morning all. Girls came back - an hour and a half late So i am sure you can imagine the state i was in!
Drop off went ok'ish - i did the phone thing and he just left quite quickly, only to come straight in again when junior was in floods of tears telling me how she was wanting to come home yesterday (after the drama at the bus station) as he was really upsetting her making threatening comments about me I cant get her to tell me what he said though, and i dont want to push her too much as she will shut down.
I think ex heard some of this, as the door just slammed straight after - now junior is past herself thinking that he will think she was slagging him off.
Oh i really dont know what to do. I know what i want to do - is to stop all contact, and tell him to f**k off - but at the moment, junior doesnt want to stop going up, as there are a few times when she does actually have fun with him = plus she will miss her grandad and other family. Mini is young enough not to really care either way i think - but as i grew up without my family, its so hard trying to make the decision that could ultimately mean she will grow up without her dad and an extended family - she would have just me, an aunt 300 miles away, and grandparents who we very rarely see 300 miles away in the other direction.
I know you say that all they need is me, and thats really flattering, but i honestly dont feel that that is enough - even if i was in better health
wow - sorry for long post, once i started typing, i couldnt stop
BoF - 3 mins