Would you be my Infertility/Clomid/Follicle tracking friend please?!

[scienceteachergeek]

Hi there ladies

I’m really looking for a ‘clomid friend’ or ‘infertility pal’!

I’m 30, DH is 38. I came off the pill July 2013 to regulate my cycles and ended 15yrs of antidepressants in March 2014 as I’d read that was the best plan if possible.

I’d been having regular 27/30day cycles since I came off the pill but after no positive tests, buying OPKs and the Clearblue Advanced Fertility Monitor, plus charting temps and monitoring my cervix and mucus it quickly became apparent that I wasn’t ovulating. After all the blood tests, sperm analysis, trans-vaginal scans and the HSG it showed that he was fine but I wasn’t ovulating, but there was not obvious reason why.

Fast forward to now, 2yrs since coming off the pill, I have been prescribed clomid and have taken my first 5 tablets. I’m day 12 today and have been having follicle tracking to check if the drugs have worked. My largest follicle was 16.4mm today and have to go back on Wednesday to check it again.

Do any of you know if that’s a good size? Or have any experiences of being further down the clomid path? Or are you in a similar position? I just feel like I’m going out of my mind and could really use a buddy!

Thanks for reading and hugs to you all. Interested in hearing from any of you xxx

I can't believe it!!
23 long months!!
There is hope for us all

Arrghhhh...I can't see...is it positive? Shit the bed. CONGRATULATIONS!!!

It is positive!!

Thanks, now let's just hope it sticks

Better pic

and you thought you didnt OV!!

WAAAAAAH! Shit the bed - haha yes, love it

C-O-N-G-R-A-T-U-L-A-T-I-O-N-S... celebration time. huge congrats you deserve it this is the good news we all needed too! proof that IT WILL HAPPEN!

I hope it sticks for you and i hope it all goes smoothly but theres no reason it won't.

over the moon for you xxxx now tell us all your symptoms and what you did differently this month!!

Thank you
What did we do differently...
We dtd twice a day for 4 days over the fertile window
Although that may not be the best plan for everyone unless your dp's have been checked and have a good count.
Other than that nothing else was done differently.
I just think the depo needed that amount of time to leave my system.
Symptoms
Nothing that I recognised as a symptom at the time but in hindsight
Really sore "down there", I attributed this to all of the dtd but looking back I remember someone on mn called "charms" who reported very sore in same place and had a + straight after.
Also a bit of an itch, sorry for tmi.
That has all gone away now though.
Lots more cm than before, right the way though the month and it didn't dry up like they say it does when af is on the way.
Other than that nothing.
No sore boobs
No needing the loo more than usual.
Nothing.
Sorry I can't be more help!

Good luck to everyone on here! I'll linger in the background rooting for you all!

I hope this gives you a positive boost with the knowledge it can happen. I honestly thought we were in this for the long haul if 2 years isn't long haul enough
Sorry if this has put a downer on other poeples days, I know it can, I have had that so many times.

P.s. This comes at a time when I just ordered another 50 (I think) opk's and I have 2 cases of prosecco in the house! Haha!

Don't apologise at all lovely girl. I know exactly what you mean, but there's a massive difference between seeing the people who join a bus and hop off with their BFPs on the first stop, and people you have seen struggle month after month. I am so so so happy for you! This gives me a little bit of hope. What has DP said about it all? I hope you're celebrating (without the booze though!).

Please stay on this bus and update us!x x x

DP is delighted!
He isn't getting too excited just in case....
Yep! No booze for a long time now! I will be the dedicated driver and am very happy about it
I've wanted to go to midnight mass on Xmas eve at our local church forever but have never gone as I've never been able to resist drinking! So, this year we will be there!
I'm not some religious nut, it's one of those things I've always wanted to do

We are currently driving south to start a weeks holiday sailing on the Solent!

grrr i just wrote a message and then closed the window... dork!

Anyway flat totally agree with you - huge difference between the lucky ones and feeling jealous/irrational rage, and those of us who have also been through the struggle and really deserve it.

Vap it just gives us all hope! and we are thrilled for you and excited to see who will be next!!! I can imagine the huge high you and DP must be on. Have a fab holiday!!

And for the rest of us ladies, get shagging, seems we need to do it twice a day!!!

OH MY GOD! THIS IS TOTALLY AND UTTERLY FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why did you think you hadn't ovulated?!

OH THIS IS SO EXCITING!

MASSIVE CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please please stay in touch!

I can't believe it. Through the whole hack thing it must have unfollowed the threads I was on. I had no notifications of any of you posting! I can't believe I missed it all. So happy for you :) hope for us all :)

ScienceTeacher - how are you doing? Did AF turn up then after all? x

Yes it did. It arrived Saturday while at a party with friends so had to hold it together! So now I have just 4 more months of clomid. Stupid tests, getting my hopes up. Wonderful news for Vap0 though :) how are the rest of you doing?

science sorry to hear about af
I'm pleased you came back! Didn't think I ovulated as didn't get a positive opk even testing every nearly every 4 hours for days.
Fingers crossed for clomid this month
And best of luck to everyone else
Thank you so much for the congratulations, it means a lot x

aww science that sucks to hear, sorry. hopefully this month will be the one for you. are you having more mid-cycle scans this cycle? are you still on 50mg?

