I'm pissed and in troub;e

[PhoenixSoaring]

oh dear

Hi phoenix glad you are around this morning

Phoenix, you didn't make a fool of yourself and of course you can come back to MN. Truly, many of us on here (me for example) know all too well what alcohol can do - people under its influence are drugged and not themselves - they need help and sympathy, not blame, for it is a powerful drug which does temporarily alter your personality. I can't bear to remember some of the things I did when drunk but one mstn't be too hard on oneself.

You can get past it and move on to a good life, but alcohol has to go out of your life, with help. There are lots of us on here who have had or who are still struggling with it, and we do understand.

PS..... Remember, you are human. Live just one day at a time to overcome any difficulties (or half a day). Every small task can be a painful chore sometimes but look how well you are doing and when you look at how many days (or half days) there actually are in three months you are doing FANTASTIC

Phoenix - blimey what a night eh?

don't be scared to come back and talk, i'm sure we've all done things we are about (ive done plenty!)

add me to your msn ([email protected]) if you want to talk.

today is a new day. one night on the booze after three months sober is bloody good imo, you should be proud that you have come this far not ashamed. be good to you ok?

I happen to know that PhoenixSaoring has a regular AA meeting on Sunday nights. I know you have been finding the meetings hard PS, but make sure you get yourself to it tonight, yes? Especially as you won't get to the one next Thursday.

Everyone here is right: this is not the end of the world, just a small failure and it is quite obvious to me, who knows you, why this happened when it did. Someone was expecting too much of you too soon I think. I am sorry for your dh, but he needs to know what happened to you last night and he needs to know that you are not ready to be on your own at night.

You know where I am PS. Call me or msn me. Don't be ashamed. I am here for you. DumbledoresGirl and PhoenixSoaring - what a team!

Hey no-one thinks you are a fool-we wouldn't be here otherwise would we??

You are human & fallible & yes you will fall by the wayside from time to time. We all do in our own ways, but (& this is the difficult bit ) we have to drag ourselves back to the fight & learn from what went wrong/what triggered a fall & keep on fighting!

Lots of arms to catch you when you stumble, both here & in RL it sounds like, don't be afraid to call on others.

Good luck x

Phoenix Soaring

I haven't got a bloody clue who you are so no need to be embarrassed. I am glad you got through last night. We are all here for you whenever you need us.

PhoenixSoaring yesterday is in the past now so leave it there and move on you have nothing to feel embarrased about we all have bad days Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. Start today as you mean to go on. alittle quote for you:

?Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.?

glad your ok and hope our comments have helped you

Like that quote LittleMiss!

PS, please don't feel ashamed, it only fuels a viscious circle and won't be any good to you. You have so much support here, please don't sever that tie. Please try and get to that meeting tonight and take Dumbledore's as well as other offers of support. Relapse is part of recovery and you are amongst people here who care about you.

Thank you everyone for your kind words of support.

I do feel embarrassed. Because when drunk I let down my guard and openly admitted the fears I have. Today I need to face those fears and it is a lot harder to do that sober.

I am also ashamed that after 3+ months of 'treatment' I am no further on in my recovery. I still got drunk, I still have regular suicidal thoughts and I still want to run away from life.

Now I dont know how to cope with all that. The temptation to drink again is huge. But I shall force myself to go to my AA meeting tonight. And hang my head in shame.

do you have someone to go with you?

You ARE brave Phoenix & yes it WILL be hard but don't be ashamed...it is time to be as positive as you can & take a deep breath & continue onwards & upwards.

Good luck for tonight x

count your smiles instead of your tears, count your courage instead of your fears.

phoenix you dont know how brave you are. It would have been easier for you to have not posted last night, but I think you wanted to admit that you had done it.

Head up and be brave.

PS Only just saw your thread and can well imagine how bitterly disappointed you are.
I truly believe that our prayers have worked to prevent worse, if it is any comfort. I certainly prayed for you when you asked me, even if I was not around at the time you were in crisis.
Hope to hear from you soon.
Remember the words of St Paul: "When I am weak, then I am strong" No time to find chapter and verse.

How's your week going phoenix?

thank you for thinking of me. I have been away for a few days with my family. I have drank every night - although not to exccess. My biggest worry now is that I think my relationship with alcohol has changed. I seem to have developed an even stronger urge to get drunk at every opportunity. And the even more worrying thing is that when I am drunk I become very suicidal. (In the past I drank to block out the suicidal feelings - now it just exacerbates them)