2ww torture

[Langpants]

I’m now 6dp5dt and have caved and tested this morning. I wish I’d waited a little longer as the test was £8!

I have been studying the test in different lights and I swear I can see the faiiiiintest second line. Am I just hopeful and imagining it?!

Got a few internet cheapies and a couple of first response didgital tests to tide me over the next few days. Which should I use?!

How people manage not to test throughout the 2ww, I’ll never know. It was never going to be me. 😜

Awh ladies this is just absolute torture isn’t it. I had and still have high hopes for you both! Maybe this is just a blip in the tests, your urine could have been too diluted or it could have been dodgy tests. Try and both hold out now until tomorrow morning and test again 🙏xx

Thank you @Elly1685
@RedPandaFluff how are you doing? I feel sick at the thought of otd tomorrow now after today

That's exactly how I feel too, Sophie - I can't bear to do another test and have a negative confirmed, but I know that's the way this is going. I feel dread and despair.

Loula how are you doing?

Hey girls, so sorry only just catching up. Iv tried to keep busy the last couple of days since my negative on Friday, it’s so hard 😏 I can’t believe after all your positives it then throws out a negative, you’re emotions must be shot to sxxx ! ☹️ Hold out too I’d say, we’re too early. I’m still sure both of you will be ok on the day 🙏🏼
I haven’t touched a test since, as far too scared, I actually think I’m going to hold out now until Tuesday my OTD and then do the Prague test one that they gave to me, they may be different.. I’m blooming hoping 🙏🏼 Big love tonight, tomorrow’s a new day xxx

Hi Loula - bloody hell, you have a will of iron! I did another test just now; super super faint. I literally feel sick with anxiety.

I have some really important work stuff happening tomorrow and Tuesday, so I'm going to wait and test again on Tuesday evening. I know I won't be able to hold it together if I get a "Not Pregnant" on a digital so for the sake of my career I'm stepping away from the tests for the next couple of days!

Elly you're doing another beta tomorrow, aren't you? Good luck. And to you, Sophie x

@red yes step away from the tests! For your own sanity not just your career.

@Loula I pray you get a positive on your OTD too!

Yes I have my second beta tomorrow but I’ve done this really dangerous thing called ‘googling’!!!! And basically a beta this low is unheard of at my stage of the journey so I’m really not holding my breath - even if it has doubled. Also I read that low prolonged hcg can indicate an ectopic pregnancy which is a worry. especially as the nurse said to me yesterday that if I become unwell to go to A&e...?! X

@redpandafluff I have no idea how 😬 but yes Fridays result make me feel sick so I thought foof that I’m staying well clear 🤨 I am sure you’re going to be ok 😘

@elly I’ll be thinking about you tomorrow, I’m preying beta has trebled for you, iv read it literally doubles every 24hrs, all being well 🙏🏼

@sophie Good luck too, thinking of us all 🙏🏼❤️

I keep going to bed soooo early to get another day out the way ... And is anyone else’s hair literally coming out in chunks in the shower 🤔 xx

Thanks all, I am at the clinic tomorrow afternoon so worried but what will be will be ❤️

@LoulaBell30 you've done amazing not to test! If I could go back I think I would wait too as o certainly got my hopes up way too high

@Elly1685 so difficult all the conflicting info you read on google but still crossing everything for you!

@RedPandaFluff I'm sure you will be fine there are so many factors that can affect tests so holding on to some hope for us both x

Looks like we are out :(

Aww @sophieb13, such a worrying time. Are they going to do the blood test at the clinic today, do you know ? Xx

@LoulaBell30 I think it's just a urine test I've had bad cramps all night and my back is in pieces so I'm pretty sure it's over xx

Ah Sophie . . . I'm so sorry

I can't believe it was looking so good for us and it's all coming to nothing. I think I'll be getting exactly the same result as you when I test tomorrow evening - although I may leave it 'til Wednesday morning as I'm working from home that day.

Will be thinking of you all today x

PS Loula are you going to test tomorrow morning?

@Sophie I’m so so sorry for you. Sending lots of positive thoughts to get you through today xx

@redpandafluff I’m not sure, I’m scared to re test I’d be happy never to do one again 😬 but yes, I think the morning wee is best maybe but really I have no idea 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m going to test with the Prague ones. Have you done those yet? Xx

I used one of them last week, Loula - pic below.

Sending lots of love and strength to you all. This thread could have not been more appropriately named.

What an absolute hell of a journey for you @sophieb13 and @RedPandaFluff.

Just got home from clinic and it is indeed negative have a consultation in a month or two

Sophie I'm really sorry. I was so hoping for good news for you

@sophieb13 really sorry to hear this also Sophie 😞 Sending huge amounts of love xxx

@sophie pamper yourself, make time just for you and get your mind ready for the next consultation xx

I had my second beta results today. They couldn’t ‘give me them’ 🤦‍♀️ They could only say my results have ‘doubled and a bit more’. Not sure why they couldn’t tell me the results though.

So I’m going back weds for more bloods. It’s positive it’s doubled but they are still low and clinic are worried about ectopic ... never mind 2ww torture this is turning into 4ww torture x

Elly it must be so frustrating that you don't get straight answers! This being in limbo is HELL.

I caved and did a FRER earlier - it's getting fainter; I reckon I'm out. Will do a digital on Wednesday morning as planned but mentally I've moved on and I'm planning the next cycle.

Loula be sure to let us know how you get on in the morning. Am crossing everything for you x

@redpandafluff I wouldn’t rule that out just yet, that’s a faint line the day before, which is definetly something not nothing.. Thats how it probably, maybe, hoping, should look at this time, without any chemicals... Hang on in there a few more days too, for sure 🙏🏼

And yep it has been the longest 2 weeks of my life, but tomorrow will say either way. I’ll let you know in morning 😬😬 xx

@LoulaBell30 . . . ? Am hoping so hard for some good news from you x

@LoulaBell30 praying for you this morning!

@RedPandaFluff your line looks darker yesterday than the other one

@Elly1685 I read an interesting thread yesterday that reminded me of you, a lady had beta level 6 and the clinic advises it was a non viable pregnancy she had tests that were positive but getting lighter. She then updated months later that she was in fact 27 weeks pregnant! So still holding out a lot of hope for you