No Smoking but lots of Chatting...Successful thread #2

[charliecat]

New Home for us Girls!

Also, FG, what boots from M&S.com? They have some really gorgeous ones this winter....

Just short back ones with a heel to wear with jeans etc...

Much pmt-style wailing last night, kinda had to let it all out, feel MUCH better today!!

How's everyone else??

I love taking kids to zoo mamated, we go to edinburgh one. Hope you have fun and GOOD LUCK with quit day!!!

Dear all, sorry for absence. Potty training plus various viral things have left me with little to say but I've been lurking and keeping up with you guys.

Big kiss xxx

hi there PN, am working today but got all googly eyed at the PC so started footering about on mumsnet, v v naughty, still craving pretty badly sometimes, are you?? Had raging pmt yesterday but it's simmering down now, always v challenging when am off the fags (but I s'pose you've just gotta ride through it)...

school parents eve tonight, always a bundle of fun!! (once towards the end of our lads' 1st yr at school me and dh had to go straight to pub after parents' night & down 6 pints of Stella!!)

Hope everyone's having a good day. Pls excuse my rantings last night. xxxx

Sorry, a bit more ranting - firstborn has "loose bowels", poo all over fab new clothes and coat straight out of tumble drier, went straight back in washing machine. everytime I wiped some up, a new splodge appeared somewhere else! Was on my way to shops, first trip out since saturday, had to change him and me (poo all over my jeans and boots, for chrissakes). Have mainlined some marlboro lights, but am still looking forward to quit day - SATURDAY

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH Failure number 2 this month which is why you should never have just one. Woke up this morning swung the front door open and found a 3/4 fag from dp sitting on the ledge....picked it up to remove it and found myself lighting it at the cooker, tapped a fag off a friend, thought id have a lozenge at lunch and get on with it, had a meeting with my brothers social worker and chuffed away in the kitchen while my mum chatted to her...had to then go out and sneaked into a newsagents to buy somw abmer leaf. Have spent the night rummaging for baccy/skins/matches and feel like a right troll...and I smell and my throat hurts.
SOOOOOOOOOOO Not worth it. Will be my first day off this week tommorow and am going to indulge in me things instead of being knee high in children.
Will not come back here till im at least 3 hours clean...Well Done You guysxx
Still no Mink...thinking of dropping her a line in case she has no net access.

Oh CC - those crafty little beggars, always catch you unaware's, eh? (ciggies I mean), things going Ok and you kind of have a fuzzy moment and before you know it you're leaning over cooker trying not to singe eyebrows! I know, I've done it, you just have to keep picking yourself up and starting all over again. I know it may be easy for me to say as I am puffing billy at the moment, but I will be with you every step of the way from saturday! It feels like a bitch, but hang in there - and bin ALL skins and baccy etc before you go to bed tonight, also, give dp a good hard kick in shins......it'll make you feel better!

cc, please please remember how good & proud you were feeling a few days ago. Get stuck into AC again, and pls pls tell your dp to really try and not leave ciggies or baccy around, it's blimmin torture for you. Like you've said it doesn't make a bad day any better, just makes you feel so sh*t inside.

The cravings will lesson and you'll be FINE, instead of feeling peed off with yourself. You're right, sounds like you need a bit of time to do nice things for yourself, make yourself feel all nice & relaxed. YOU CAN DO THIS!

YOU ARE CHARLIECAT AND YOU ARE A NON SMOKER.

By order of the law. (fierce emoticon)

Shouldnt b here but have asked mum to contribute to a hypnotist for me for Xmas...

Cc, ok, so you had a couple of slips but compared to what you used to smoke you're doing great, no?

I really think though that you have to stop the spliffs with baccy in them. As long as you've been having those you're never really free of a little addiction to nicotine. As for me, since having that half fag a few days ago I think I've craved one more and more. Sometimes almost as much as I did in those first few days of giving up. So I literally won't go there again now. Just a half fag is enough to set me off track.

I've had such a lousy week this week to be honest. Dd's had croup (up for hours every night coughing her poor little heart out and very very hot) right in the middle of me trying to potty train her. And she's now stuck in this weird state of completely refusing to wear a nappy except for when she goes to bed but also refusing to use the potty. Hell. And she's been so fed up with herself. And fed up with me. She veers between wanting me to totally 'baby' her and carry her around everywhere, to not letting me touch her. . It's been so so so tempting to smoke I can't tell you. In fact I found a dire old nub in dp's ashtray which was smoked as far down as it'll go and I tried to light it. There was nothing there but filter. Disgusting.

Let's hope next week's better!

OMG prefernot, that sounds like hell, thats the week that you question why you had kids (lol!)
I am doing better, yes, but Im sick of failing back in the tray after feeling so postive, its like a knife in my heart (lungs actually) and I do just want to stop, of course its me thats having the fag and ballsing it up but its an exhausting process.
I have booked myself in for a hypnotist session tommorow at the cost of 200 quid. Its always been my last resort and this is it.
I need to completely remove from my head the thought that a fag will not help in my time of need and I have read Allen Carr so many times it goes in my eyes and out my ears. I want some peace from the thought of fags. So this is it!
Wish me luck xxx
And I your dd gets betterxxx
Also have dropped Minkmama a Xmas card as I am worried about her disapeerence

Rephase that at 90 quid, shes just rang ! thats a relief to the wallet!

Hi everyone! Sorry you're having a bad time prefernot and charliecat. Hope things get better for both of you. As for me, I'm doing fine, having hardly any cravings at all now. Apart from that both me and my dd have a terrible cough with a nasty cough. 'Tis the season for it I suppose...

