August/september ivf/icsi treatment

[Lil221]

everyone,
I've started a new thread for people starting treatment this month. I'm hoping to make some new friends with people who understand how hard this journey is. Hopefully we can have some fun whilst getting on with the treatment.
This is my first cycle of ivf/icsi so any treatment buddies please say hello.
Lil x

@Sabelaa thank you for your words. I was expecting the worse (from the beggining) and my worse fears have been confirmed. I've done the test and is negative. Thank you ladies for all your support. I could have never imagine how hard this is and have the most deep deep respect for all of you. Even though I was preparing myself it's still so bloody hard. I have none frozen and to think that I have to go through the same thing absolutely petrifies me. I don't know what I'm gonna do next. Now I'm just deeply angry and a rag of a person.

Best of luck to all of you. I'll keep checking on your progress and sending you all the positive vibes your away.

@Onisa7 I am so sorry. Nothing anyone says will make it ok. But I have been where you are so all I can say is that yes you will feel all sorts of anger, emotions and questions and there is nothing wrong with that. Then if it's an option for you to try again you will pick urself up and go through it. You will be amazed at your own strength. Unfortunately with each cycle it takes away a bit of our hope until the next one. The question I asked myself with each one has been can I make peace with myself if I don't try again and ofcourse can we afford it and until then I kept going. So for now do something that can take a bit of the pain away, holiday etc eat and drink what u want for a bit. Then your focus on the next one will overtake and hopefully the next one will be the one. It's shit and an unfair road that no one gets except us. So i am sure everyone feels the same, we are here for u xx

@Onisa7 so sorry. It will hurt and it's unfair. Look after yourself.

Sending you all the love @Onisa7

I agree with @Sabelaa 😢😢😢 it's my 5th cycle.. i was fully ready to just go again.

but absolutely take the time to curse and dwell and cry and be angry ... it's absolutely unfair .. you r a mum without a baby so fingers crossed the baby / be it your 1st or 2nd or 12th - it will come one way or another x

lots of love

@Sabelaa sorry i didn't answer your question. my clinic said scan +6-7 weeks. they will scan me in 3 weeks so i guess i might be 7w+3d ( if it sticks)

i keep freaking out that i'll MC any minute now- just shows once u have a bad experience u just assume it will happen again x

So sorry @Onisa7, this whole process is so all consuming, it takes a bit of yourself (a rag is such a good description!) and so anything you're feeling is totally understandable, give yourself time to think it all over x

@Onisa7 sending lots of love. It sucks - you seemed to have such a positive attitude and just doesn’t seem fair. Let yourself be angry and sad when you need to be. Xx have that holiday and glass of wine to help you reset. Xx

@facevalue I know how u feel. Having a wee has become an exhausting and frightening process thinking u will see blood. It's awful but we r blessed that we have managed to cross one hirdle xx

@Sabelaa i woke up at 1am anxious and held off going for a wee until now 02:53am with fear. How do people cope with cancer and other major life challenges when I cannot even cope with having a wee...

on a positive note, before test day I had decided I must have distractions so joined an art class and really enjoyed it. was very helpful to take my mind off things for a while.

How are we all today?

Hello ladies and happy almost end of the week!
I'm so very sorry @Onisa7, I really feel your sadness and frustration, we're all carrying it around together with you. I send you a big hug and a lot of love
I had a second post-stimulation scan today, felt a bit depressed as only 3 follicles seem to be developing, I thought I had 8 or more but they're not responding as well as the others. I'm tired, and bloated all the time, I feel like a snake carrying eggs...

How are you getting along with your partners? I'm finding mine particularly irritating, bless him he wants to help but he's behaving like a child!

@drminion My partner is being great. Cooking and cleaning. I feel really sick today. Wondering if it could be the pessaries but only started them yesterday

@facevalue glad you found a distraction to take your mind off things. We drive ourselves mad over thinking. I had a panic last night after I got s bit of cramp as it was around this time that I had cramps too which ended in a MC. But I keep telling myself now that at the end of the day there is nothing I or anyone can do to change anything if it wants to stick it will. I am just focusing on taking it easy, resting and having relaxed evenings. I been off work which has been great dreading going back.

@drminion are you continuing to stimm? Even a couple of days can make a difference. I went from 6 to 10 collected on the day as I continued to stimm a couple days more. I know we hope for more but it only takes one at the end of the day. For me no matter how many I had collected I only ended up with 1 that got to blast stage. Is this your first cycle? Fingers crossed for u.
My husband has been amazing he is helping with everything and been very supportive emotionally too this one has been really hard on my body.
I think though with medication etc everything they do can be irritating and I suppose they don't know exactly how it feels as it's us that bear pretty much everything.

Hope everyone is doing ok xx

@drminion to be perfectly honest this journey is cruel on us but is also cruel on the partners. these hormones and emotions are crazy. my husband is tolerating all my mood swings. he's looking after our 2 years old and carrying all things .. i literally spend most of the time chilling. he at times thinks i'm taking the piss but he also wants a baby. it helps them if you make a point of pausing every now and then to look in them in the eyes and say " thank you for your support and all you do i don't know what i'd do without you" and if they like something buy it and if u can give them a night off to see the guys/ girls to unwind x i'm sorry for anyone who is not getting the support from a partner and definitely everyone should take up counselling if provided by your clinic it absolutely helps xxx

it's a beautiful sunny day and i slept on the sofa for the last 3 hours ...

@itwasalovelydreamwhileitlasted any news on your embryo tests? it's a lot of money so i hope they find some normal.

@GreyC any news?

@Mostunexpected how are you getting on?

@IvfBeenWaiting any updates?

@drminion i had only 3 follicles and on my last scan before the trigger one actually disappeared!

they collected 2 mature eggs only two fertilised two day 3 transfer - no frozen

and a BFP waiting for my scan i'm hoping it's a twin 😍😍😍😍 fingers crossed

it can still work i promise

2nd cycle i only has one follicle one egg one embryo and bfp is my DD 2years old

it only takes one

i want to give you all hope but it might be your 3rd 4th or 10th cycle ... no guarantees

goodluck xxx

@facevalue
I'm Day 2 of stims so egg collection will be around 23/24th I think but won't have results from PGS for a few weeks after that I think

We tested negative today! I'm happy we aren't emotional wrecks and we are in a good place. We are going to book in for 2nd round. Can we start as soon as next month?

@Ayuree 😔 sorry babe. if you have a normal period there's nothing to stop you. call your clinic to book the next frozen cycle? but if it's a whole new cycle i would suggest taking time to check if your clinic is still your best option and attend free open days to check others x hugs

@Ayuree Sorry this cycle hasn't worked for you - I think you have to wait to have one full period before starting again x

Is anyone else in their TWW? I have eight days left...so hard

Hi everyone would it be okay for me to just jump in please, it’s my first time too, I was just wondering how you ladies felt? Today is my 10th day and all of a sudden my boobs have gotten really sore like it would when your due on,

@Stacey2007 10th day of TWW? i think as mentioned multiple times just test on your OTD and really just hope for the best.

for me sore boobs only happens when i'm pregnant BUT the pessaries leaflet say very clearly that it's also a hormonal side effect. you only have another 4 days to go. just hang in there x goodluck

Sorry no I should have put it better, 10 th day from start of ivf, tonight is my 10th injection 🙉

@facevalue & @itwasalovelydreamwhileitlasted it was a long day at work which was a great distraction. Nurse has booked in for 18/10 for an appointment. We paid for two rounds with CARE Fertility. Since we don't have any frozen embryos we will start again in November. What clinics do you go to? Any recommendations for clinics in the North West?