Thread 32 | TTC#1 | Making the move from conception to infertility. We've taken some blows but we are not beaten

[Jamon]

Hi all. We're a group of first timers who've been plugging away on the conception boards for some time. The support here is amazing so if you're in a similar boat please jump onboard.

Time to hand hold through treatments and support each other through to becoming the mums we deserve to be 💪🏼🌸🙏🏼

Winging that’s great , you can enjoy Christmas and get ready for the new year and new challenge / adventure x

Fx kerry hope it all went well

Penguin sorry you are still unwell and so sorry it wasn’t better news from your scan. I really hope it’s better news on the next one and they can get some eggs to work with xx big hug from me xx

Agreed with underwhelming bake off final!

You are definitely not fucked plane that is definitely a positive xx

Otters enjoy all the excitement and fingers crossed for a lovely smooth 8-9 months ahead xx please stick with us!!

Ah chlo that’s lovely 😊

Oh penguin that is rubbish, it must feel like bloody Sod's law that they were worried about overstimulating you. Hopefully you'll make some good progress over the next few days.

Also agree with you all on Bake Off - have quite enjoyed the new presenters/judges but the contestants just weren't as good.

Hope IUI went well kerry!

chlo that's lovely and does give up hope!

jamon will definitely hang around for a while if that's ok. I'm rooting for each and every one of you x

Thanks for asking ladies - it went well. The lab lady congratulated me on my husbands lovely sample - another boost to his new ego!

I need to work on moderating my expectations though - this is gonna be a tough couple of weeks

Well done kerry and mr kerry 💪🏼

Just had the call from the drug company ... they’re a coming tomorrow. Better clear the fridge out lol

Oh ladies it's all happening! I'm so excited for some more BFPs! Well done Kerry!

Oooo Jam when do you start the drugs, tomorrow?

Great news Kerry! I can totally understand how tough the next couple of weeks will be though. Do you have anything nice to do to distract you?
Your DH must be so proud 😊

Otters I hope you're both still enjoying the joy and excitement! What lovely news to get before the first festive weekend (bonfire night is festive, right?). Are you going to tell any family or friends the good news? Did any of them know you were cycling?

Chlo that is a lovely story. The human body is so strange and unpredictable, but luckily so I guess.

And Plane there is plenty they can do with AMH of 2.9 don't you worry. You might have to endure the side effects of strong stimms but it's the clinic's bread and butter; plus the bad side effects seem to be rarer and rarer going from what I've read online. Everything crossed for you 🤞

Winging great news on getting your new year dates sorted. Sounds like the perfect recipe for a fun, frivolous, champagne/gin/mulled wine-fuelled Christmas before you get your game face on in Jan 😬

Quiet I hope you're feeling a bit happier and have still enjoyed the rest of your holiday.

PJs are you around? Hope you are okay.

Exciting news about the drug delivery Jam, this shit's getting real for you! Do you start on any injectables soon or is it tablets to begin?

Still feeling awful, in bed and sorry for myself here but have decided to pull it all together and not let whatever tomorrow brings get me down, because:

1. We can have an abandoned cycle with our CCG funding without writing off one of our fresh rounds (assuming our house move hasn't scuppered that)
2. I've always liked the idea of an autumn-born baby
3. See above re champagne-fuelled Christmas 🤗

Hugs Penguin. You're being very brave, especially considering you're ill!

I'm going alcohol free in November, so I can indulge more in December having hopefully dropped a few pounds this month.

Great attitude @InspectorPenguin - you're being very strong and brace.

Well done kerry

jamon hurrah for drugs arriving tomorrow!

inspectorpenguin have told parents as they already know we are doing ivf and 2 other close friends who also know. Not going to tell everyone else till later in case all doesn't go to plan. Sorry you're still feeling awful. Really hope you feel better soon.

Got more tests delivered today and will test again on sat. Hoping for good line progression.

Flash not until Tuesday. Still don’t know wtf I’m taking Progynova for. Will give them a call tomorrow I think. How are you doing?

Will be thinking of you tomorrow penguin. I don’t quite know how to say it but I think you are amazing. Your resilience and strength and humour and kindness absolutely shines. It helps me feel stronger just reading your positivity. Wishing you well very soon xxx

Fx for lovely strong lines otters . Realise the worth doesn’t necessarily leave you but really hope everything is fine and you can start to relax and enjoy it

Had a baby bomb this evening. She text me and was very nice about it. Was meant to be out with her and friends this evening but didn’t go as have UTI. Glad I didn’t go as would have found it hard not to be emotional. DH and me meant to be trying but I don’t think I can with my bladder like this. Haven’t done OPKs just couldn’t face it. It will be what it will be.

penguin you are doing great, love your positivity despite being ill. Hope you get some good news tomorrow! And hope I can follow your lead in the positivity front as well.

jam do you start stimming on Tuesday? I think I should start on Wednesday, glad to have a buddy through it all. I go between being really positive and thinking it could work, and paralysing fear of how heartbroken I will be if it fails.

jam hope you find out what it's for! Shame we can't all just be prescribed biscuits for fertility, that would be loads more fun!