11.15 today folks...fingers crossedxx

Is that your hypnotherapy session CC? Hope it goes well!
Yesterday I had a pest control man in my flat (I've got mice, yuk!), obviously a smoker and my god did he stink! That really made me glad to be a non-smoker!

HI GIRLS!!!

B*Y HLL my internet went down for a week! I thought i was going to be stuck in the real world forever Thank you so much for worrying about me - it's nice to know that people care about you! Got your card today CC, thank you it was so sweet [big hug]

The guy came round yesterday and fixed it, strangely we didn't have the internet but we did have cable so my life wasn't quite over! How funny is I'm a Celebrity...? Don't normally watch it but it's Natalie Appleton is hilarious! Took me quite a while to update myself with all the posts, sorry in advance if i fail to mention anyone's events!

Jesus this is taking me ages to type...so out of practice! I ended up spending my evenings playing the Sims again and am re-addicted so if i disappear again i'm in Simworld!

Right, first of all I have to confess to falling off the wagon (again) and have pretty much chuffed the whole time i've been away. This I feel is testament to the huge support you all give me as without you all for a week i've been lost out by the pongy bin unable to breathe because of my cold and still fagging away. didn't enjoy it and sorry to say that i've fagged today but am resetting clock for tomorrow.

CC, hope the hypno goes well! V. belated Happy Birthday to Tanya and Tasha! and glad to hear your mum was okay physically, it she over the shock now?

PN my God poor you! It doesn't rain, it pours i am also trying to train ds1 and because he's teeny, the training pants slip off him which is quite scary bearing in mind the number twos but fingers crossed. I didn't know they could get croup at this age, what do you have to do to ease her discomfort? Actually, i didn't know they could get croup anymore, must have been confusing it with whooping cough. it's terrible when they won't let you comfort them, you're at such a loss as to what to do! But well done on smoking a filter and not the baccy

Fg, thanks for your e-mail, unfortunately i haven't started the oils, wanted to make sure with you first. will do that on monday probably as dh is off then half day cos he worked all weekend

Mammya, hi there and good to know you're well!

Mamated, I'm Mink I have 2 boys close together like you (2yrs and 7mths) am 30 in april and studied at Cardiff uni which is where i met dh! which part of cardiff do you live in boyo? i hear it's changed a lot since i was there, miss it loads tho! was going to welcome you the day i disappeared off the cyber world, so WELCOME!

Gotta stop now as fingers have frozen due to no heater in this room....

btw fg, i LOL reading your book as you have a Max in there and my sister's name is Natalie

Missed you lot so much (sorry am not drunk just happy to be back)

Hello Mink! Glad to have you back...thought the P.S on my card was a bit morbid, but the fact you had vanished was morbid too! You need to check out your local library see if theres net access there just in case it happens again. Nice to have you back! [hug back!]
Hmmm well I went to my hypno thing and I havent had a fag since, but the sad thing is I have just the same as what she was saying on a cd
So a textbook person she was indeed, and I specifically said I need to have it imprinted in my head smoking will not help in a stressful situation and she didnt mention it...
But simply coughing up (excuse the pun) 90 quid is enought to keep me off the fags for today

Welcome back mm! As you've probably seen, it was a bit of a week for smoking slippages. What's been happening that's made you start up again? How many are you having? It's so easy to slip even when you think you're over the worst. Today I have been SO tempted ... Listen to this nightmare!

Went to shops with dd in knickers (1st major trip beyond local park without nappies. Like your ds, mm, dd is tiny and the training pants 12-14 months are absurd on her so I haven't bothered as she hated them). All went great. She did a wee before we set off and anohter one in the shopping centre. Great. Got home and left my keys in the lock outside the block! AGH! Went down in the life immediately and someone had taken it. So me, dd, shopping stuck outside our flat on the 21st floor from 11am - 3.30pm when the council carpenter came. Thanks goodness i had the potty! but poor little dd with her chest and no food, drink, or medicine with us . She finally collapsed exhausted for an hour at 1.30. I tell you if we hadn't been confined to the corridor in fear of missing the guy when he came I'd have been straight to the corner shop for a 10-pack I can tell you. Especially after 4 hours sleep last night due to dd's non-stop coughing!!!

Cc, how did it go? Please keep on posting, even if you're puffing?

I would have been tempted to park dd outside the door and nip to the offy Pn lol...what a night mare...yes Mink, all the same questions as PN, strange how we fell off at the same time...like it had something to do with the moon or something...spooky

The withdrawel is now rattling round my head and it sounds like a suicide wish Go smoke a fag Fuck off I want to stop...no go on...aww piss off

Rang my mum up shortly after writing that and was balling my eyes out saying how bollocks this is, I cant get it out my head but if I did actually have a fag it wouldnt help only lenghten the process bla bla bla bla
and she said something about a man who came over to her when she was rolling a fag to sniff her tobacco and hed stopped 20 years ago.
I said yeah, he sniffed the tobacco, your the idiot who was smoking it.
She then said Nah for a minute he was envious, And I said Dont kid yourself but it sobered me up from my crying fit.
Like seriously, that man had achieved what we are all striving for, and my mum thinks hes envious of her, whos too weak willed even to try...er no.
Going through hell here still have been crying for HOURS oN AND OFF. hOPING TO FEEL BETTER TOMMOROWX OOPS

not read any of this thread except the one about charliecats mum... Actually, I gave up about 18 years ago and do often feel an urge to sniff someone elses (god that sounds rude). Used to phone my friend up who smokes in her car just so we could drive round whilst she smoked and I breathed deeply ... how sad is that???

Ah but surely you didnt wish you were in the position of the smoker whos smoke you were sniffing???