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DD (15) asked me what I would do in Hollie's position.
I told her I would like to think I would do the best for her, but in all honesty I believe the mum in me, the i need my kids part of me could overrule and I can't rule out that I wouldn't fight.
DD looked a bit disappointed in me but asked 'how far would you take it though, how many times would you put a stop to the switch off by appealing and finding new ways of keeping me a little longer'
I told her I couldn't possibly answer, but I believe there is something in me that would fight forever. I can't imagine myself being ok with saying 'ok I get I won't get to hear my daughter play her instrument again'
She said so even though if you kept me alive you won't hear me play as I would be brain dead but you would keep me in That position so you can cling on to a little bit of hope that I will miraculously pick up my guitar.
I told her honestly I wouldn't want to be that parent but I can't promise I wouldn't be.
She has just said 'well I am telling you now, if ever it is advised you switch support off and you want me to stay on it, just know it will be against my wishes'
This made me think. Only Hollie knows her boy. What would Archie say if he could have predicted the future.
I do know one thing, the bbc, tiktok, facebook, mumsnet...wouldn't see me for dust. If I am fighting or not, I would want to spend every second in that hospital holding my childs hand the way I have done their whole life.