Jemstar33 how many dpo will you be on cd26? Good luck !!! Yes consultant wants us to go for ivf, there's a clinic we could go to in November, but it's only a 33% success rate, or a new one we can go to but not until February, that ones 55% success rate. I need to loose a little bit of weight as well first, so we are thinking wait until February even though I don't want to wait at all, it's probably best to go for the best chance clinic, we wouldn't be able to afford ivf for a long time after the nhs chance. x

@Goingbacktokansascity that's totally normal to rant, it's the most annoying thing waiting for results and missing when they actually call! x

@AmyMaria2 I’ll be 13 so it might be too early but I’ll try! Have been having really bad cramps today, think it could be AF. How many dpo will you be on Tuesday?
It might be good to let yourself have a blow out over Xmas with the last 6 months you’ve had. Really hope you don’t need it tho x

@Goingbacktokansascity that’s ridiculous!! I’d be livid too 😫 x

@AmyMaria2 sorry I’m getting mixed up, I’ll be cd 27, 14 dpo on Sunday! X

I've had a somewhat positive thought today, about ttc. To me it feels a bit more meaningful the fact we are actively planning and pouring ourselves into trying to have our children. Rather than "oops I'm preggo" . Not to make it negative about those that didn't plan (fyi i wasn't planned 😉) because obviously I wouldn't want anyone to have to go thru such stress. But I guess when our time comes it'll be like "yes! We did it! We worked our butts off and made you" lol idk just random thought ...

@Goingbacktokansascity my husband stupidly decided to come down a slide at the park (with our child I should probably add) backwards, and completely took himself out and my first thought was “shizzle we need to DTD tonight, I hope this doesn’t stop him wanting to”

P.s also been having hugely irrational, jealous TTC thoughts today, my best friend (who has a little one same age as ours) who’s hubby doesn’t want to have a second, has told me she’s conveniently forgetting to take the pill, so (in my head) she’s probably going to be pregnant next week and another friend has said she’s going to start trying in Jan and all I could think was “I bet you’ll be pregnant before me”

I tried talking to DH (before the slide incident) and he just enraged me by saying that I’m ridiculous to be jealous (I’m jealous even if random celebs and strangers on the street)

I know I should be a good and supportive friend but I’m just being a self centred moo and having a down day

@Jemstar33 it should be okay, it's so hard not to test early! But 14dpo sounds okay, I'll be 13dpo😬 yes probably best to wait until February if we do have to go down that road!! I really hope you don't get AF x

@DobbieFreeElf don't worry about it I think it's normal for us all to feel slightly like that, I know I do and always end up feeling bad that I'm not happy for someone else! x

Thanks @AmyMaria2 nice to know I’m not the only one who feels like this

I use the wondfo ovulation test strips from amazon, I prefer them to the one step ones. I've sacked off clearblue - I spent bloody hundreds on them!

I'm on cd18 and don't think I've ovulated or am anywhere near ovulating. Tests are all very negative! Feeling quite peeved about it. I had acupuncture last Monday and have just remembered that when I used to do it I wasn't sure if it was actually making my cycles longer by delaying ovulation further. So I've cancelled my acupuncture appointment for next month! It's my second cycle after the ovarian drilling and laparoscopy to clear my tube and the first cycle was a nice 'normal' length so I naively thought I was 'fixed' at least for a while, but seems not. Soooo fed up of all the sex again as we don't want to miss the boat accidentally!

So true @Rinoa ❤️

@DobbieFreeElf I agree with @AmyMaria2 those thoughts are very normal. Next week, it’ll be a year since my friend told me she was pregnant and I cried in front of her. The baby will be over 12 weeks old. It’s crazy how time has dragged but life has moved on.

I know, right @Jemstar33 . My first miscarriage was nearly 2 years ago now and so many “events” which I have thought “oh i’ll definitely be pregnant before/ for that” have come and gone now. Every one is a reminder of this long miserable journey! (Incidentally i’ve tried saying this to my husband and he just doesn’t get it, how are men wired completely differently?!)

Sorry for being a Debbie downer everyone I’ll cheer up tomorrow x

@Goingbacktokansascity I’m totally with you on the DTD chore thing, so much so that that’s been the motivator to push for IVF as Dr says he’s confident we’d conceive naturally eventually (as it’s unexplained infertility), and said to stop timing BD. This led to me having a breakdown in the Drs office saying I don’t wanna do it the days I’m already doing, let alone all month long.

His response was that if the emotional impact is affecting you so much, maybe we should just go straight for IVF (which I instantly agreed with).

Just feel a bit bad for DP as he’s funding it all.

@DobbieFreeElf oh don’t listen to your OH, we all feel jealous and angry at those who get pregnant when we’re TTC. It’s normal!

I’m 7dpo and my anxiety is through the roof, still hanging onto the hope that we get that BFP this month and don’t have to go through with the IVF.

DP doesn’t get my anxiety! We ended up arguing last night because I wanted to talk about it and he wanted to go to bed. He said nothing he says ever helps and I say the same thing every day, so there’s no benefit to talking about it. Plus it’s draining him listening to me.

@doomkittycleo my husband also says that he doesn’t say anything when I try to have these conversations with him because he “can’t seem to ever say the right thing so he just can’t be bothered to say anything at all”... men!

@DobbieFreeElf I know, and I’m really struggling with this TWW. I think with more than just a BFP or BFN on the cards, it’s the prospect of starting IVF drugs on the day af arrives.

So a BFN equals PMT and additional hormones just for good measure.

@doomkittycleo try not to be scared about the IVF drugs, they really weren't as bad as I was expecting. What drugs are you taking first?

@Marmite83, it’s not necessarily that I’m scared, just that until af arrives I won’t know for sure if we will actually need it. It’s the not knowing that’s bugging me. I’m one of those people who like to meticulously plan everything to the finest detail. I’m not good with uncertainty.

I’m on Buserelin first, which the nurse did say effectively puts you into a temporary menopause with all it’s lovely side effects.

Plus we haven’t told anyone (except x2 friends who is only see every now and again) that we’re doing it. So I don’t really have anyone to sound off too about it.

@doomkittycleo, I get it, I'm a planner too. I found that when AF showed up I was actually relieved for once because it meant I knew for certain that we'd be doing IVF. I only told two people too. One lives in Canada and the other I only see every few weeks. I only told one of them when I got my bfp and then the mmc. Feel free to sound off to me if you want to x

@DobbieFreeElf @doomkittycleo I feel the same, I actually bought my husband a bottle of his favourite bourbon as a “nice gift” when actually it’s just because I know he gets horny after 2...cue him watching the football downstairs last night then sneaking up for a quickie 😉 he’s none the wiser and actually apologised this morning for waking me up for sex because he knows I’m tired...sucker

@Rinoa what you said about appreciating the baby more I think is true. Although I also think it contributed to my post natal anxiety because I wanted him so much and now he was here I was terrified something would happen, then he became a biter and I realise he can handle himself 😂

@Goingbacktokansascity 🙈😂 that’s one hell of a tactic 😉.

I wish I had the inclination to trick DP into thinking it’s his idea.

Now we’re in the TWW I’m glad we don’t have to BD again for a while.

@Rinoa I totally get that about appreciating baby more after difficulties conceive. But it’s easy to become overprotective if you keep thinking that way. I can be a bit overprotective with DD, but I’m working on it. It doesn’t help that she’s really small for her age.