No Smoking but lots of Chatting...Successful thread #2

[charliecat]

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The cheese was chucked all over the plate not just on the peas girls! Try it...honestly I demolished the platefull in under 2 minutes! It was that good!!!
You have to grate it thinly for the best effect....how im not 30 stone ill never know BUT I wont question it too much!
I am going birthday cake shopping later. Its great having your kids on the same day, one party, one cake...lol...MM Happy birthday to DS1 next week then! Its exciting isnt it???!!!!
Have got dp to hide the weed this time...so cant and wont have any today although ive ran out of vodka and we only have the headache beer left so will need to buy something for later tonight.
Going to see if I can motivate myself to sort through the kids clothes........
FG whats the weather like in Bonny Scotland...its icy cold down here but from vague memories youdd probably class it as a warm winters day!!!

Mm, I work as a film researcher for a large medical history library. I'm meant to be on the science / arts crossover area but I end up doing a lot of other stuff at the moment and I kind of cherry pick looking into programmes which I think may be of personal interest to me as the mmr debate is. Did you guys all get yours vaccinated? Dd's 25 months now and she had all the first ones but I haven't done MMR yet. We want to do single jabs but are too broke.

Cc I remember being in Leicester once and seeing students buying enormous plates of chips with grated cheese on top. I didn't get it then. I still don't. And I LOVE cheese.

My dp works Saturday AND Sunday. So do you all feel really truly extra sorry for me being such a weekend widow?

Did you taste the chips n cheese PN? Really mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmm especially mozeralla(im aware thats spelt wrong but I dont know how to spelt it properly!)
MMR hum ho. My dd1 has had it dd2 didnt. 13 days after having it dd1 stopped moving or making any sounds , she just layed on the sofa and I thought she was going to die
I went to the docs who dismissed me saying there was nothing wrong with her (?) and I remeber saying she had the jab 13 days ago could it be anything to do with that? Her temperature was sky high.
He said no any reaction would have been in 2-3 days.
Which ive since read is bollocks.
DD1 is an odd kiddie..not autistic, but not quite on the ball either, too bright for her own good. DD2 hasnt had the jab and is very very normal.
I dont think the MMR did dd1 any favours anyway...

That mmr story's awful cc. I've heard a few scary things like that.

No, I couldn't do chips and cheese. I don't mind the odd cheese and crisps scenario but chips and cheese seems too much stodge for me. Like it would cement my mouth together.

You were right about cravings. I spent much of this afternoon feeling desperate for a little puff. Or 10. Didn't give in. It's passed now.

Why oh why didn't someone invent a healthy cigarette? They'd have made millions. I know there's herbals but they're revolting.

Cant belive I forgot the secong bit to the MMR thing.....in the nurses office months later I was left alone in the room with DD1s note on the computer screen.
I couldnt hekp but roll up the screen to when shedd had her jab and the appointments afterwards. It said she had tonsillitus. She DIDNOT have tonsillitus. Or if she did noone said she did to me, and as I was there saying Whats the problem, id they even suspected it they would have said it.
Thats why dd2s not having it.
What a cover up.

Bloody hell, cc, you were up late!

That's a terrible story. Do you think they were partly so patronising because you were a young mum? Although as an 'older' mum I still feel I get very patronised and treated as though I'm worried about nothing even when there IS something ...

Oh definetly, im the youngest scruffiest person at my doctors but now im over 20 and the doctors stopped smoking so he isnt so ratty its not so bad.
Our friends had just gone home last night so I thought I would nip on here quick for a peek before crawling into bed..I am now here again looking for 8 shrek stickers the kids need to fill thier collection!

Cor it says welocome charliecat at the top of the screen how nice on a saturday morning!

OMG my mums had a car accident on the way down here with the kids birthday pressies, her and my sisters mum are ok but the cars smashed up the front. Grim Grim Grim...and there I was worried about jam sarnies.

Oh dear, cc, hope they're ok?

So don't you feel knackered today after going to bed so late?! I was late last night, midnight, but dd was up at 6.30am this morning so I feel wiped out. Have been in a ratty impatient mood all morning. Don't you just hate it when you're being like that? But it's so hard to snap out of it? I'm hoping a quick sleep now while dd naps will make me a nicer mummy for the afternoon ...

