Would you be my Infertility/Clomid/Follicle tracking friend please?!

[scienceteachergeek]

Hi there ladies

I’m really looking for a ‘clomid friend’ or ‘infertility pal’!

I’m 30, DH is 38. I came off the pill July 2013 to regulate my cycles and ended 15yrs of antidepressants in March 2014 as I’d read that was the best plan if possible.

I’d been having regular 27/30day cycles since I came off the pill but after no positive tests, buying OPKs and the Clearblue Advanced Fertility Monitor, plus charting temps and monitoring my cervix and mucus it quickly became apparent that I wasn’t ovulating. After all the blood tests, sperm analysis, trans-vaginal scans and the HSG it showed that he was fine but I wasn’t ovulating, but there was not obvious reason why.

Fast forward to now, 2yrs since coming off the pill, I have been prescribed clomid and have taken my first 5 tablets. I’m day 12 today and have been having follicle tracking to check if the drugs have worked. My largest follicle was 16.4mm today and have to go back on Wednesday to check it again.

Do any of you know if that’s a good size? Or have any experiences of being further down the clomid path? Or are you in a similar position? I just feel like I’m going out of my mind and could really use a buddy!

Thanks for reading and hugs to you all. Interested in hearing from any of you xxx

Right..so I started testing two days ago. I'm getting 'faint positives' or possibly evaporation lines as they aren't coming up after the 5mins. Todays line is darker than yesterdays. If you read what this doctor says then ANY second line, no matter when it shows up means something, can't find the article now. I'm going crazy...I need it to be tomorrow morning! I don't want to get over excited though and end up in the state I was last month. I swore I wouldn't test early again..but obviously I have :(

Oh I feel in a real mess! Hope you're all ok.

Decided, after much research that the line I'm seeing getting darker from 1 to the next is this famous evap line. I'll still test tomorrow!!!

OMG science!!!!!
That's looking bloody good to me!!
When you pops tomorrow is there any way you can keep a sample and if you get another line which I'm pretty sure you will from the looks of this so you can test again and maybe try to get a pink one. I've heard that pink is more reliable than blue but I'm not sure if it's true or just a thing people on here say.
This is looking so exciting though.
Tentative congratulations!!
Please update is with another pic in the morning

*poas

And newleaf no I'm not thinking of testing although I'm a bit of an addict so can't say either way. will update if I do but not planning on. I don't see the point as know it isn't possible this month and don't see the point of the disappointment.

Just told dp about science and he didn't care, he didn't have any empathy with the situation and couldn't understand my happiness for science which basically means he doesn't understand the enormity of the situation.

So pleased for some positive news in here!

Oh please don't congratulate me yet. You've made me chuckle about what your DP said. I tell my DH about you all the time. He hypothesises about what your real name is and what you look like!

I'll save the wee and get a pink. Good idea. Thank you. At least you can see the line. It's probably just this evap line everyone talks about. If it gets any darker I might get excited again! SO pleased you commented though. Really wanted you to look!

OMG, I don't want to get too excited because I guess you probably feel anxious about false hopes.. however in my mind that is +!

I will save my excitement overload until the next POAS update

haha and as for telling DH, he knows I use mumsnet but I would never tell him about you lot, he wouldn't care in the least about "strangers" online and I doubt he would listen to even half of what I could explain.

I like the hypothesising about what we all look like, where we live, what we do etc... I bet it would be surprising sometimes how much/how little we actually have in common other than our obvious end goal!.

Anyway - science you best keep us updated, we are all on the edge of our seats rooting for this. Ready for a long couple days ahead waiting for the darker line so you can allow yourself to believe.

and PS, science make doubly sure you are taking that folic acid now x

Very quick message as I don't have time to add a full post atm, but FINGERS CROSSED! That would be amazing. Keep us posted! We need some good news .

Well second line came up straight away today but didn't get darker. My fertility monitor kindly made it very clear to me this morning...see picture.

In other news, after going to the hospital with MIL today they have confirmed that the cancer is back and chemo must start ASAP. She told me she didn't want to die until she'd seen me have a baby. My DH is the only one of her children not to have reproduced. Made me feel worse!

