IVF/ICSI May/June 1000 posts plus :)

[Cauliflower82]

Hi peeps :)

I’ll hyperlink this to our old thread so we can continue bitching about crystal82 😂

I can’t believe we’ve almost got to 1000 posts. I didn’t even know that was a thing - thank you @kittykatsmile because I had no idea it would just max out and I can NOT go on without you all. That’s not even an option.

@Cauliflower82 my mum asks me every day if I've had cramping and today so far is the first day since day 7 I haven't. I'm still terrified it won't stick but I don't think it means positive or negative.

Afternoon Girls

@Cauliflower82 - Like the others have said it sounds like a normal symptom so please try not to worry.

Thanks for the well wishes girls, I am so happy to not being going to work tomorrow as I am of no use today, my brain has completed left the building!

I'm in for EC tomorrow AM so I'll update you all once I'm awake and with it, given yesterday's scan there might not be anything to update with but I'm not dwelling on it.

Oh very exciting @RRoonilWazlib :)

@Zest11 I'm sorry to hear the news and hope you're okay.

@Mrbay Left ovaries love to hide. I did have advice from my clinic to make sure you are not constipated as apparently that can cause the bowel to be in the way and keep the ovary high. If you are, work on that and your ovary may drop down a little to a better position for EC.

@RRoonilWazlib That is great news. Fingers crossed for your OTD.

@Cauliflower82 Please do not stress over cramping at 7dp5dt. It may not be AF cramps. I had that fullness and cramping at 6dp5dt and 7dp5dt and was convinced that AF was coming and I was out. I was even googling to see if it was possible to get AF whilst still on progesterone as I was so convinced. I had my BFP on 8dp5dt. It may just be a combination of Pip and the progesterone so do not lose hope yet.

@Ginandtonic31 It is a lot harder than I thought once I had the BFP and I am really symptom watching. If I haven't felt a bit of cramping then I start worrying that it's going wrong as well. Roll on 22nd July.

@cornishmaid1 - thanks, I'll hit the fruit hard tonight!

@RRoonilWazlib that’s excellent news - I hope I can join you by peeing on sticks soon, or peeing in a cup 😂.

@mrbay best of luck for tomorrow :). You’ve not really expressed any anxiety about the pain or anything tomorrow, but I just wanted to do some good and give you some advice. Take all of the drugs - I didn’t find it too bad. In fact I was noticeably quite high. Afterwards, like the next day or so, if you’re in pain, it might be because you’re constipated. I took a mild laxative and it changed my life 😂 thank you to @Ginandtonic31 for that advice.

Thank you everyone for trying to reassure me. I feel if I poas now I’d have an answer but I am incredibly superstitious and have never had luck with sticks - they always give me the result I do not want.
@ginandtonic31 thank you ☺️ you’re doing so well. I feel, as silly as this could sound, that you have a different aura in your writing right now and you seem so positive and hopeful. It’s so lovely to see after all you’ve been through.
@CornishMaid1 thank you - did you bloat too?

I’m bloated and look about three months pregnant, even my incredibly polite husband says so (probably a red flag and we should get divorced like right now, and I’ll be getting the embryos!!!!!!!)

@RRoonilWazlib amazing! A line is a line. Congratulations.

Cauliflower82 you sound so much better now lovely lady. I'm so glad. You're so nearly there. 44 hours by my calculations and you'll know xx

I am also so bloated. Mine is from the fucking evil steroids I'm on and I look at least 4 months pregnant which is really getting me down and really shouldn't I know. I am also so worried about the scan now. Did I say this before but I feel like I've got mild post traumatic stress after what happened last time.

Sorry for the pity party. I know how lucky I am and I feel horrible for complaining.

@Cauliflower82 if you had posted that anywhere else on mumsnet you would be told to leave him in a heartbeat I swear!! I don't know why I do it to myself but when I'm bored sometimes I slip into the 'other realm' and end up reading posts in other areas and I get so panicky!!! I really really must stop and pick up a book instead or something!

It was definitely day 7 I started cramping. It was the day I went to those awards and I had been lugging a suitcase around and at the awards I text my mum to say I was cramping. It continued the next day too and has been on and off since. Today is day 13 and I just did a test. Why I don't know?! I did one of the saying ones and it was positive with 2-3 weeks (so 4-5 weeks) which is spot on. I must admit I still shit myself when I see a positive.

You're right @Cauliflower82 I think I am feeling more positive. I think. I get moments when I'm like oh god what am I doing but I think it just takes time doesn't it. My biggest worry is still my DH is too old now and it isn't fair on the child, etc. (He's 46) But I know these days that means nothing really, it's more important he's a good dad, which he will be. I'm back to my therapy tomorrow (although she will tell me off as I'm meant to be doing breathing exercises and I can't even breath at all with this cold!). And I need to book with the clinic counsellor still. Work is just so busy. I wish I could get over the fear of what other people think of me/us.