Hi PN yes they are both ok...the cars a write off, it missed the bumper and got the popup lights and the radiator and the bonnets all crushed. Mum loves her car though and is gonna see how much it would cost to fix...she didnt put her foot on the brake in time and they were going down a hill.......duh.
Since giving up the fags whenver I feel myself in one of those ratty horrid moods I try to find something...anything...to make me laugh, the other morning I was RAGING internally, woke up late, had to get the kids ready, go to work etc and we were walking to school and dd2s trousers kept dropping down and it was raining and I was thinking FFS so I rolled up her trouser legs and shes got diddy little legs and the sight of her made me and Tasha giggle all the way to school.
I think the laughing sometimes comes near hysteria...you know if I didnt laugh I would really cry cry cry...but it works for me 9 times out of 10.
If it doesnt work and I can sense im going to be a dragon I stick the kids on the pc or the telly while I strop about in the kitchen listening to music...at least then they are not on the recieving end of mother in a rant over F* All.
If im stuck in the house feeling ratty and suffocated by them I throw on coats and pop to the park. I TRY not to let the kids realise im a pot on the boil ready to explode!!!!
First thought BTW wasnt to smoke when the phone call came about the accident...1 point to me xx

Oh yes, cc, to not instantly reach for Mr. Nick O Tine when a crisis hits is a very good point. I'm nowhere near there yet I've been gagging for a smoke this morning.

I've had a sleep and dd's still out for the count she's been having 2.5 hour kips in the afternoon lately which is a real treat for me the obsessive novel-reader that I am. So I'm feeling decidedly less ratty this afternoon and am going to stay home as it's crap out and do some nice things with her. Cc, I do the same as you usually when I'm in a grump and she's being demanding, I get us both out the door, stick her in the pram and walk VERY quickly somewhere where we can both preferably run around a bit. When the weather's lousy it's a bit more tricky, especially being in a cramped flat. Then I have to be a bit more inventive which I don't feel like doing after 5.5 hours sleep ...

OMG Fucked it up. Had a fag about 20 mins ago. Bollocks.
Fg your in the daily express today my mum tells me.
Sorry guys am going to reset my counter. Bollocks.
Moment of madness. No excuses.

oh cc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You have done so brilliantly. Just try to write it off as a hiccup because you don't need this crap, you really don't - you're gonna be so peed off with yourself after a month of fag free - god, much more than that isn't it...

It's just a slip up, forget it, you've had tons on your plate with b'days and your poor mum crashing her car. Please don't get into self loathing over this!!! Think of all the fags you COULD have smoked - like over 1,000 - and didn't. Get back on the non smoking wagon lady, pronto!

d'you think you need some low level lozenges again? Or an entire bodysuit made out of nicorette patches???

No haven't seen express, d'you know if it's a good or awful review???? (scared emoticon!)

sorry to be so quiet lately folks, kids v demanding & schlepping around trying to xmas shop, plus working like a loon as the deadline is tick ticking horribly loud in my ears... relying on telly etc FAR too much to snatch extra work time. Not running as much as I'd like mm, maybe 3 times a week at most, just 30 mins or so.

No snow yet, cc, but I can feel it a-coming...

chips 'n' cheese is the fave dish in dh's work canteen!! The good ol' scottish diet...Teamed with fags, of course!

Cc, it must be in the air or something. I had half a fag this evening .

I've just been so exhausted today, dp's been working hard and very late and dd's been up incredibly early and I just felt at the end of my tether this evening and about to lose my rag. Dp had some Marlboro lights and I begged one off him and before I knew it had smoked half and felt like a useless piece of I don't know what.

I'll be resetting counter too at work which is completely depressing.

Hello guys x1000...Have NO IDEA what came over me...I was fine and the next thing I was going to rattle dp round the head unless he gave me the baccy
I had had 5 fags since, smoked them as you do without a second thought, knowing ill be back on the wagon tommorow.
Its the kids birthday tommorow
But im not gonna beat myself up about it. I ballsed it up and even as i was sitting there in a cloud of smoke i was thinking WTF are you doing? But never mind onwards and upwards with a lozenge tommorow.
PN I hope me f*cking it up didnt inspire you to I thought id better confess straight away or I might have got in the habit of lying and I didnt want to. If it had had weed in it it would have been another joint but I knew just a couple of hours B4 the party I couldnt have a joint you know...awww bugger it. Itll be cool tommorow, but to be true to myself I need to reset my counter which I will do tommorow.
FG My mum said your friend with the book is in the express with a big piccy of the book all over the page, cant of been bad or she would have rubbed it in being like she is [grimace]
Im sure she will keep it for me and I will let you know...do you not get told of these things?
Sigh off to bed now with a heavy tar infested heart xx

No, cc, course you didn't influence me. I was just coming on to 'confess' when I read your post. It had already happened.

