Clomid Thread 2019 V2

[Dinosauraddict]

Our old clomid thread is no longer allowing new comments, and it's taken me 24 hours and multiple failed comments to understand why - we filled it up So thought I'd start a new one...

I had a tiny bit of spotting this morning I'm only cd22 🤞my app has estimate me at 9dpo though and I only have a 12 day leautal phase though so it could go either way x

@Goingbacktokansascity let us know how you get on. Hope you have a fab hol xxx

@impatientmammy eek, here's hoping 🙏🏻

Still no sign of AF for me. So I'm on cd30. My longest ever cycle was 36 days but that was a one off. It's hard not to get your hopes up. I was trying to convince myself that all clear blue are wrong so my BFN must be wrong. Crazy how your brain goes when you're so desperate 🙈

@squirrelnutkins1 BFN which was expected

@Goingbacktokansascity how long are your cycles normally? Are you going abroad for your hols? How the weather has changed here! Xx

@squirrelnutkins1 yes abroad thank god! I’m excited to bask in the sun! Cycle on letrozole is 28 days roughly, without letrozole is anywhere up to 60. So I know technically I might not be out, I got my last BFP on cycle day 28 but with no peak OPK I think I need my letrozole upper. I conceived on 7.5mg last time but only on 2.5 this time

Sorry I kinda disappeared after my BFN. AF has been and gone and I’m now in FW.

I’m in the UK for the summer, without DH, so no clomid or anything this cycle. When I get back home I’ll have also missed my next cycle for clomid so won’t be doing anything until September now.

A part of me is completely gutted but another part of me is just thinking maybe this isn’t what is meant for me. I don’t want my whole life, and whole marriage to be consumed by TTC- the trials and tribulations and the emotional turmoil is just too much!

Hey everyone, I’m new here. How do I add a pic?

Background- I’ve a nearly 5 year old boy conceived naturally after weight loss, diabetes threw pregnancy in diagnosed.

Ttc number 2 more or less straight away with no luck, PCOS was diagnosed and started clomid. Conceived in second month on CD21 unfortunately had a missed miscarriage at 16 weeks. Tried clomid for a couple of months after this but the side effects weren’t great plus I wasn’t in the right place mentally so stopped.

Fast forward to now, I’m trying again, on 2000 metformin and 50mg clomid. On cd 13 one step opks all neg tho had a positive clear blue on on cd9, along with ovary pain for a few days, could ovulation be happening?

@kaypea Was the clearblue flashing or static smiley? I'd get dtd either way. Sorry to hear about your miscarriage
Hopefully it's just to early to know @Goingbacktokansascity keep us updated
We have lots of cycles apart due to DHs job @Tealismycolour tbh it makes the following cycle exciting again. Hopefully you'll feel the same
I've had nothing since my spotting this morning it's normal for me to have nothing until about 48 hours after spotting I hate this part 😩 x

Hi everyone, looks like I’m back. Unfortunately my pregnancy ended in miscarriage on Tuesday. Heartbroken but going to stay positive. Clomid worked last time so praying to god it works again.

Think I’m going to wait a month or two before starting clomid again. Will let everything settle down.

The hospital have been really shit and I don’t know if I need to go in for a scan or anything they just told me to go home, wait a week and then take a pregnancy test. I’ll give them a call tomorrow and see what they say.

What a rollercoaster of emotions.

How’s everyone getting on?

@impatientmammy thank you for your reply. I use the pink clear blue so it was static smiley. I’ve only ever had smileys when I have ovulated but CD9 is the earliest yet! How do I add pics?

@Jemstar33 I'm so sorry hun. Give yourself time to grieve xxx

@Goingbacktokansascity enjoy your hol! 🌞 I need to check my dosage, not sure what it is. Will you ask your clinic re an increase of dose?
Well AF arrived 🙄 will ring the clinic tomorrow to see what they say. They said to ring either way. She said after the first month they don't normally monitor to make it as non invasive as poss and less stressful but said I could ask for a scan etc. Think I will tbh as I find the not knowing more stressful.

Just below the box where you type a reply you click the paperclip sign @kaypee28

Thank you @squirrelnutkins1 it’s tough. Have you taken any tests yet? Cd30 and no AF is fab. Have you noticed any other signs?

@Goingbacktokansascity there’s still time! Enjoy your holiday

@Jemstar33 please do look after yourself. I totally shut down after mine and I've been having counselling. Doesn't take the pain away but def helps to put my feelings out there and for them to be validated. How is OH?

I came on this evening 🙁 convinced myself this was our month 💔 I barely ever drink but had a strong craving for red wine so sent OH on the wine run! He came back with my fave chocs too 💕

@squirrelnutkins1 I understand how you could shut off, it’s hands down been the hardest week of my life. I’ll look into the counselling. How are you feeling now, can I ask how long ago it was?

