No Smoking but lots of Chatting...Successful thread #2

[charliecat]

New Home for us Girls!

well done to all you lot
bet you all smell a lot better!

hi there coddy, thanks!! mammya that is an amazing total, imagine all them stinky fags and what they'd have done to your insides.... yeah, I howled so much on my twin lads' 1st day at school that i had to come home & go back to bed in state of nervous exhaustion.

cc hope you're less shot-in-the-head-ish, and mm, maybe you've 'crashed' after the the build up, it is totally knackering isn't it, the emotional side of bringing up children, prob even more than the physical side...

talking of physical am gonna go drag my lard-arse out for a run tonight AND have a night off the wine...

Best crack on, work day, have billions to do and terrible deadline ticking away in my head... have a good day all xxxx

ps can't help feeling peed off with dh for cracking, love him dearly but wish he could just knock smoking on the head and USE A BLIMMIN' SUBSTITUTE!!!

When did DH crack Fiona? Nightmare.
I had the turtle neck you wouldnt believe yesterday as well as hot sweats and this BLOODY HEADACHE....I was sort of hysterically giggling to myself thinking "You big shit you...just go...stop causing me all this grief...im not gonna smoke a fag and im not gonna suck a lozenge" Felt sort of mad, I never thought I would laugh at the feeling of nicotine leaving my system.
Yep thats me off the lozengers now, im hoping I will just be able to forget now...HA HA>>>SOME HOPE..
Mammya, my dd is nearly 7 and I remember thinking OMG shes gonna be starting school soon HELP and now shes is year 2, so this is her third year and shes got so tall and shes grown up sooo much .....Its gutting
MM when is max's next day?

my dd starts school next aug. Just wanna enjoy these next few months and have nice homey times and trips out with her while the boys are at school - only only get 2 days a week together anyway - wanna make the most of it really... with the boys she can be an utter pesky nightmare but on her own she's v easy & lovely company, I just love her to bits (excuse emotional outburst!)

cc what a good way to deal with the symptoms, by laughing in the face of the evil monster nicotine!!! Hope it's subsiding, and HOPE it's not as bad as going cold turkey.... take it easy, tortoise lady...

dh cracked at work yesterday - rang me sounding foul tempered and said he was gonna do it, puffed away last night and this a.m. at 7 o clock but all outside thank god, was barely aware of it. Sad though cos a week ago he was all guns blazing, going, 'I'm going to start running and do the great north run...' - 10 miles I think it is, ie, further than I've ever run! It's all or nothing with him. Know it's not an easy time tho as his ma is going into a home on mon and he has to break up the house that he grew up in, a council house she rented for 50 yrs. So I do feel really sorry for him. And would hate to be a pious ex smoker.

how's everyone else feeling, less knackered i hope mm!

oh dear, just got a phonecall from a cousin in b'ham and she's reminded me that i'm supposed to be going up tonight and i haven't packed or anything! going up there is like going on holiday interms of stuff to take up for the kids. i think i just packed a whole country in my mad dash.

will probably not be able to come on here till i get back as i have to pick up ds1 soon and then a friend is popping round after so....

cc, ds1 had his 2nd day today (2 days a week). feel much better thanks all!

hope your headache's gone cc and nevermind fg, think about how many tries it took us to get HERE so since the idea is in his mind, his body can only follow don't take any crap from him now though since he's got the drug in his system and there's no excuse anymore

what's happened to the rest of you?!!! perhaps you have a life unlike me, cc and fg!!!

How far is Bham from where you are MM? I thought you were about 45 mins from where I am and Bham is a good 2.5 hours from here...
Headaches going but turtle neck is still in full effect...felt a bit mad in the supermarket today, the nicotine rattle was taking over and I just wanted to scream at myself...didnt though!
Your poor DH, thats the shit thing about smoking, something like that comes along and you think a fag will make this better, you have a fag, nothings better and the problems still there...but your back in the pit...RAH>>>

that's exactly it cc, but he'll do it evenutally am sure, oops he's just back, better clear off here or he'll find out Ilve been talking about him.... xxxxx

Hello again, Must say this is now beginning to drive me CRAZY...I just so want to get over itand have you know, a few minutes peace without it being in my head....It has been better this evening while I was watching TV so I can only hope that by the morning I will be well and truely nicotine free and my turtle neck will have replaced itself with a normal one.
I have totally sympathy with Jimmy FG...I bet you have too, its gutting when its beaten you again and again and again.....and you know you want to stop ...RAH>>>>>>>> again.
At least hes trying, ages ago i knew I would NEVER EVER sit in my armchair with the ashtray balancing on the side in a puff of smoke the way i did for all those years. No f*ing way, it sounds to me as if hes got to that stage too.
Lets hope the next go is his last one...and maybe he will get sucking on those lozengers
Hope your having a nice time MM, and your not too near any irritating relatives!!!
Hows everyone else?! we are hogging big time FG MM and me!

Night all xx

Just wanted to pop in and say hello and say 345 ciggies not smoked!! am out all day tomorrow with my mum and dd, and away most of w'end - have a kiddie free night in glasgow, a london pal is coming up for a night of girlie chat and a day of shopping and hanging about in cafes.... I can't wait, am in state of high excitement...

will miss you folks but KNOW that none of you will crack - the thought of setting the counter back to zero is just too horrendous.
love & hugs fi xxxxx ps aren't we just great!!!

We are! we are! got book today FG Thank You xxxx

OMG look what we can do now, this is going to enhance our lifes endlessly!!!!!!

Anyone about this fine evening?