It's very easy to slide isn't it?

Hi, 1st timer, please be gentle..... Glad to know not the only one feeling like reprobate mum - I am a trying to break free from the fags, without much success. Have heard about mumsnet loads in press last few weeks, thought I would give it a try as I am a rugby widow this weekend.

Hi mamated, so how many of the evil sticks are you on? How long have you been smoking, and what's made you chose now to try to quit? It's taken me AGES to get to being even ready to try let alone to succeed ...

Hi prefernot, I am a slave to the evil weed and am ashamed to admit that I am addicted AGAIN. I gave up in June 03 with nicotine patches and cessation counselling, got pregnant with 2nd son in August 04, and sparked up again in May 04. STRESSED, but am v ashamed of the fact as was a rabid ex-smoker, haranguing friends & family about the benefits of quitting!!! Dont know what happened, but am now secret smoker - cant admit to anyone!!

Poor prefernot - have been in your situation so many times have lost count, and always felt dreadful, then sometimes thought - oh f* it - am a smoker and that's that. But you can get back on wagon, like cc has today on kids' b'day - it will get easier and you'll feel so so much better, in physical ways & also proud that you've got the damn awful stuff out of your system for good. Eventually cigs wonlt be an issue at all (says the optimistic part of my brain!!)

We all have those stressful moments, kids can make us feel like we're going insane can't they. Esp when there's no other adult around. Uh-o... I shouldnl't be on here as my sons are moving their beds around upstairs (!)

Hi there mamated, great to have you with us - this thread has been my complete lifeline, as has the counter which you can put on your pc (how many fags not smoked, money saved etc) which am sure charliecat will tell you about when she's not up to her ears in fairy cakes!!

Have a lovely party day cc, don't stress hon, you'll be FINE with a minty lozenge stashed in your cheek like a wee hamster, and am sure your girls will have a fab day...

Yeah the publishers did tell me but god knows when they'll send it, am desp to see it.

It's v v cold and bleary here but am gonna take kids to a farm in livingston, will freeze my butt off but better than spending all weekend trapped in house with everyone fighting or moving beds.

btw mm can't remember if I said, would love the oils any time you can make them up, pls let me know total £....
how are you anyway? V quiet lady! f xxx

also mamated have gone through periods of being secret smoker and it's awful isn't it, you just feel so lowly creeping around.

have to say it's a relief not to be stashing kids in front of telly so i can nip out for fag, then manically clean teeth, suck mints etc.....

why not set your quit date & join us???

FG - you are SO right, it is awful!! I was so great, no cigarettes for 11 months, and BAM - couldn't get enough of them. definitely am quitting - it will be great to talk to you all about this, as I said, I am a secret smoker, so poor DH is going to have no idea why I will be like a bitch on wheels!

Is it pretty spineless to set quit date for next week?? 29.11.04??

Morning girls, have to confess AGAIN. Woke up , fine lozenge opened pressies went back to bed and then when I got up I had a fag and then I had another last one...next one will be a lozenge. Could have kicked myself, the excuse being my mum was on the phone and the kids were rabbiting in my ear about the cat shit festering behind the curtain and it was easier to light up the golden virginia sitting in fron of me than run downstairs for a lozenge...but no more for me today thank you.
Mamated, Welcome to our thread of madness, it was all going so well till yesterday when me and Prefernot fell of the wagon
I think secret smoking is dreadful, its makes it worse somehow as you know you shouldnt, you havent been caught ohherrrr nasty!
If next weeks when you feel you can then do xx
Theres some fab sites at the start of this thread to get you going Good Luck, are you cold turkeying or going to try a sneaky lozenge?
MM your VERY quiet...I would like some bottles too, not sure how many yet, at least 2..so keep some in reserve for me.
Must dash Kids upstairs playing with the room full of toys they have recieved...more mess!

DH just tried to look over my shoulder at messages - had panic, (secret smoking a secret from him), now he is v suspicious. (do him good though!!) I am addicted to blackcurrant airwaves chewing gum to rid myself of the smell!!! Hi charliecat, hope the birthday is going Ok, how old are yours? Is there jelly gound into the carpets, curtains etc yet? I've been reading back over the thread, hope you all don't mind me blundering my way in.