@CornishMaid1 actually perhaps that's why I bought a test today as had no cramping. But then worry when I do! I've read about people getting spots etc which I haven't and I'm the first person to get spots normally as my skin and hair is so greasy! Is your scan 22ns July too?

@KittyKatSmile if anyone sounds like a pitty party it's me! I sometimes feel so guilty for being panicked and someone who I met on a group specifically for the genetic testing I still speak to and she was really very nasty to me last week when I said I just feel in shock and it hasn't sunk in and I can't feel excited yet and she said 'you've got all I've ever wanted so I can't talk to you'. I just thought I could confide. So now I'm really so sorry if I've made anyone on here feel that way at all because I have been so open. I'm so so sorry if I have. I think you're all amazing and that's the reason I've just splurged all my thoughts. I hope we can all stay 'friends' through this journey.

@KittyKatSmile it's bound to have left fear for you. But is this the first time on the steroids doing it? Have confidence in them that they're doing the right thing!

@Ginandtonic31 I can obviously only speak for myself but you've never made me feel that way. What a horrible thing for that woman to say. Why are people like this??

I've been on the steroids before and lost the last baby on them although the protocol has changed slightly this time around (at the scan where there was no heartbeat my last doctor told me that it was my fault).

I know there's no point in panicking; it won't change the outcome at all. Will try to get an early night tonight although my last drugs are at 11pm which is annoying.

Thanks for listening x

@RroonilWazLib congratulations!! If you have a line now it will definitely be positive on Friday!

@Cauliflower82 glad you are feeling more positive. And bloating is actually a really good sign (I'm not bloated at all)

@KittyKatSmile why would it be your fault?!

I hope it anyone else is upset by me they would tell me. I tried to tell her I was just shocked and I've never seen a positive pregnancy test in my life so it will take some sinking in. She just said well I hope it does sink in one day and that was that. I've apologised but had no reply. I've really tried to support her too 😞

@Ginandtonic31 I had stopped taking the steroids every month from ovulation as I was getting really bad side effects (you have to wean off every month) plus I got a second opinion and they said steroids can prevent you from getting pregnant. So I only started them when I got BFP and he said that's why I lost it. Maybe factually correct but there are ways of delivering that message. Prick.

I'll tell you if you upset me. At the moment you're only really upsetting me because I'd like a gin and tonic. Or 3 xx

@KittyKatSmile I know, I didn't think that sodding name through did I. And he was a shit! No you don't say that. Some doctors think they know everything.

Talking of alcohol, my mum found me an okay red wine in Sainsbury's! It obviously isn't as good but it's okay if you fancy a glass so you don't miss out etc. Will be good over Christmas when I love to crack open the red!

Before I go to bed, with my massively bloated belly, I just wanted to say that I’m not offended or upset by anything I’ve read on the board, this one anyway 😂. I think the people who have positive results on this board have always been kind and compassionate, always sensitive and honest too. We’re here through the good and bad.

@KittyKatSmile I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again, that doctor is a prick!!

@Ginandtonic31 you have no reason to worry 🤗 none at all xx

@Zest11 thank you. Hope you’re doing okay. Are you going anywhere over the summer?

@Cauliflower82 whilst I remember day 7 is also the day I had a huge double chin on the awards photos. We could say that was bloating!?

PS did anyone cryat Love Island?

@Ginandtonic31 oh my god. My housemate made me watch killing eve so I couldn't watch Love Island at the right time, just starting now and my sister in law has been messaging me saying she's sobbing!

@KittyKatSmile I was trying to hide the tears from my DH 😂

@califlower82 - thank for thinking of me, I'm not overly worried as what will be, will be.
Plus, I've not asked how they'll do it and I don't want to know 🤣
How are you feeling now?
I also agree @ginandtonic31 makes me crave a gin!

After chatting with a few people about tomorrow, I've realised that people don't know how to take me as I've pretty black and white about things so I don't expect tomorrow to be positive but I'm cool with that as I'm not at the end of the road yet.

@ginandtonic31 - I'm glad to hear that you are feeling positive and that woman can shove off!

@RRoonilWazlib Congrats-how exciting -hope the lines keep getting darker

Girls, did anyone else feel a lot of the EC? It was an intense stabbing pain.
On bright side, they found 3 eggs, fingers crossed they are mature and will fertilize

@Mrbay I was completely out of it during my EC so didn’t feel anything, but was advised I might feel some movement “down below”. So glad they got 3 eggs :) Fingers crossed!

@RRoonilWazlib congratulations! How exciting!

@Mrbay, same as @AliciaWhiskers I felt nothing other than a deep sleep. Good news. Fingers crossed for tonight x

@AliciaWhiskers how are you feeling about tww?

@Cauliflower82 almost there lovely. So close! How are you feeling?

@KittyKatSmile I may eat my words at some point, but it’s ok. What will be will be. OTD isn’t until the end of next week, so I’ve got aaaaaaaaaages to go yet!