OH was angry, confused, felt helpless it’s so hard for him too. But he tries to be the strong one. He couldn’t believe how matter of fact the doc was at the hospital. But I told him, there’s no way to dress up the fact you’re having a miscarriage.

I’ve been reading up on if I should wait for a while before trying again or just go for it. There’s a lot of conflicting info. I just desperately want it even more so now. We only knew for a week but we were so happy. I was stupid enough to tell my family too and it’s been hard having to explain what’s going on. I won’t be doing that again. I think I’ll be trying to keep it a secret for as long as possible. Even after 12 weeks I’ll still be worrying.

I’m also scared that if I do get pregnant again I’ll miscarry again and I’ll be told I won’t be able to carry a child. That’s the toughest thing for me, I really want to experience a pregnancy, giving birth etc. I’d be gutted if I never got that option.

This is all normal, right?

Sorry that AF arrived. Stupid cow!!

Wine and chocs is defo what you need and you sound as though you have a lovely partner. It makes you love them even more when things like this happen doesn’t it? ❤️

@Jemstar I don’t have a paperclip option, I’ll figure it out 😂 so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. Xxx

@Jemstar33 he's a keeper for sure xxx

@Kaypee28 I think you have to wait 24 hours if you're new x

@Jemstar33 I'm so sorry for your loss 😩 there's nothing good I can say here but yes it is definitely normal to worry let yourself feel the feels I hope the hospital are more helpful tomorrow x

@jemstar23 I'm so sorry for your loss. The NHS were shit with me too if it's any consolation, I guess they are busy and see a lot of it and can't stop to think about the impact it has on us and the fight we've had to even get at that stage. I was 11 weeks so it was very traumatic for me physically. I don't want to trigger anyone so I won't go in to detail but it still haunts me every time i close my eyes.

I feel exactly the same way you do about getting pregnant again, I'm terrified I'll miscarry again - if I can get pregnant at all. I think it is normal to feel that way, I've been trying to get counselling but still waiting and it's been nearly 9 months since my miscarriage. If you can get a referral for counselling even if you think you don't need it, I would do it because it may hit you harder later down the line and waiting lists are long.

I waited till my first natural period came before trying again but I now wish I hadn't waited and had tried straight away so just do what you are comfortable with. Look after yourself xxx

@Pinktruffle I’m so sorry 💔 I can’t believe you’ve been waiting for counselling for 9 months, that is shocking!! I’m so angry for you. You’re some woman to be here going through this 🌟

This may sound really cold but I think I can get over it if I can get pregnant again quickly. But I know if I’m still not pregnant by the end of the year, I’ll be on the way to a breakdown xxx

That's exactly how I felt @jemstar33. At times I was even upbeat thinking that 'I've got pregnant naturally once so I'll be able to get pregnant again' as this is what every medical professional said to me. Then my due date came round and I still wasn't pregnant and my cousin had a baby on my due date and my mental health crashed hard, and I'm still no where near recovered. Every piece of bad news I keep getting is like a knife to the heart. I even said to my husband on Saturday that I'm not even sure that I can make it through this.

Looking after yourself is the most important thing right now, make sure you have help in the pipeline xx

That’s exactly what the doc said to us after she told us we miscarried. I was pretty pissed off, she doesn’t know the fight it’s taken to get here. She also told us not to wait. I’ll start to track my ovulation next week, doubt it’ll happen as I’ve not taken clomid but will wait and see.

My heart aches for you @pinktruffle how many rounds of clomid have you taken? Have you got any next steps lined up?

My work are really good, they pay for private healthcare so I have the option of counselling I’m just not sure I want it yet. Maybe if I don’t get caught quickly I will need it more then xxx

I'm on round 7 now - likely my last. I paid for some private tracking scans this month and they said I had hydrosalpinx (fluid) on my right fallopian tube which is basically toxic to eggs and embryos so the likliness of getting pregnant is incredibly low. The NHS aren't really willing to do anything at the moment, they have told me to wait 6 weeks and they'll send me for another scan and if it's still there they will look at treatment. Meanwhile, I've been looking online and there is a very real chance of me losing my fallopian tube so the NHS's inaction is driving me insane.

My referral for IVF appointment is on Septmeber 5th, again that's unlikely to progress much if the fallopian tube isn't dealt with and at 36, I'm running out of time.

We are thinking about going private but I'm not sure how we will afford it.

@Jemstar33 having the option to go private through work will be a Godsend for you. The depth of the trauma hit me later so just keep an eye on yourself and reach out if you need it. Even if everything is fine, counselling is good for us so there is no harm in giving it a go.