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[AliceAbsolum]

New March/April IVF thread.

I'm Alice, 34, TTC1 for 3 years 4 months. Currently 4 days into a short ivf protocol with max dose of stims as my AMH ran away last year. Its my only NHS funded cycle and my last chance to have a child that's genetically mine. /fingers crossed/

Remember it won't damage you. Your job is to tolerate the emotions and be proactive with getting a D&C. I hope gp can help tomorrow. What's your plan for tonight?

@Pleaseletitbeme so sorry for what you're going through right now. I've had 2MMCs, one last year and one only last month. Every time I went to my local hospital EPU for a scan, and both times opted for a D&C. with my first MMC, they only scheduled me a week later and they didn't have any available slots. And with my 2nd MMC, I had d&c next day. Hope your local nhs would be able to find you a slot ASAP!

Hey @Pleaseletitbeme - I don't know if you can, but could you ring bupa direct? I can have a look online if it helps. I was despairing hysterically in a lay-by and they were amazing. They sent a list of places over to contact and the rest was straightforward. (I did have cover, however I think you might be able to just call). It is so difficult. X

WB, ive just ensued the spire group and Marie stopes to see if they can help.
I’ve calmed down a bit now and I’m back home.

Good, if it helps (depending on where you are) I went here: www.womenshealthdulwich.com looks like they're still open til 8. X

@Pleaseletitbeme I’m sorry to hear this is so hard to get the D and C organised - you must be very anxious to move forward with it.

@phreedam @Hopingforbabyd I’m so pleased you have a plan-it must feel good to have something to focus on.

I had my transfer of my embryo yesterday. It was quite stressful and took three and half hours because my bladder wasn’t full enough and the suppository I had to take because gave me an unsettled tummy so then I had to go to the loo-which obviously emptied my bladder also (sorry tmi!). Anyway in the end it went fine but afterwards I felt sick as a dog -I think it was the stress, meds and huge amounts of water I had drunk. Took today off-feel less nauseous but very wiped out. I expected transfer to be easy! I hope they stress and feeling ill hasn’t ruined things -but I’m trying to say to myself that an embryo is going to implant or its not and feeling a bit sick and being stressed shouldn’t be a problem!

Sending love to everyone.

@hopingforbabyd Okay cool I'm glad you're feeling more upbeat about this- so am I! Will you be having a more aggressive protocol then? We have decided to go for a more aggressive round as well before considering a natural cycle IVF. I was already on high stims but it seems they're still able to push it a bit further.
I will be on clomid 150mg for days 1-5
then 225 menopur and 225 gonal f every day till egg collection
plus the fyremadel starting day 6 every morning. OMG typing it out just makes it all real again!
I actually went back to drinking normal tea and eating what I please but we must start being 'good' again HAHA
Yay we are cycle buddies again- I'm glad we got each others back. You were probably right to start sooner- you know your body best! Thank god they listened lol.
A Natural Modified cycle is when they follow your natural menstrual cycle and therefore just concentrate on one leading follicle, sometimes with very very low dose of either gonal f or menopur to help push it along. they then hold back ovulation once it reaches 14mm with the morning injection until it matures then they do the egg collection. It's just a milder approach, we will be doing this if the next cycle doesn't work because I'll be on FULL WACK of meds now.

So please to hear that you guys are gearing up again. I have my fingers and toes crossed!

I am much calmer today. Officially all cried out. I have an appointment Sunday for a d+c.

Then I just want to go from there. Want to try again ASAP.

Hi @mouse1234567 😁 so glad to hear from you! How did your cycle go besides transfer? It sounds like you had a right tough time yesterday bless you, you poor thing feeling rubbish. How are you feeling today? I’m right with you on the thought of if it’s going to implant it will. I certainly have learnt a lot that no matter what we do during the tww nature will do its own thing. Just remember lots of people who fall naturally get sick, feel stressed and do all the things they shouldn’t but that little one will always find a way. I think you’re safe 😘 wishing you a very quick and speedy tww! May I ask what the suppository was? I wasn’t asked to take one just wondering if this is in all cycles or varies from clinic so I know for next time x

@phreedam wow Gurl!! That sounds like a full plan and I like it!!! I’m not too sure what meds I’ll be on we will know on the day we go in to collect them but they too agreed that we will go more aggressive this time upping doses and possibly two injections instead of the one a day. The consultant said they feel they want to quicken up my stims to hopefully get more eggs which will give us a higher chance of having more on day 3/5. I’m a bit worried they might over stimulate me but I’m just gonna go with it. I’ll try anything at this stage. Haha I’m the same as you I’ve been enjoying everything and I told myself soon as af arrives I’ll have my last bout of caffeine 😉 I’ve only had about 5 cups in 5 weeks so not too bad but I’d rather cut it out...just in case. So happy to be finally getting somewhere and I can’t believe how quickly it’s all coming around yet again. Thanks for explaining the method for NM cycle it seems like a much softer approach but you go with what you feels right. We’re gonna do this!! 💪🏼 X
@pleaseletitbeme thanks lovely, it’s nice to have a little plan in place again especially when times have felt so dark. So glad you have an appointment and I’m glad you’re feeling a little calmer now. Go with however you feel, you’re allowed to feel all the feels. I’m hoping the sun warms up soon just to give us a little lift in the day, all this rain doesn’t work well when times are tough it makes everything feel even more gloomy x

@Pleaseletitbeme you're almost there hun, after Sunday it'll be sorted and you can draw a line under this and try again! We must keep going- it's the only way!

Phree thank you.
Good luck guys and keep going with the updates.
I do t know yet how quickly we are allowed to go again.