So all in all today has been bollocks! Maybe tomorrow I'll have better news!

Oh ScienceTeacher what a shitter of a day. I'm really sorry. At least tomorrow HAS to be better! You can't have any guilt about not having had a child though. You're going through enough as it is without worrying that you're somehow letting people down x

Morning all

science how are you getting on? Have you tested again this morning? What sensitivity is your fertility monitor? Did you say your other blue test showed up in less than 5 mins yesterday? Did you manage to get any pink tests?
Sorry for all the questions! I'm just so hopeful one of us gets a bfp!
I poas today, not sure why as I didn't ovulate, habit I suppose. And want to be able to have a drink built free tonight. AF due Monday but expect it will be sooner.

Any news from anyone else today?

Morning all. Looked online everywhere to find out the sensitivity of the monitor but they don't tell you. I did a pink IC test yesterday but nothing showed up on it at all again the mystery faint line is there and showed up within 5mins. Monitor still informed me that I wasn't pregnant. AF due tomorrow.

When I've seen other peoples + fertility monitor sticks they're much darker than my second line

Anyone else with brighter news?

Hi science - I heard that the clearblue tests are not as sensitive as some of the IC's available... maybe in a couple (long, torturous) days it'll be able to pick it up.

I have always heard the "lines a line" phrase and the only reason I would have any doubt is if the test was "flooded" or used mid-stream and not dipped carefully. I think if the test says "don't read after 10 minutes" and the line pops up within 10 minutes then its there looking back at you.

I guess it would be pretty unbelievable though when you have been trying for so long and have probably like us all, peed on over 100/200+ sticks... god knows how many I have done and scrutinised for that second f-ing line!!!

As for MIL guilt trip - I would just try focus on you. Starting a family was a decision between you and DH and whilst it would be nice, things are what they are and timescales are just not under your or anyones control. many people, myself included, have lost a parent/parents so will miss out on having a grand mother/father for their baby and sharing that with them... but you can't worry or hold onto things that you can't change and are out of your control because it won't change the outcome.

one thing is for sure, all of our (future) babies are 100% wanted and will be cherished and loved like no other.

it will happen for all of us, just a matter of when.

Well said newleaf
Totally agree

I also totally agree with NewLeaf. Well said!

How is everyone doing?

Any update ScienceTeacher? I hope, whatever has happened, that you are feeling ok today.

In sort-of goodish news clutching at straws it looks like I ovulated early in my cycle (CD13). I've had so many pointless cycles where I have ovulated around CD20-23 of 28/29 day cycles. I know it's only one tiny thing which most women take for granted, but it's one of the few times my body has actually done something right!

Aw shucks guys haha, only an opinion!!

science any news from u? Hope you are keeping ok, we are all thinking of u.

flat yippeeeee for "normal" early OV, I am waiting to see if my body plays ball this month too and if it does I will through a mini private ovulation party and do a happy dance. Like u say most women take for granted but it feels like a small miracle for some of us

Have a great Sunday ladies

Woo flat great news
science hope all is ok
I took a test today, out of habit as don't know if I actually ovulated this month and have a slight line. So slight dp can't see anything. Doesn't show in pics but will try to post one if I can. I think it's actually an evap line so will test again in the morning or if I can hold onto my pee for a few hours will test again this afternoon.

Pic attached

I just logged into the site from my phone to try see that pic but my phone is rubbish, however I think I can see a line .

The test line does look quite dark, I hope it's not an Evap line and I can't wait for anther update. Have u had any symptoms?

However the more I look at it the more it looks like it could be what you hope it to be.....!!! Standing by for more info and fingers crossed xx

Morning
Poas again today and I'm certain there is something there.
Off to boots to buy a frer in a minute to check.
Any thoughts?

Yes I think there is still something there too!! But I worry that the FRER won't pick it up yet either as the IC's are supposed to be for ultra early testing too right? Fingers crossed for you.

When is AF due do you think? Hard to tell also since you don't know when you ov'd exactly i guess.

science how are you? thinking of you...

Omg guys, I'm on my phone and can't really tell from the photos, but please please please let them be BFPs! Keep me (and the rest of us) updated! I really hope it's good news for you both x

Frer