2005: the flare-loving fag-free club

[charliecat]

Here we go girls

Blooming eck its so quiet round here I have had to start selling on Ebay again tog ive me a reaon to switch on the PC....were is everyone..????
Having paranoid moment that you are all reading with your ashtrays whilst I am not....lol..

hey cc, i'm back. got back on sat night and have been trying to settle back to routine plus piles of laundry and tidying up to do!

LOL came back and read everyone's posts on being naughty!! come on girls, you know you can do it and whilst i completely understand about often not wanting to, you all know that you have managed a day, a week, a month...perhaps next a year?

witness CC the hardcore non-smoker she's about a week ahead of me but we can't do this alone!! cc, are you finding the counter is going VERY slowly???

obviously fee that last post isn't directed at you since you're doing really well

oh and i've still got my 1mgs cc, i don't tend to lunge at them so much anymore so feel free to throw them at fg

Hellloooo Mink! Glad to have you back...can you kindly not visit relatives for so long in the future as in your absence its all went shitshaped
Am I really a week ahead of you? Thats laughable actually since im the serial quitter here and im in the lead LOL.......Is it just us that do this stop start stop start one puff one day of smoking start stop? Because when you talk to X smokers they say Oh yeah I stopped 15 years ago...like it was no big deal...er HEEELLLLLOOOOO this is a big deal and it always will be(to me I feel)
As the one paycheck away from being unemployed goes...so is the one fag away from being a smoker.
Have just used the check whenever counter Mink...its currently..1 month, 20 days, 7 hours, 23 minutes, 26 seconds. That translates into 1775 cigarettes NOT smoked, for a savings of $377.18! I have increased my life expectancy by 6 days, 3 hours, 56 minutes, 48 seconds.
I feel its been nearer 3 months, but that may be because I think id gone a while before I blipped on my DDs birthday of all bloody days....or was it the day before...dunno...anyway. It feels like forever im so far removed from it but I still need to remind myself daily that this is a good thing and theres nothing nice/good about smoking.
Last night I had a moment of revilation(sp?) as AC would call it. I was just going to drift off to sleep when I smiled and thought OMG I dont smoke anymore...big on my face wouldnt move...
Meanwhile my mums going on about her friends father who has 2 weeks to live who smoked up until 3.5 years ago who has liver disease, kidney problems and prostrate cancer...she said "Youdd have thought hed have lung cancer but he hasnt"
Gawd. I said Well youll never know if he wouldnt have had any of those things if he hadnt of smoked at all.
Her gyno-whazit said he could see she smoked from her netherlands...cerviccy bits

OMG, that's shocking (about your mum)!! how SCARY speaking of which, i need to go and have a check up as i haven't had one since before ds1 was conceived...but it's not the sort of thing you fancy doing on a day off is it???

off to bed, dh off to b'ham again tomorrow but i can't be bothered to lug everyone up so he's only going for a night which means extended duty for me tomorrow! luckily ds1 is at nursery so at least it isn't hardcore. have got myself a dvd and nice ready-made meal plus a teeny bottle of fizzy stuff for my evening alone! it's actually more relaxing when he's not here in some ways

night night xx (ALL of you )

welcome back mm! yeah, it all goes sh*t shaped at least with some of us when you DESERT us!

Have been 'clean' since my blip last sat but have had rank flu, dh had to take day off to look after kids, first time he's ever had to do that since we've had them!
bit better today, sadly illness has not quashed my appetitite... and deadline looms ever closer.. f xxx

OMG Fiona, you must be ill...you seem to have had a few colds/flus in the past few months, do you need a rest or vitamins or something?
Do what you can with the book...im sure you will get it done....I bet you work better under pressure really....well I hope so anyway
This is where we /link{http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk?topicid=138&threadid=32349&stamp=040906095152\started} remember......come on...no more!!!!!!!!
Hope your having a nice time MM...in all honestly, I bet your ds's are still up though! What you watching?

No...Heres where we all started....and when you read the first few posts from it let me know what you think.....ill tell you MO after x

Hi everyone, how are you all doing? I've been having quite a few cravings, that's my punishment for being naughty and smoking at the week end I suppose... I feel like I'm coming down with a nasty bug too, my throat is starting to hurt. I've had my first weight watchers meeting today (yes, I'm fat as well! aargh...). And tomorrow, dentist! Oh joy... In fact I need a [scared] emoticon...
So having typed all this, things don't seemt too good for me do they? It's better than it seems, really, and on the plus side, Desperate Housewives is starting in 15 mins or so!

CC, that link just takes me to the active convos page.

