I'm pissed and in troub;e

[PhoenixSoaring]

oh dear

bit lost mag what do you mean?

We can talk you though this- PS,

you have done 3 months thats' great...

tonight is just a blip it seems more as it's so late & you're tired.

I am goping now
thanks eveyone

ok phoenix make sure you get some sleep ill be here for a while if you want to come back

Night Phoenix - don't forget that glass of water!!

(((hugs))))

OK falling off the wagon you ARE going to wake up feeling very shitty. That why god invented mumsnet. there are so many people in the same boat as you you wouldn't believe. (not that this helps) I found the best way of approatching the 'failing' thing was to take a big breath, step back ( lot harder than you think). nine times out of ten I had blown things all things out of proportion. I refused all Help at the time and god I wish I had taken it now! I ended up in hospital when all I needed to to do was to talk to some one. Please you can get help

good nght

Amy, should preview before I send. Just have an affinity here with Brassmonkey when browsing a few threads. I've gone on the (G&T Education) and maybe said something that was a bit crass when I've had a couple of drinks and worried about the reaction. That's all. No reaction thank god but hope as a regular mums.net poster will have a better understanding of the system and try to offer good advise. I'm really concerned about the OP. Ps thanks for taking notice

have got myself in trouble here because of one to many myself was confuddled by your postif there is any early worms here please check on phoenix

Amy, confused! You will be! I'm not clear in my posts but dont have any prior knowledge just been on Mums.net a few weeks. I love it and am a bit addicted. I've just browsed before this. How do you feel about the Rugby| Do England ever win| I hope that Phoenix has got a little bit of comfort from us tonight.

Good night Phoenix. you know where we all are should you want to pop back in and talk. OR wher we will be in the morning, if ou want to talk about it then.

take care lovely and night night.

ok... i wont be here later i'm afraid. dd up and very upset with teeth. please take care

Madgda wrong thread to discuss rugb y folow me over to the "come on England" thread if you want to chat!!

yes seperate threads for seperate issues,this is a bit too sensitive a thread to hijack but your new so dont worry about it!

Bossy, Sorry I'm a footie fan myself but still. Corr for Jonny Wilkinson & co the lads did good. Maybe net time!

Again will aplogise. I hope phoenix is ok. Dont mean to be insistive. So what thread are you know on?

No worries Magda

This one!!

Hi Mag. I don't know what the best thing to do is when someone is feeling suicidal. The last time I relapsed I wanted to kill myself too, but it was the drink talking, not the real me. During that time I was desperate for company - not necessarily people giving me reasons to live, or telling me to stop drinking, but just someone, anyone to talk to me.

I'm not sure if that's just me though, so I'm worried that I've said and done the wrong things tonight. I hope PS posts in the morning to let us all know she is ok.

With regards to speaking out of turn on here whilst under the influence - I was a serial name-changer up until I started recovery. I was just a pratt most of the time, but there were occasions when I posted to to be nasty deliberately. It didn't make me feel good about myself the next day. The last few times I've relapsed I've avoided communicating with anyone at all, as the shame and humiliation the next day is dreadful.

Thank you BM and others for your concern. Sorry for being a PITA and worrying everyone.

I had a call from the ambulance servie during the night (picked up message this morning) and then a visit from the Police very early this morning. (They had tracked me down from knowing the area I live and having an unusual name)

I feel suitably ashamed and embarrassed and very hungover - or am I still drunk? I dont know

I am sorry that I relapsed and came on mn and made such a fool of myself again. But I thank you all very much for trying to help.

I am not sure I can come back to mn after this. I am just too ashamed,

Do come back if you need to. Don't feel ashamed. There's a new day ahead.
(Sorry, none of my business, I know, but I happen to be online right now. I know there are plenty of others on mn who would love you to stay, and who would offer you some great support.)

I think you should tell your dh what happened
he needs to know that you are not ready to be left alone just yet

Hope things are on the up for you

Hi Pheonix glad to hear you're okay now! Don't feel ashamed it was only one night.

hey are you ok
i can join you in the hungover/maybe still drunk dept
shit happens
today a new day and it will seem better when you lose the hangover
so you slipped up and got drunk - no big deal
dont beat yourself up about it
so you feel like a twat, again so what
i hope you are ok

remember, you name-changed for a good reason - PS, you are still soaring! You can and you are, one night doesn't matter a bit.

Hi Phoneix,

Just really glad you are ok love.

Its ok you know, nothing to feel ashamed of or embarrassed. No one gives a flying forget-me-not. We are all just glad to know you are ok.

You have so much support her you know. Ind i realise it was mainly the drink talking. Something must have triggered it, so if you do want to talk, at all, you know where to come, ok?

Maybe go and have a long hot bath, lots of bubbles and enjoy the couple of hours to yourself before your house is full again