I am around CD14ish i think and so far ov tests are showing darker but I "usually" ovulate around CD20ish anyway so a little early. still curious if I will ovulate on a no-clomid cycle.

I will be working from London from CD20 onwards and DH will be in europe so this is why we aren't doing the clomid cycle but it might still work out if I ov naturally. lots of shagging to do this next week anyway just in case.

since it is a no clomid cycle i have been boozing it up like a party girl... not quite... but we have had wine in the house for a change. however i had a girls night last night with friends and went wayyyy overboard with the wine for the first time in a LONG time. enough to swear me off alcohol for 9 months if i were so lucky that this might be the month ha ha!

...back to nursing my headache...

Hi! How is everyone doing?

NewLeaf - has the hangover worn off yet? I think sometimes we need to let our hair down and have the big nights out, even if we regret it the next day! Hopefully you had a fun evening? How did things go with ovulation? Any sign of it before CD20? That's a bummer about DH being away after that.

ScienceTeacher - I'm sorry about AF. Hopefully this will be your month (I appreciate how depressing it is when we say this every single month!).

Vap - I know you won't get this for a few days, but I hope the holiday was fun! What's the next step? Off to the doctors to get things confirmed?

Hope you're all having a good bank holiday weekend x

Urghhhhh. Just had a FB baby bomb from the most unlikely person. FFS. She only recently got married as well, so it's probably a honeymoon baby .

Hi All

newleaf I hope you're making the most if the bank holiday weekend before ovulation

flat sorry about the baby bomb! They just seem to keep coming don't they!

science you must be near to ovulation now? hope your clomid goes well. Are you looking forward to getting back to school?

I have everything crossed for you all in this thread

Holiday was great thanks flat although had a bit of a scare, brown discharge and cramping on Friday morning just as we handed the boat back and we had to drive the torturous 5 hours home! Called the Dr in a bit of a panic, he panicked me even more saying he wanted to see me on that day - he has turned out to be THE best Dr ever! He was lovely, poked around a bit around my abdomen, some pain on right hand side which he didn't like (he had fears of ectopic), he wanted me in for an early scan over the weekend but with it being Friday and bank holiday they couldn't do anything until Tuesday. I'm away with work from Tuesday morning until Friday afternoon which isn't ideal and the awful nurse (or whoever she was) who called me to book me in said she moved me off the urgent list because I "didn't want" to go next week. She couldn't give me any idea when they would call me back or when they would be booking me in (any time from Tuesday to Friday) but because i couldn't just sit at home and wait for an appointment on an undefined time or date she wasn't interested. I just can't cancel next week with work. Bloody job getting in the way again! The Dr called back at 7.30 on Friday night after she referred me back to him as a non urgent case and said he will call back on Tuesday with a time and date some time either Friday afternoon or early the week after. He is brilliant! He was so lovely. He asked if the pregnancy was planned an how long we have been trying which is why he is being so lovely about it all. I'm not so concerned now as the spotting was not masses and appears to have stopped and was brown and not red which the internet says is better (but dr didn't seem to have an opinion on this). He said so long as I feel well in myself it should be fine but if I start feeling ill to go to hospital immediately.

So, all in all, I'm very positive about things and will be having an early scan at some point which will be a relief if all is well.

Fingers and toes crossed for us all

It's all over
I'm bleeding

Remarking my place

Vap - oh no ! Are you sure it's definitely over? How much blood is there? Have you called NHS direct or tried going into hospital to get it checked out? I really hope it's not over. I am sending the biggest hug x x x

Hi
There is a lot and lots of cramping
It's definitely over
I don't want to talk to any Drs about it today.
My dr will be calling me back tomorrow to discuss that early scan so will see what he has to say when he calls.
It's been all tears and snot this morning although I'm coming out of the other side and trying to rationalise everything if I keep telling myself this i may start to believe it.
I've also been a bit of a crazy person and kept testing every day and the lines have been getting fainter and fainter each day so I presume it all ended when I had that cramping on Friday. At the same time I was instantly not tired anymore which I think is a sign that my body stopped growing the baby.
Thanks for the hugs x

Oh God I really am so sorry . How unbelievably cruel. I wish there was something I could do/say to make things better. It's understandable that you've spent the day in tears; it's just awful, especially after the 23 months it's taken you to get there. Are you going to be up for going into work this week? It sounds like it's going to be pretty full on.

Oh no Vap, I am so so sorry to hear this. Massive hug to you from all of us. Go easy on yourself. Thinking of you and DH how unfair life can be... Hugs xxx

Sorry to send a pity party message so soon after your shit weekend Vap. I know this is nowhere near as bad, but AF is definitely going to come in the next 48 hours. I'm finding it very hard to keep it together this month as I really got my hopes up (ovulated earlier at a more "normal" time, DTD lots and it was much more relaxed than it has been). I really can't take much more of this . I just want to go home and put my PJs on and cry, but instead I've got a busy week at work . Urghhhhhh.