LOL Mammya....whats worse is when you are a desperate housewife on a diet without a fag!(Me!) LOL....I have came to the conclusion there is no easy way for me to achieve this. Just no more nicotine. I am a junkie to it so I cant have it.....
What are you having done at the dentist or is it just a check up? I am rattly.... how many weeks on???!!! Must be pmt rattling my nerves.

This ok?

Yes that works. See CC, you've come a long way...

yes she has, have near constant cravings sometimes and I think of cc and all the puffing she used to do and think cc has done it, something like nearly 2,000 fags unsmoked, and bloody hell I can to! Am still VERY dependent on lozenges tho and way over my time limit with them.

dh just home from work, gonna pretend to be working!

When I read the first 10-15 posts I thought Blooming eck we were enthusiastic and upbeat about the whole thing. And now I dont feel we are the same...Im just bloody minded and am sick of losing it so im determined not to do it myself and because we have knocked ourselfs so much I think we think of it as a grim propect now...you know...stopping...but its the best thing any of us can do for ourselfs and each other is make sure we quit and stay stopped.
Fg when you say you have near constant craving, are they cured by the lozenge or are they the mental tease that says you would feel better if you had just one fag. A demon voice telling you the deadline would vanish if you had a puff?
Must go and sort everyone out.....gonna be rushing!

Soooooooooooooo Loneeellllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fg should get lozengers posted today they are 1mgs not 2 though...might be an idea to alternate depending on how rattly you are ?

thanks v much cc. it's just a low level niggling feeling which IS curable with lozenges, apart from on those weekend nights (like tonight, eek!) when me and dh have a bit to drink and sit up late yacking away, which I love, but I don't have the heart to send him outside to smoke on these occasions and it's SO blimmin' hard. Whenever I've cracked, it's ALWAYS been in these situations. I can cope with anything else - work stress etc. so have decided that I need a kinda strategy - when desperation strikes, gonna go up and have a bath, mellow out away from the cigs, and if it still is hell, go to bed!!

like you cc, I just want my smoking life to be well in the past. I don't like it any more. see people smoking at bus stop outside our house and think yuck. Don't want it to be something I do or even think about.

also have decided that this is the year I do a half marathon and that aint gonna happen with lungfuls of gunk!

hope you're all having good day girls xxx

I have a low level niggling that starts between 4pm and 8/9 pm...cured by alcohol and sitting me arse on the sofa to watch meaningless telly. Im thankful I dont wake up with it. Mine cant be nicotine longing, it must just be the fact ive been busy all day and need to take some time for myself. Lozengers posted
Can you concentrate on what DH is saying when hes sitting in front of you puffing? I know I cant I either leave because its putting me too close to the edge of the mountain I have taken so long to climb that I dont want to fall off of ...or the other extreme...I cant stand the smell and im looking thinking OMG..you really think your enjoying that..and I disappeer till they have finished.
My dp is being excellent I think hes trying to get his head round to stopping...but ATM hes smoking 1/2 fags a night whereas with me as company we would smoke 15-20 in an evening...so hes using the smoke free house as a time not to smoke...but still smokes like a chimnet at work.
Keep it up....xxxxxx

HELLOOOO, where are you all??? just as busy as me i imagine, hope you're not all out there puffing just checking in, thought one of you might be around by tonight, alas no!

Its quiet isnt it MM?

cc thanks for the lovely card, very thoughtful of you hon, and also the whacking great pile of lozenges, ta v v much!!

yeah i think evenings are tougher too cc. brilliant that yr dp's not puffing much around you. Mine's cut down too. I went to a party on sat night and got trolleyed but didn't smoke - bit embarrassed about my drunken ramblings tho, and we have been tanking it bit since christmas, so am gonna have a booze free fortnight for the first time in about, well, since I've been a grown up!

I just wanna prove to myself that I can do it, if you know what I mean. Am greedy with drink, wine especially, and wake up most mornings with mild fuzziness and am just sick of it.

how's everyone else doing????

Great news - we have got a lap top, so DH can play poker and i can read mumsnet!!
I am having a bad day today - DD is teething and i soooo need a fag!! I have a bottle of wine on the go now, so hopefully i can last till bed time!!
I have also been to the clinic and have a prescription for patches for the next 6 weeks - cool! Well done on not smoking at the weekend fiona. I am too chicken to go out at the moment as i know i am weak! And luckily it is freezing cold here so i don't fancy popping out for a fag!

Sure ive posted something here since you fee...cant have came up??? Well Done was the first words I remember!
On a busy day like today I havent given them a thought...woo hooo!