Hi all v. briefly, back from moms and still smoke free tho did disgustingly scoured dp's ashtray for a nub whenI gotin frm the dire train trip back. Dds on my knee wtching Aristocats so sorry for typing. Will update more later but it's been great to catch up with all your news. Cc sounds like maybe you have been having the headache I had? Is it better? For me today's been the first day in a week when I haven't had 4 doses of paracetamol...

Prefernot it felt like I had a JCBs clamp firmly attached and clamped on to the sides of my head...sound familiar..? Mine had gone now...did you smoke the dogend???

Yeah, cc, just like that except round my whole head like a helmet. Really painful and pounding too. It still hasn't gone but today's been better than it has been in a week. I'm not entirely convinced it's ALL to do with nicotine withdrawal but I think that's definitely playing a role.

Cc, what's a 'turtleneck'?

No, no dogends there! Dp's too clever ...

To answer some questions from before about my name it's from a short novella called 'Bartleby' in which the title character says nothing but 'I prefer not to' and slowly drives people around him crazy. It's an odd little story which has always haunted me. And as for personal details, I'm really called Ruth, am Jewish by descent but not practising, I'm 38 (ancient I know ), have 1 dd (Eva) who's just gone 2 and is completely utterly totally gorgeous. I think I said about my various studies in fine art to PhD level and now working 2 days a week as a film researcher. I live with my partner of 9 years, Christian, in a weirdly designed 21st floor council flat in South East London. He's 35 (a toy boy then!!) and is a philosophy lecturer when he can get the work but generally spends his life surrounded by the kinds of books that make your head spin just trying to understand what the titles mean. He's very brainy. And completely unpractical. And very tall, 6,5". We're incredibly broke all the time, can't drive, never manage to have holidays, but in an unconventional kind of way we have rather a nice life.

Will that do?

No-one around tonight then? Ah, well ... maybe see you tomorrow. I'm so exhausted tonight I'm going to turn in early even though dp's not home yet and will probably wake me up when he rolls in ...

Smoke free dreams everyone .

Yes I'm around tonight!
I've also been wondering what a turtleneck is... Charliecat, please tell us! Hope headaches are subsiding. That business with coming off the lozenges, though, that's the reason I prefer to go cold turkey, it seems easier to me to get rid of the habit and the addiction at the same time (tell me if I overdo the bold thing!)
Anyway, keep not smoking everyone, I've not smoked 492 cigarettes and saved over £100!

Ahhh..Turtleneck is where you have the urge to sort of roll and stretch your head and look up and down and scrunch your shoulders up to your ears....and in a very extreme case you have to open your mouth wide and chomp...I think its something to do with destressing all the muscles that have tensed up as we are not sitting relaxed in puffs of smoke...LOL

Well I am doing ok on one hand and feel I am going utterly insane on the other.
Sometimes I think Hmmm not that bad, but most of the time I cant forget im not smoking, and rarely get peace from the thought.
And last night I opened the back door and there was a huge dogend on the ledge. A voice in my head screamed at the sight of it, in a "theres the enemy" sort of way and my rational self had to say its ok, if you dont touch it you wont smoke it and youll be fine!!!!!!!!
Funny if it wasnt so deadly serious.

I have tears prickling in my eyes regularly, nut then I grin and think its ok...you havenbt had a fag for over a month...I think im grieving for my addiction or something....the only good thing is, throughout all my madness I am confident that I will not be smoking again and that this is it. I am not going to reset my counter and this time theres not a trick I will fall for ive been there done it and theres no way im gonna accidently find myself smoking and regret it as as im sitting there.......LONG POST SORRY!

Cc, poor you. Yes I feel emotional and quite on edge too. I shouted at poor little dd on the train to my mums when she wouldn't sleep. I was just so desperate for some peace and quiet for my throbbing head and tense nerves and 'turtle neck' . I'm finding I still think about smoking a lot too. It drives me crazy sometimes. I feel like my brain is itching for a smoke.

Mammya as you went cold turkey (or should we rename that cold turtle?!) like me, did you have headaches etc. that the lozenge-suckers didn't? I've got a feeling I've already asked you this ...

I'm going to start manually adding up how many cigs I've not had as I can't get a counter that works. So I reckon now it's 70 cigarettes which makes £20 or so. Doesn't seem a lot for all this pain does it?

If you give me your details PF of when you stopped I will do one for you and let you know when you need to know!

PN that would be

OMG..Hmmm cant seem to get anything going myself ...what is this about? Any use? Ive just accidently put this on the old thread..

Hey cc, thanks. I'll try to open that meter at home cos I'm on work email today and it's a PC here. Maybe I should just do one here anyway ...

I'll try that and let you know!

Hi everyone. Sorry not been in touch much this week. Have been busy running around, and yesterday, cleaning my carpets (halo icon). Thank god we only have them upstairs!

Anyway, I have now stopped smoking for oh, god where's my counter gone. Its disappeared. Anyway, will get it back in a min, but around 7 days 6 hours, and went for my weekly check in at the parmacist today. Well, what a revelation! Last week she took my carbon monoxide reading and the level was 30, today 3! Apparently the band for non-smokers is 1-5, and mine was 3! I dont want to go on about it, but I just thought in case you guys hadn't had this test, you now know that by non smoking your carbon monoxide levels will be that low as well. I just think its nice to see a result like that to spur people on.

Hope you are all doing ok. I am going to come back later to update myself on the thread as am on way to kiddy party (another wild glamorous Friday night in store, actually probably will be wild, but not glam), and hope to chat more later.

Thanks guys for being there.