Assisted conception after recurrent miscarriage part 5

[Mel3062]

Hope this is right ladies ...

Forgot to say I agree that the clexane wouldn't have caused you to lose it as its just a blood thinner and routinely used in early pregnancy. It might be that your lining was too thin so that the embryo didnt implant properly. When I had my 2 cps Louise at nlc told me that your body can gear up for pregnancy even though there is no viable embryo so in one respect your body is working properly.

Thanks ladies no wasn't on super ovulation. My hcg was 30 and progesterone was 131 so was told to stop med if another neg test and that as I test so early I may not of known otherwise but that it wasn't the injection just a "quality control"
My biopsy results are in at 48% instead of 5 so high and am talking to prof quenby tomorrow so that will be interesting.

To say I was on pred and had been on hydroxy when had the biopsy!

What time do you see Prof Q, Mel?

Let us know how you are getting on Mel

Starting to worry as seem to have less symptoms, bb's have stopped hurting and don't need to wee so much. Still tired but no sickness. I guess it's normal to not feel pregnant sometimes at this early stage?? God it's all such a worry!!

pebbles It comes and goes - and remember pred often masks a lot of pregnancy symptoms. Even without pred I didn't get any 'pregnancy symptoms' at all with DD. It varies day to day, try not to worry (easier said than done, I know!).

mel how are you doing?

Thanks Ari, I forget pred can mask symptoms. Having never even got this far or had a pregnancy without drugs I just don't know how I should feel!

Pebbles, I had no real symptoms other than tiredness with my DS (and indigestion from pred). Then when I weaned off them, for 2 weeks I had shocking sickness, and realised what I'd been spared with the pred. Think of it as a positive!

pebbles funny enough I looked back on my posts here yesterday from last time I was pregnant to see if I was moaning about my symptoms as I haven't had much yet. I think mine started at 7 weeks last time and I had awful sickness and tiredness even on the pred, worse than when i was carrying dd1. They use preds for controlling morning sickness so don't be surprised not to feel anything. Some ladies never have it anyway.

I am only officially 5+1 today so too early for symptoms for me. Still worrying though especially as I did another cb digital and its still saying 2-3 wks. I was hoping it would have gone up to 3+ now but I guess its not that accurate. At least I suppose it hasn't gone back to 1-2 as I know it would be game over then!

Have you got a first scan booked yet???

pebbles also don't be surprised to get sharp pains across your dt

Stupid iPhone! Meant to say pains across your stomach as its the ligaments stretching. I remember being really worried but it was normal!

Aw ladies thanks for asking. I've just spoke to prof quenby who told me not to give up and she's not surprised I've had a chemical as my womb is one of the worst she's seen. She's told me to stop everything as something I've taken had made it worse. Then when I ovulate I've got to go for another biopsy (ouch) for free then shel try get my womb ok then we can start again in January. Pebbles pred does mask symptoms x

Thanks ladies that's helped to put my mind at rest, well for about a day until the next thing worries me!!

Sue still planning on waiting until 12 wks if we get that far for next scan, booked intralipids for 30/9 when I will be 9wks. Probably think I am mad paying out for then with no scan but might be good not to have the added stress and be as 'normal' as possible. Have my 40th Birthday Sunday and a couple of weddings to go to over next couple of wks so at the mo would rather not know if anything wrong, defo going for the burying head in sand scenario!!

When will you have a scan Sue?

Good you have a plan in track Mel and good it makes you feel a little better. Will be interesting for you to see what you are taking that's making things worse.

Sue, it's funny you saying you were looking up your previous symptoms as I was the same, asking other people what I'd experienced when pregnant before. You'd think it would be etched in your mind forever, but some things you seem to forget.
Mel, it sounds as if you're in very capable hands. When she says your womb is one of the worst she's seen, what does she mean? In what way?

Just the level of nk cells its very high but would be impossible to pinpoint what it is that's caused it :(

Not good just been to the toilet and had red bleeding and some light cramping, here we go again...

Oh no pebbles try to rest up and see what happens. Don't forget its common to bleed in ivf pregnancies. From what I remember you had bleeding earlier on with this one and it then stopped? Is it bright red?

Yes I had darker bleeding, this is very very watery and now bright red. Guess it will be off to EPU in the mirn

morning!

You never know it might stop by the morning. It's still not over yet xx

Fingers crossed for you pebbles xx

I just feel like I've done all I can to try make all this a success and now it's all gone worse and I have to start all over again :(

mel that's the worst thing about miscarriages for me - having to keep starting again. Speaking from experience, the further a pregnancy gets, the harder it is to get over physically and mentally so try and think that maybe next month or the one after you might be pregnant again and in with another chance. All losses regardless of whether they are a 3 day or 3 month pregnancy still equate to the same thing, no baby so all leave you with that desperate empty feeling. If someone could tell us all that we will have a healthy baby in x amount of years then we could relax about it. Trouble is there are no guarantees even with all the drugs etc. we can only do our best so try not to beat yourself up about it as its not your fault.

pebbles how is the bleeding?

Bleeding still the same but cramping died down, doctor is arranging for a scan with Epu so have just stayed at home with feet up.

Mel can understand you must be feeling very frustrated but you are in great hands and hopefully prof Quenby will get you sorted out.

Glad the cramping has died down Pebbles. Really hoping its not a miscarriage for you - goes without saying.