I'm ok, honestly feeling a bit bitter, DH got an email from a work colleague that his wife gave birth yesterday and sent pictures of the baby. My first thought was just "that's never going to be me". And got two friends due dates coming up this month and next month. I'm glad.for my appointment next week. I need something to happen. But I'm being proactive in other ways and have a driving lesson booked tomorrow! Sorry for the pity party, I normally feel fairly upbeat but this week has been a bit harder for some reason.

@Jamon if it helps, the tablets you'll take are to down reg i.e. To switch off your pituitary gland which turns off your ovaries. You need your ovaries "off" so the clinic can use meds to stimulate your follicles all at the same rate. Not sure how short protocol works but that's what happens with long protocol.

Hope you're doing ok flash, baby bombs and due dates are always a killer. I find it easier these days not to give myself a hard time if it makes me upset or low, we're only human after all.

Hope you're ok jamon, sounds like you had a lucky escape from your evening out. It's hard but sometimes you've got to protect yourself from these things. It's all happening so soon for you now, excited for you.

Well done kerry, have you got anything planned as a distraction for next few weeks?

We've got out appt back at the Lister on Tuesday to get things going. Have been feeling good the last few weeks but DH effed up massively last night. I was meeting friends in town for dinner and he was out at work drinks and planned to get the train home together but I got a call from him and could tell he was p*ed and then got a call a few hours later from his work colleague saying he was too drunk to put into a taxi so he'd have to stay in a hotel and luckily for him, the guy stayed with him. I just can't even face the argument tbh as I'm so over that sht. He hasn't hardly been drinking and then goes and does this after we had an amazing weekend away and when we've got our appt on Tuesday. He's messaged me this morning saying he doesn't know what happened, he thinks his drinks got spiked as he only had a few glasses of wine. I can't even be bothered to give him a bollocking, it's just a joke.

That’s exactly how I feel struggle I think it’s par for the course. This pic I’ve attached summed it up for me!

Geeup how are you doing? They said I would be down regging but they’re putting me on Progynova - which doesn’t appear to be a down reg drug

Flash sorry it’s been a tough week but you’ve made it through, I hope you have a better weekend

Oh chlo I’m so sorry I know how much this hurts. I hope he makes it up to you. God with everything he’s been through you’d think he would be more mindful of his swimmers! Stupid men

Happy Friday to you all xx 😘

With pic! 😝

That pic hits the nail of the head for me Jam - I always make a conscious effort to stop myself getting too sad or rationalise it by saying it’s just hormones. Hormones or not, we still have to deal with this vicious cycle month after month.

Happy Friday everyone, I hope more good news comes or way very soon ❤️

Sorry about your DH Chlo. It's far from ideal timing or behaviour. Hopefully he feels suitably sheepish and the two of you can discuss things in time to enjoy the weekend together.

Friday positives everyone!

-Driving lesson today! Feeling quite excited about it weirdly.
-DH and DBIL are going out together tomorrow for the afternoon/evening so I have the house to myself for a good 7-8 hours. Lots of time for fun/pampering.
-Have decided to go to a place with DH nearish where we live called Standen House at the end of November to see it all decorated for Christmas, they have late opening and can go to the gift shop and will have a Christmas afternoon tea!

Sorry Chlo, you must be very frustrated and upset. Sounds like he is pretty ashamed though, and if he's been cutting back on booze for a while then it's unlikely he'll have done any lasting damage. No harm in letting him know how you're feeling though, and him making it up to you over the weekend. Good luck - and all the best for your appointment on Tuesday.

Jam that's a very pertinent picture and shows just how emotionally exhausting this process is, even when it looks like you're calm and zen from the outside.
And thanks for your lovely words earlier, they were really touching xx

Flash - we must live in the same area as Standen House near us! We've talked about going too - how funny if we ended up taking high tea at neighbouring tables 😊

Oops, fat fingers posted too soon.

Also wanted to say good luck with your driving lesson Flash - it is good to be excited. How long have you been learning?

Hoping for some lovely reassuring line progression for you Otters. I've been reading these threads long enough to know that once the BFP sinks in the worry really starts, but as Jam said there is no reason not to be positive and have full belief that this is a beautiful sticky bean 🏆

Some good news for me this morning - my 'tiddlers' (as the nurse called them) have all grown since Weds, and my estradiol levels have doubled, so I'm booked in for EC on Monday. Yay!

I was completely prepared for it to be called off so couldn't quite believe it when she told me. She plotted the growth as she wanted to see if it was an option to wait until Weds, but if we did that she said I could end up with over 30. Honestly, it really is all or nothing with crazy PCO.

So at least dragging myself to these appointments when I've felt so awful hasn't been for nothing. That is definitely a Friday positive!!

Great news @InspectorPenguin really pleased for you.
@InspectorPenguin and @OverinaFlash I'm near Standen House too and went a couple of months ago! What a small world!!

Ps my Friday positives:

1. another bonfire do with friends tonight - yummy burger and cider planned
2. only about a month till I start downregging so help feeling closer after a long wait
3. might try and go to the cinema to see the new poirot!

I live in Wallington, what a coincidence that there's two of you who are also semi local! Geeup was it nice? Inspector if it's lovely and Christmassy I'll let you know! I like any excuse for afternoon tea and a wander around a National Trust gift shop!

Yes I really enjoyed it. Not all the decor to my taste but gorgeous veg and flower gardens and really enjoyable day. The cafe was a highlight ;)