No dog-ends. No roll-ups. No 'Just One's. NO SMOKING!!!

[minkmama]

Morning girls, not subtle i know but hey, some of us need this

Night night cc, have fag-free dreams!

Actually I never doubt my parenting in terms of what I'd do for dd because I'd do just about anything. It's just my worries about HOW I do it ...

Hello, I am a cigaretteaholic. It's been nine days since my last one and I'm doing ok bar the moments when I go aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh

I am staying clear of coffee too as it makes me want to go
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh without fail.

Mint tea seems to help.

Hello willow, 9 days is good!

I am finding now that the cravings are generally less. It's mostly when I think about it that it gets bad now, so long as I'm thinking about other things it rarely intrudes into my thoughts.

But when I do think about them I go Aggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh too

Shall we all just AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH
Thats pinpoints it doesnt it? Well done Willow!

Its fine if your not thinking about it, its just once its in your head you cant stop thinking about it.
I dont tend to think "I want a fag" Do you guys? Or is it more an awareness of not smoking? And time dragging???

Awareness of time dragging AND I want a fag ...

AGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH will do!

Goodness arent we encouraging?!

It's bizarre how it marks time - I keep thinking "what should I be doing next?" and then realise that it's normally a point in the day when I would light up.

Yeah and its remarkable how much time in a day it would fill....I must have spent a good 2 hours of each day skivving out the back smoking Not in one big gap, but loads of 2-5 min intervals...longer if there was a fellow smoker/neighbour doing the same!

Well where is everyone. I know its Monday but goodness me theres got to be someone other than me about.
Im looking at the mess in my house wishing it would tidy itself up, but its not, do you think I should help it???!!

Goodness me you have all vanished! Well dp done a share of the house work and front room and kitchen are done...yeah!!
He also put some of your oil in the bath Mink, which I have got into and really enjoyed, except now I feel like a Smelly Slug as I am all greasy.....how long will it take for that effect to wear off???
Another bath in the morning I suspect.
Still havent had any really bad moments which is LOVELY............How is everyone else?

Hi everyone, i'm feeling v. run down and tired today not for any particular reason as dh was off half day so really i should feel better. i always seem to feel more tired the more 'rest' i have - must be the adrenalin of normal days i guess.

i'm in a weird situation this time and actually want the fags that i'm craving where on other quit times i've not wanted one at all except in nostalgia. after dinner could have killed one and then thought about tomorrow when i drop off ds1 at nursery and how easy it would be to stop off at a newsagent's and buy some and smoke at home whilst it's quiet when ds2 is sleeping. these are the thoughts going through my head at the mo, not sure why they're so strong at the moment!

oh, pn, i said in the old thread that i didn't really have a reason for starting again, just that i'd had a silly row with dh and that it was probably just an excuse for me to light up after the 1 month milestone. after that i just carried on....didn't even like them too much since i couldn't feel anything due to blocked nose and when i could breathe all i could 'taste' was ashtray. bizarre how you carry on regardless...

night night all (or just cc!) xx

oh cc, i do actually have a dispersing bath oil base that's less greasy!

oh and AARRRRRGGGAGGGHHHH

Keep going arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh girls, paint your nails, learn to knit (ok that's pushing it..)

Above all remember the tricks that bas**rd nico plays on you, the little voices:

'hey, you've done so well, 2 days/ 9 days/2 weeks/ 4 weeks/ 6 months without a cigarette, you've proved you can do it so one won't hurt'

YES IT BL*DY WELL WILL

Take a big deep breath, stick the finger up to the world and promise yourself that no matter what, you will NOT let the nico Bast*rd get to you - you CAN & WILL beat it.

Sorry, not been around much but haven't forgotten you, just never, never give up trying, one day you will be ex-smokers

How can I paint my fingernails? I've bitten them all off.

ROFL about knitting, I've actually tried that one! It works, in as much as you can't smoke while you're knitting. Having said that dd is still waiting for her jumper, 2 years later... Not my thing really!
I'm feeling better today, don't know why I was feeling so tense these past couple of days, and yes, aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggghhhh is a good way of describing it!
My counter says I've saved £204.62, isn't that amazing?

