2ww torture

[Langpants]

I’m now 6dp5dt and have caved and tested this morning. I wish I’d waited a little longer as the test was £8!

I have been studying the test in different lights and I swear I can see the faiiiiintest second line. Am I just hopeful and imagining it?!

Got a few internet cheapies and a couple of first response didgital tests to tide me over the next few days. Which should I use?!

How people manage not to test throughout the 2ww, I’ll never know. It was never going to be me. 😜

@redpandafluff 😕 not good news hear either, negative. Which I was expecting after Fridays negative, but there we go, Onto the next round 😏 xxx

Ah Loula . . . I'm so sorry. Even when you expect it, it's still upsetting to have to accept the finality of it.

Remember what I said about first time being your practice run, though. Next time is your time!

@LoulaBell30 so sorry to hear that :( sending lots of love xxx

Thank you ☺️ it is disappointing for sure. Iv learnt a huge about this last month whoch I didn’t have a clue before.
I’m thinking of sussing out UK clinic this time round, as we didn’t have any that made it to freezer either. Iv heard good things a ‘Care Fertility ! Not sure if anyone else would recommend one ? Xxx

@redpandafluff preying goods things come to you tonight, tomorrow. Keep us posted. And Elly hope you’ve got even higher beta tomorrow too 🙏🏼 Xxx

Loula we're going with Care in Manchester next time. I've already been talking to them - the only thing that makes me feel better is planning the next cycle!

@Sophie that’s really positive thank you! I’m clinging on to any positivity i can at the moment. How are you doing today?

@Loula sorry about your sad news. @red funnily enough I was watching a documentary on a welsh tv channel about a woman who was attending care Manchester. They looked so lovely there!

Thanks for your well wishes - 3rd beta tomorrow. Hopefully I get an answer 🙏

Sadly the dream is over, ladies - barely-there FRER yesterday and a stark "Not Pregnant" on a digital this morning. I'm sad, but obviously not surprised.

I'm stopping all the meds, booking a holiday and going on a mega diet.

C'mon, Elly, give us some good news! x

@red I’m sorry about your rubbish news.

A holiday sounds amazing! Let us know where you book!!

Thanks - I should get the results by the end of today x

So sorry to hear the news. What a dreadful emotional rollercoaster to have been on.

A lot of people will say that's good enough reason not to test early, and be blissfully unaware of chemical pregnancies, but actually in my view I want to know exactly what was going on and that yes, actually the embryo did implant, it just didn't stay.

If you find yourself in it for the long haul and multiple cycles, it can be useful knowledge to know exactly what's happening and to pinpoint the issue.

Wishing you all the best as you regroup and move forward. Such a disappointment for you.

Thanks @botanica good to know for future. Monitoring actually might be the key to pin point then hey.

Has anyone had the Embryo Scratch, I wasn’t made aware of this this time but I have a friend I saw on Friday, she had this done second round and was successful with it.

@redpandafluff sorry to hear this ☹️ It’s been a tough few days. But yes, let’s crack on and plan the next. We’re obviously destined to be at the same clinics ☺️ I’m going to call Care today. I see their Northampton clinic has high stats for 38/39. Get that holiday booked, you deserve it 😘 xx

Good luck today @elly1685 xx

I agree with botanical, even though you didn’t get a positive on OTD at least now you know you can get pregnant and how your body works and reacts!

So I’ve had the biggest emotional breakdown tonight after the clinic promised to ring me by 6:30 with my results and didn’t. I was so cross that they’d leave me waiting on such an important thing. My DH said ‘do a test’ .... see photo. Yesterday it showed pregnant 1-2 weeks.

This is such a mind game!

Elly that's such a great sign! I'm excited for you!

But I can't believe the clinic didn't get back to you

@RedPandaFluff so sorry to hear it was negative :(:(

@Elly1685 hope they call you soon and it's wonderful news!

The clinic have just rang (thank goodness) they said good news!!!! First good news in a long long while! So my hcg has risen from 49 and is now 194. They said it’s still low but as it’s rising in line with what it should then I shouldn’t worry too much! Early scan booked in 2nd October.

Please please please keep rising hcg 🙏🙏🙏🙏

How is everyone today? Xx

@Elly1685 wow!! That's amazing huge congrats to you xxx

Thank you @Sophie. I’m still concerned about the really low numbers but the nurse has told me to stop worrying and just try and be positive. She said there’s nothing I can do now and the scan will show we want. So I guess i just need to step away from the tests and google and try and relax for the next few weeks. Easier said than done right? X

Oh wow Elly this is amazing news ☺️🙏🏼 Huge congrats 😘 xxx

My clinic told me to second test today, day 16, still negative. I can now get planning the next lot now. I’ve spoken to Care l, who were sooo helpful and they have different options, the Embryo scratch, which I’m defo going to request for next time. Our Prague clinic are going supply their second options as well. So yep, off we go again xx

Elly that's amazing! Oh I hope those numbers go up and up and up for you . . .

Loula I actually think Dr Alexander in Prague did a sneaky endometrial scratch when I went for my consultation with them. It totally startled me and, annoyingly, I was too overwhelmed to ask "WTF did you just do?!" but in hindsight, and having read about what it is, I'm convinced he did it

We're going ahead with Care Manchester . . . we still have an embryo in Prague but I can't face that journey at the moment; if it doesn't work in the UK I'll go back there.

Ugh. @LoulaBell30 have you started bleeding yet? I haven't, and I just want to get this over with. I've been off the progesterone since Tuesday but apart from some cramps, no sign of AF

Hey @redpandafluff I’m the same, stopped taking on Tuesday but still no sign of af.. just wanna get it all out of my system now 🤨 x

@red and @loula. How are you both tonight? It’s a tough journey and I’m thinking of you both xx

Hi Elly - started to bleed a little this evening so I'm hoping in the next few days this will be all over and we can put it behind us. It's been really horrible.

What about you? Are you still having your hcg levels checked or do you just have to wait it out for the scan now?

Hope you're all okay, ladies . . . x

Awh @red at least you can start focusing on your next cycle now.

I haven’t had bloods since last weds when they were 194. I have a scan on Tuesday which I’m dreading and also can’t wait for. I just don’t feel very positive today. I had horrendous nausea the last week and a half and yesterday and today it has subsided.

I did a clear blue digital this morning and it still said 2-3 weeks which puts me at 4-5 weeks pregnant but I’m technically 6-7 weeks by now so I’m really worried my levels are still low. I should be on on 3weeks + on that test by now surely?! Oh it’s just constant worry isn’t it x

It does seem as if the worry and anxiety never ends, just evolves. One thing I have learned from reading experiences from other people is that nothing means anything - sick or not sick, cramps or no cramps, tiredness or not etc. It's so random and these things come and go. Waiting is AGONY though - I feel for you!