I haven't got time to read the thread, but hi to you all and to SB..
I have come on to post and make you all feel better though...
yesterday I ate...
1 large piece of tiffin,
1 piece of peach melba cake,
chips and curry sauce,
1 magnum temptation,
1 can redbull,
1 cheese sandwich,
and other crap
a peach and a pear,
I was monumentally fed up, period from hell and trying hard to keep myself things from falling apart.
So fab...you have my hugest support and sympathy. Really really feel for you and understand the crapness and wanting to cry. But something in me wants to keep fighting and get myself back to a really good place. I have never done proper dieting so can't give proper advice, but 'give' yourself this day. Have a long bath, talk to a friend on the phone, do your nails, go for a walk, be kind to yourself,,and tell yourself you are NOT crap, just in a rut that is not permamanant, and will get out of it, and give yourself time to do so.
I don't 'know' you very well, but you seem pretty cool to me, and I hope you find a way out of how you are feeling really soon....
Have a good day.........