And painting finger nails not so good for me, I always used to smoke a ciggie straight after finishing, it's just enough time to make sure you can touch things (carefully) without making a mess of your nails.

aaaaarrrgghhhhhh! Can I join in??! I like making that noise! Sorry have been a bit quiet, am totally work overloaded - well done willow btw, all casual like, strolling in going, 'I have not smoked for 9 days!!' That is such an achievement, hope you feel v v proud!

hey cc, your hypnotherapist might be snorting over the £90 quid she got from you, but you'll be the smug & chuffed one when you've not had a fag for a month or so. Maybe be all casual about it & think, 'I am CHOOSING not to smoke right now' rather than it being a big all or nothing trauma (this is a technique I have been trying to adopt... being a bit aloof with fags, like they're a boyfriend I don't like any more... am I ging mad??? Am just trying to tone down the addiction in my own mind)

I had hypno in australia about 14 years ago, had a fag outside first newsagent after I left - he was crap tho, am sure yours was loads better & you'e in a far more determined frame of mind.

You too mm, maybe I get the wrong gist but sometimes you seem to find it ok, not smoking.... wanna hit me for saying that? (ps! yes pls, still would love the oils, pls email me with total & I'll bung you the £!)

pn, who's a natural at child rearing? Not me, after nearly 8 years - tho I do find it more enjoyable now (just as frustrating, but at least we can communicate, sometimes...) I used to REALLY envy my dh when he tripped off to work and I was left at home with the boys! What was there to do but stuff gob with fags???

gotta get some sleep, have fag free dreams all... xxxxx

Cheers Fiona - hope everyone is doing ok.

Had a proper coffee this morning and did not go aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.

Is this a turning point. Not really thinking about fags much which is good.

Hi Willow2, it was def a turning point for me. i used to be one of those people who had to have a fag with my coffee esp my morning coffee and often in lieu of food! at the beginning it was so tough getting away from that association so you're doing really well

well i can have a coffee now withouth the fag but my biggest failure to date has been when i'm feeling shattered from a tough day with the boys or a tiff with dh. have got to figure that one out as popping a lozenge in my mouth instead of taking deep drags away from them is just not cutting it!!

i know i could just walk away, but it doesn't seem to do the trick...

how's everyone today?

i'm knackered because ds1 was really scratchy last night and just when i got him to sleep, ds2 decided to wake up actually nearly fell asleep in front of tv which is something i never do!

fg, have finished making up oils but have only just realised that they forgot to send me the rollette so i will send you the bottles first to make sure you get them in good time! will try to post out tomorrow, failing that, will be on friday!

pn, how's your day today?!!

are you all right cc, have the kids at nursery broken you down?! if they're anything like max my heart goes out to you

Im here, have been at nursery and will be for rest of week practising for end of term nativity...all going well except for one little boy who will not sit on the church pews, he sits on the floor, and when you lift him up he does the jelly body thing...and he weighs a ton so lifting him up and down is not doing me any favours.
I think hes gonna end up sitting on his mums knee though as he has an instant "No" reaction to anything you ask of him, so all should be ok with the other 3 boys im in charge of!!!
No major craving here...
One moment, but i managed to tell myslef it wasnt worth it.
It almost felt suicidal the urge to smoke the other day, Saturday, when the Nicotine was leaving my body painfully, so after that these small urges are nothing in comparison.
MM...you have my sympathy, actually, we ALL know exactly how it is.
You must tell yourself there is only pleasure in a fag when you cant have one, when you can cram 20 in your mouth at the same time and you can feel the damage they are doing to you then there is no pleasure in them at all.
Keep it up.
BTW i felt and looked as if id been battered by a giant on Saturday so exhausting was the process..

Hello all, I'm still here, still not smoking despite dd's non-stop cough and the pathetic attempt at potty training I seem to be playing at doing and feeling like an utter loser about.

AND I've got a cold.

So despite all that stuff it's pretty good I haven't had a puff isn't it?

Weirdly I feel more like a smoke when I've got a cold than when I haven't. Do you think that might have had something to do with your 'relapse,' mm?

IKWYM, I think its because your all bunged up and stuffy which u associate with fags...

I also think that for me there's a masochistic pleasure in the sensation of the smoke hitting my lungs in a more intense way as it can sometimes do with a cold ...

Still, got no smokes here ... Dp's been smoking his joints with herbal stuff for weeks so I'm not tempted to nick one of his ...

... b***rd ...