August/september ivf/icsi treatment

[Lil221]

everyone,
I've started a new thread for people starting treatment this month. I'm hoping to make some new friends with people who understand how hard this journey is. Hopefully we can have some fun whilst getting on with the treatment.
This is my first cycle of ivf/icsi so any treatment buddies please say hello.
Lil x

@facevalue I haven't told anyone we're doing this, I couldn't cope with my mum knowing, she would worry and the pressure would be to much. I sometimes think they must know we're having issues but then she'll go on and on about someone she knows daughter is pregnant and lives near me. She always manages to bring up these things in conversation. I've got another scan today, hopefully I'll get a better idea when EC will be. Hope you TWW lot are doing ok.

@facevalue, my mum is obsessed with the pregnancy! She's continuously making plans about when the baby comes, etc, which makes me frustrated and quite stressed tbh. I've told her that she shouldn't be so optimistic about it but I feel bad taking the good thoughts away from her. It's also made me think that being negative and slightly pessimistic could also have an impact on the chances to conceive. I'm trying to give the pregnancy and the baby some space in my thoughts, visualise it, feel it and be happy about it, but always with extreme caution. I haven't told anything at work, have you guys been open about it?

That's weird...seems like my last post disappeared 🤔 aí have no idea what happened there...
@facevalue thank you. It's so good to hear those things, specially because I'm always so pessimistic, so thank you for reminding me that there's always hope.

I haven't told my Mom. She can't deal with these things and would only drive me even more crazy. Only friends know so far but I have told a few people at work as well but they qualify as friends so...

Hi Guys, first try at IUI here. Had baseline scan today and start injections (2 a day) this evening. Feeling very nervous about everything!

Hi @Vilanelle (great name!), welcome on board. I don't know much about IUI, didn't realise it involved injections?

@Ginandtonic31yes at leeds, we're a bit of a guinea pig batch as newer patients seem to be back to Guys due to some licensing issues, hope they know what they're doing!

I've not told my parents, they'd be supportive and they're not baby botherers but it's just too much pressure.

1 more day til we find out how many embryos made it to PGD testing, I'm going to be glued to my phone tomorrow

Hi @parkandride

Yes I am on Metformin and Supercur? Can not spell it. Starting tonight and am worried about side effects. Also scared of this all actually working. In all the excitement I haven't stopped to think about being pregnant and giving birth lol

Welcome @Vilanelle.

No good news I'm afraid...the embryos didn't survive so they're discarding them today. I just feel they're throwing part of me in the bin...it's so sad and upseting.

So that's it, either this one implants or there's nothing left.

Hope you're all having a good day

So sorry to hear @onisa7. Keep your hopes up, you only need one to succeed!

Welcome @Vilanelle! I'm with you about being scared and nervous about EVERYTHING! what if it doesn't work? what if it works? I'm sure you'll have enough time (9 whole long months!) to think about the pregnancy and the delivery! In the meantime breathe and try to live the moment :)

Hey @Onisa7 how are you getting along after transfer x

@drminion Glad I am not alone!

@onisa7 I am sorry to hear that, wishing you all the luck for this try xx

you're definitely not alone @vilanelle! there's an army of women full of hormones, fears, questions and a lot of love on the other side of the screen! :)

@drminion It feels so lonely doesn't it! I have to do my injections tonight, I know it will be fine but am concerned of the pain. Then I think to myself, jesus woman if it works I am in for a hell of a lot more!

Where are you in your journey?

don't worry about the pain @vilanelle! it's only a prick! After the hysterosalpingography and with the possibility of giving birth (even if by CS) a needle prick is totally negligible!
I just finished downregulation, waiting for AF then scans/injections, egg retrieval and, if embryos succeed, ET in a few weeks time. I've been having pretty bad migraines and foul mood, but I'm trying to stay positive ;) I had a couple of beers yesterday (low alcohol) felt a bit guilty about it but I just couldn't deal with the anxiety!

@drminion what is downreg? Also, I wouldn't worry about the drinking as long as its not in excess. I stopped completely a week before appointment but to be honest I would only have a couple of ciders every few weeks anyway!

I am praying I don't have bad side affects from injections. I am a bit of a hypochondriac so will panic!

@vilanelle, downregulation is the chemical suppression of ovarian function to better control ovulation and egg maturation during the stimulation phase. This is done by taking hormones that are similar to contraceptive treatment
I'm also concerned about the adverse effects of injections (mainly getting bloated and feeling horribly fat) but I guess it's a taster of pregnancy and it won't last forever :)

@drminion I see, well we are all in this together!

@drminion if it helps I feel so bloated post retrieval but I weighed myself today and have only put on 1lb which I'm sure is water as I'm constantly weeing

So sorry to hear about your remaining embryos @Onisa7 fingers crossed so tightly for the one onboard

I'm triggering tonight! So not prepared for this, I need to calm down.

@LillyLeaf amazing .. just take a deep breath then exhale and blow out all the stress.. it's fantastic because no more injections after!

just relax for two days.. water with a fresh lemon x what will be will be .. you did all you can and the rest is luck

the fact is you do deserve to have a baby and to be happy .. you just go through your journey to achieve it xxx hugs

Good luck @LillyLeaf give yourself 5 minutes before hand to prep everything. Even though it was nothing new we were stressing reading the instructions then stressing it was 3 minutes late! It's just one more injection then you get a nice little break

@Lil221 I'm ok. The dizziness stoped now. I'm pretty sure this ain't going anywhere so just really emotional about the all thing and feeling guilty for feeling emotional...

How about you?

@LillyLeaf it's really just one more shot (in terms of pain) bit I know the feeling. I was so happy when we did that one. I'm sure you'll be fine. Fingers crossed

I think I'm just worried about getting more bad results, I just need something to go our way. I know I won't get many eggs so therefore not many embryos then I'll pgs test them knowing that we had a bad result last time. It's so hard.

I know it's hard to do but there's no point in worrying about anything @LillyLeaf, whatever happens is not up to you anymore except how you handle it.
Whenever I think about not being able to get pregnant, I imagine how my life would be without kids, what would I do to help people or animals how I would travel around the world, what challenges I'd take at work, etc. I think it's important to see the whole picture and not get stuck in the pregnancy loop.
Why are you feeling guilty about feeling emotional @Onisa7? You should allow yourself to go through every single emotion, fighting your feelings will only make you more stressed. Crying is also a way to regulate stressful situations. Today a little cry when I was reading your posts, I felt the fear, frustration and hope of so many women that made me pretty overwhelmed. I guess writing here it's a bit of a group therapy, that we definitely need in these extreme situations

@Vilanelle welcome and I hope your injections went ok.

@Onisa7 I'm so sorry about your embryos, everyone crossed for the one on board.

Trigger is done, thanks everyone for talking me down, I feel better and I agree nothing more can be down now. I'm looking forward to a nice sedated sleep on Wednesday.