Thread 32 | TTC#1 | Making the move from conception to infertility. We've taken some blows but we are not beaten

[Jamon]

Hi all. We're a group of first timers who've been plugging away on the conception boards for some time. The support here is amazing so if you're in a similar boat please jump onboard.

Time to hand hold through treatments and support each other through to becoming the mums we deserve to be 💪🏼🌸🙏🏼

Ugh opks are now showing fuck all - either I'm ovulating early or not at all. Damnation.

lemon what a ball-ache about the wait - hope you can distract yourself, it's hard not to worry or get sucked into Googling.

PJs glad DH is feeling better; Sunday Assembly does look interesting! Have you been going long?

We’ve been going since around June quiet - always feel so much better after it. We even look up Sunday Assemblies when we go away because we don’t want to miss out on our feel good injection! Love their motto as well “Live Better, Help Often, Wonder More”

Will stop banging on about it - as you can all tell, I’m a fan!

So annoying about opks quiet - why can’t our bodies just do as they’re told 😤

I’ve been told I can work from home one day a week and I’ve picked today this week - feel better about everything already!

lemony I have PCOS and used OPKs when I was doing natural IUI... mind you they often double checked the LH levels with a blood test.

mouse it's been 3 months since got referred from gyn at hospital to the actual ivf clinic but we don't know whether that's the only wait or if there's a waiting list still to go through

otter 2 more weeks to go....

confession time ...... i've been reading up on adoption.

Otters sounds like it’s going well for you and you sound very strong. I’m waiting for my last cycle to finish then I’ll be calling the nurses to sort drugs and will down regulate on day 21. It’s nhs so we’re with the Homerton. It’s all I can think about, I just want to get started now

Sunday assembly sounds awesome I will definitely be giving this a go

Next meet I will do a doodle and pm to anyone interested! Not sure about this south of the river talk though???

Hep no harm in checking out all options I think - it would definitely be a route that me and DH would consider too.

Hep information is power - let us know what you discover

I think I may have suggested south of the river in a moment of madness jamon!!!! Please forgive me!!!

Wow hep what do you think so far? Did you read that story about the four sisters who Rotherham council are trying to get adopted together? Heartbreaking

I live south of the river - there be 🐉 down here 😂😂😂

No harm in looking hep, the more you know, the better.

Have had a great day working from home - so nice to get loads of work done (more than I get done in the office) and still have time for other things! Did my HIIT session and piano practice early, made nice healthy breakfast, did fertility yoga dvd in my lunch break, tried a bit of EFT and even had time to pop round the corner for a Brazilian wax! And I still managed to do a shed load of work!

I told my boss about depression/anxiety diagnosis and he suggested working from home one day a week - already made me feel better ☺️

Evening ladies.

Kwick your spa day sounds BLISS!!! Absolute bliss. I’ve had reiki after my mmc and she said I needed a lot of healing. 😑 Maintaining at SW is actually good. Little positives. At least you didn’t put on 4lbs in the last 2 weeks like fatty over here despite eating and exercising like a damn trooper.

Penguin FX for you!!

Pyjamas glad DH is feeling better about it all but I’m with you both. It’s absolutely bonkers they haven’t found this issue before now with all the intensive tests you’ve had. But at least you know now and can move forward. Your day working at home sounds really good too. I think anything that makes your mental health better is fantastic. Bravo for your work!!!

Hopefully caught the egg and it’s a good one. Weirdly I’ve never really been in tune with when I ovulate before this strongly. I had cramps low down yesterday and ewcm completely stopped right on queue. So we managed -3 -1 and O day GOSing. So today I’m 1DPO whoop whoop lol 😎

Winging would you mind loosing NHS cycles if you went private? Hopefully you won’t need more than one but that really would be a deal breaker for me.

Jam oh that sounds YUMMMMMMM

Hep I’ll admit too, adoption is interesting to me. I watch a lot of adoption stories on YouTube which may make me super weird but I find them inspiring. Recently started watching a family called “The crazy middles” and they adopt only sibling groups (bar a few singles) Which is fantastic to watch. Makes me smile they have loving parents.

pjs glad you had a productive day at home today

hep definitely no harm in gathering info and good to keep all options open

Thanks jamon I don't feel that strong and trust me I've had quite a few mental breakdowns along this long, long road of infertility. Hope it goes well for you at Homerton.

wingingit hope you get a date soon and don't have to go on a waiting list

So egg collection tomorrow! Eek! Nervous and excited at the same time. Will update when I can.

Good luck @otters2017 hope it goes really well.

Wishing you all the luck tomorrow otters go get those little eggies 💪🏼 I’ll be cheering you on 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼

Ditto otters - come oooon little egglets! Hope all goes well

Has anyone who wants to see Blade Runner not been yet? Was going to mention part of the plot but didn't want to spoil it...

