Hi all, it’s still lurking but been a bit preoccupied with everything and getting a bit stressed.
With regards to feeling down about people announcing their pregnancies, when I was trying for DD1 it felt like every man, woman and his dog was pregnant. During the time TTC, my best friend and another friend had their second babies, several work colleagues were pregnant, my sister even got pregnant (although that ended in miscarriage just after I eventually got my BFP).
But low and behold, just when I was getting fed up with it all and had been referred for ivf I finally got my BFP, then a couple more friends got theirs (so we ended up sharing the journey).
It is really disheartening hearing about everyone else getting what you’re desperate for (especially when some of them seem to do it so easily), but it happened for me and it will most probably happen for you sooner or later. Don’t give up hope!!!
When you finally get their your child will be all the more precious. My DD is called Evelyn and although we did like the name it actually means “longed for child” and I don’t think I could think of a better name for her.
In the meantime, if you secretly want to make voodoo dolls of all your pregnant friends and stab them in the eyes feel free (we won’t tell anyone).
Meanwhile in my head;
Opk’s are so annoying!!! 
I was getting so frustrated with the lines going a bit darker, then lighter again, that I caved and got a clear blue as well.
I compared today’s tests and the lines are both about the same level of lightness, so I guess at least they’re consistent. I’m on CD12 today and have got my darkest opk on CD14 the past 2 cycles, so watch this space.
My Drs leaflet said to abstain from BDing for 5 days until it goes positive, so I’m scared sh!tless that I’ll miss my window if I’m not on the ball. CD15 will be Sunday so hopefully we will get the positive on Saturday and get plenty of BDing done at the weekend 🤞.