So I’m here. Waiting on the emergency list for a d+c.
Don’t know when my op will be. Hoping this morning but it could be anytime today or tomorrow.
The staff have been lovely and have given me a little pair of knitted angel wings.... which was lovely but just made me cry even more.

@Pleaseletitbeme I hope you are ok. Have you had the procedure yet? Thinking of you.

I’m 3dp5dt -the tww is hard isn’t it! I’m trying to think of work tomo as a good distraction-I have a really busy one as well -but again trying to think that is a good thing. No symptoms other than tiredness!

I’m also going to make a list tonight ofall the fun things I can do if I get a bfn.

Hope everyone has had a good weekend.

Oh Mouse! Please stay positive. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you.
Today was ok. The staff who looked after me were just lovely. Kind and thoughtful.
I’m in no pain and have a little bleeding (but nothing to frighten me).
OH has taken me for a lovely drive and a cheeky take away- which we ate on a park bench in the warm sunshine.
I just want to be able to start again.
A lovely charity who make gowns for babies who died out of wedding dresses gave me a little keepsake which I will treasure.

@pleaseletitbeme bless them how sweet! Glad you got to have a nice afternoon with hubby. As hard as it’s been I’m glad you have a little closure now and I think the feeling of wanting to go again shows you are getting to the right mindset. You take care of yourself and keep us updated with how you get on. Sending love as always x

@mouse1234567 the tww is incredibly tough, I found it the hardest part. Keep going! I’m glad you have work to keep you busy. That’s one thing I’ll change next cycle as I had too much time to sit and think. I’m hoping this time round (not sure if you ladies watch it) but love island keeps me busy on a night time and puts me in good spirits with positive happy summer vibes 🥰 who can complain at that feeling! Keep doing what you’re doing. I know it’s a really tough wait. Just enjoy the moment while it’s happening. Tomorrow is a new day and one step closer x

@Pleaseletitbeme we're all glad to see you made it through this- you are so strong! Onwards and upwards for us all! :)
@phreedam wow you're great at curbing the caffeine, I cant seem to stay off it lol, two injections a night isn't too bad...well it's all I've ever known in the world of IVF because that's what I did (and then the morning injection too made it 3 a day) but you'll get used to it.

Had a bit of a palaver regarding in-laws coming to see us next month (perfect timing) so there's no way in hell I'm doing my cycle while they are staying with us. Looks like that's another months delay, feels like I've got forever until we go for round 2 :( :( I was so revved up for starting in a couple of weeks!!!! super pissed. Husband doesn't understand why- again when it comes to his family he just loses all regard for my feelings like last time.
If we do start next month then they will be here when I'll be having my egg collection-- it's such an emotional process waiting to see how many (if any)eggs have been fertilized and that dreaded morning phone call to see if the embryo is developing- a its too much to handle with in-laws in the next room!

What a mess!

Oh Phree.
That’s frustrating!
I absolutely admire your strength in being able to wait.
I’m so impatient. I’m trying very hard not to become obsessive about this whole thing. But it’s so hard.
I have a meeting on Tuesday to make plans for frozen embryo transfer.
I’m so glad you are all on this thread. It’s provided me with so much support.

@hopingforbabyd That previous message was for you! I tagged myself somehow LOL

Haha @phreedam I read it as if it was though it did make me chuckle 😄 sorry to hear you’re having a bit of a setback for your cycle. Would it be a case of they will be there around EC or just stims? It’s very frustrating for you I can imagine really do feel for you x

@Pleaseletitbeme yes its super annoying!!! I don't know if I'll be able to wait- I might just risk it and start on my next period if it comes early enough... the most frustrating thing is, we don't even know if thy are coming for definite because we will find out on the 15th of July if their visa has been accepted...so essentially we could be sitting around wasting a month for no reason.
So nice to have a frozen embie waiting for you- it makes the process simpler, lucky lady! xxx

@Hopingforbabyd haha I know I must've been too busy venting my aggro out :P ! It's not too bad if they're here during stims, because I can do that in the room and I have no side effects really, but yes they will be here during EC if they do end up coming - which I'm sure you know is the time where you just need you and your other half in it together. sigh this just gets better!
When do you get your meds for next cycle and when are you planning to start hun?xx

@phreedam bless you that is a really tough call to make. Are they with you for long? Apparently cycle after failed can be delayed hopefully it works for you if not you can enjoy your last bout of freedom before going head on into it again. We’re gonna go again this cycle. Just waiting on af she’s due anytime now but think it’ll be a wait. Soon as I start it’s a call to clinic then pick meds up on day 21 😬 so about 4 weeks x

Also, yes completely agree that you do need that time to yourselves especially if you’re trying to keep low key about it all x

@phreedam sorry to hear you might have to delay-it’s so stressful being delayed. So much waiting. If you do decide to wait -I hope the month passes quick for you.

@Pleaseletitbeme I’m so glad you have your frozen cycle appointment soon. Let us know how it goes. How are you feeling about everything?

@Hopingforbabyd so glad to hear things are moving forward with your frozen transfer -will have everything crossed for you.

I had some good news yesterday-DH very cross with me as yesterday was way to early but I got up at 5dp5dt and got a very ambiguous faint line on a clear blue early detection. In the evening I did a clear blue week counter one and it said 1-2 weeks pregnant. Also did a FRER this morn which showed a good line. OTD is not till a week tomo so certainly not counting my chickens yet. Will try and hold off till the weekend to test again and hope to see progress. Thanks for all your support. X

@mouse1234567 I’m having to start from scratch as I didn’t have any to freeze, but thank you lovely 😘
Hoping that you get a positive result hun. It is very naughty to test so early, I learnt this myself but I understand how frustrating it is to wait. I think when I did mine I could test at 14 days after trigger shot for an accurate reading x