Thanks PJs, tell me about it

Fx mouse for this cycle - some good timing there

hep think it's great you're open to it - would be interested in your thoughts

Good luck Otters! Have a nice restful day after and get spoilt by your DH.

pjs you see the Romans built on the north side first as the south was uninhabitable, swamp like and well just not as nice as the north side...
EFT??

Fanks mouse I so loved the Reiki - wish I had started sooner!
🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼 all your chukka-chukka worked!!

Am very tired - woke up at 5, could not get back to sleep, at 6 decided to dye hair, now nearly at work and just want to go back to sleep... I left work just before 8pm last night... 😴

Day one cycle 24.
Time to get this show on the road...

We're mega early so lots of time to kill
Got a nice room though, perks of private care. Can't believe this is it. This was in the guardian today, taking it as a good sign!

jamon glad you can get started on the journey.

kwick hope it won't be too bad for you today. Can you finish early today?

Thanks for all the well wishes. Have a good day everyone

best wishes otters

I guess i started looking as a plan b (or maybe c). It is helpful i think, puts the pressure off. Conceiving naturally isn't the be/end all.

Whaaaaaaat! Will be picking up the Guardian today!

GOOD LUCK Otters! Let us know how you get on xx

It definitely isn't the be all end all. One of my oldest friends is adopted as are my husbands nieces. They are beautiful loving families, same as any other loving family.

Good luck today otters, hope it all goes ok.

Just behind you jamon. CD1 cycle 23. Kept telling myself I'd go with the flow (literally) and what's meant to be will be but of course when AF actually turns up, it's another story. 2 years down, 2 mc's and nearly £15k on tests and DH's op and still no closer.

Cuddled my little pooch and had a cry but also feel really effed off about everything. Got a WhatsApp about our friends DD's 2nd bday which hurts because I remember we had been thinking about TTC when they had her and they're pg again but irony I can't go because I've got a baby shower. When will this s*It end? Going out to buy myself a coffee and some chocolate.

Does it feel different this time jam knowing that because it's arrived it's the trigger for the next stage?
mouse I only get one free go in my area but I don't know if i loose that if I tried once privately. Another question for two weeks time

Hi lovely ladies

The meet up sounds great - glad you all had such a nice time!

Mouse hope you got lots of sex in over the fertile period!

Baguette love the thought of you DTD on the floor - let’s hope it was a lucky floor for you!

Kwick I’ve got the ASOS advent calendar in my basket - did you say you’ve got it and is it any good? I’m definitely going to get the M&S one too.

otters best of luck for today and a big fingers crossed. I hope you don’t feel too sore or ill afterwards! That Guardian cover has to be a sign!

Penguin hope AF has shown up and they can move the dates around - you’d think they’d be a bit more flexible?!

Quiet I saw Blade Runner at the weekend.I wasn’t sure about it to be honest…but I’m not a massive sci fi fan!

Pyjamas sounds like you had a super productive day. I do one day a week from home too and can get loads done - I’ve had the washing in this morning! Plus it makes some of the appointments a bit easier to cover up!

Jam sorry about Day 1 - I hope you feel OK. I felt a bit weird knowing that it was our last natural shot, but it helped to focus on the positives and moving forward.

Hope you are ok too Chlo - it’s never easy. Chocolate definitely sounds like the way forward!

I’m off for my scratch this afternoon - am hoping it won’t be too painful, but am planning an evening on the sofa tonight anyway. Then my husband goes away for a week and I start down regging tomorrow. Feeling quite nervous about the first injection!

Big big hugs for you chlo make sure you get that coffee and chocolate today

winging it definitely feels different. I didn't cry for the first time in ages, but I feel this sense of resignation and sadness. Think its me finally accepting that I didn't get the natural conception I always naively thought I would. There is a big grief in that - which so many of us know.

I'm going to let myself find a way through that acceptance to building up strength and fight for the next challenge. I'm determined to feel some excitement for IVF. As pyjamas said on the meet up - it doesn't do any harm to think that it will work whilst you're going through it. You are going to be devastated either way if it doesn't.

Good luck with your scratch struggle, that's great you are starting tomorrow! What is your DR drug and dosage?

Good luck everyone starting the ivf process.

Cd2 here. Fucked off that my LP was only 11 days. Ever since the miscarriage it's been around 11-12 days. Progesterone was 71.8 7dpo and then i started spotting 2 days later. Although temperature stayed high even when AF made her very unwelcome appearance yesterday (its definitely AF). Not sure what to make of it. Can progesterone drop suddenly like that?

Feel a fool for getting hopes up. At least it did make me ovulate.