nicotime is a monster that will die if don't feed it!

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Hi Folks - this thread continues from a v long previous thread... a few of us are desperately trying to kick the evil weed and will do it this time! A new thread, a new start! Let's help and support each other, splurge out those frustrations here.

Personally I feel like if I don't do it this time I am gonna take charliecat' suggestion and knock myself out with a hammer.

Come on girls - we know it' crap, and we feel so awful sneaking back in and our kids being near us and having honkng breath (us, that is...)
Let's do it this time, am am committed to this...

Oh yes and we did the hill and a long straight which usually takes us 20 mins in 5 mins

Same again today, we missed the bus by 15 seconds. I am here, nicotine nearly out of my system if it halfs in an hour and is 75% gone in oh whatever the wffle is....and I was pondering that earlier, if the nicotine does left the system so quickly, why 3 weeks later were we/are we face pulling speechless tensed up messes?
Is that REALLY self induced? Mind over matter?
God knows.
HS is going to devour A.C over the weekend she tells me...wheres the rest of the crew?

Have managed to send an invite to you MM for the fabulous Gmail account where you have so much space you will never need to delete and email again...and it keeps all your emails in order so you can see who wrote what when etc etc fab great neh neh neh, they should all be like that. have a look you neednt even use it if you dont want to, but I bet you will!!!
Fg im having to send invite Via HS coz my links not working so I will mail her now and when shes got 5 mins she will do yours ok?

Hmm asides that having a theraputic listen to The Cristians Colour Album from about a zillion years ago. Always boosts me and my morale. Barely a fag thought touched my brain and long may it continue. Hoping to achieve that frame of mind where when you think about a fag an Allen Carr Nuggett jumps into your head for you to give you a reason why you shouldnt...at the moment I have to select and pluck then from my brain myself LOL!

Oh yes and isnt the first sign of madness talking to yourself???

Yes Charliecat it is, go see a doctor LMAO

Right no laughing now, having a gum tingling skin prickling moment and STILL noones popped in to say hello....going to brush my teeth and and and and erm dunno do something till it goes.

Aha, ive just had my first dose of yucky nail biting stuff and as I sucked on my tongue I realised id seen this you want to do something: distract with something disgusting technique used elsewhere...heres the laugh...it was a programme about flashing, as in men in long black coats!!!!
The man in question was quite young and had lost his girlfriend and kids due to the fact he could not get over the urge to flash.
So some super therapist came in with a bottle of decaying flesh scent??!! and he had to sniff at it whenever he felt the urge to flash came to him(no laugh intended) and the idea was, to change the way his brain thought, instead of getting excited at the thought of flashing, eventually he would feel repulsed, as the smell of decaying flesh would ALSO come to him when he thought of it. And the smell was so bad he was violently sick/or was trying not to be BTW.
Must say the yucky stuff certainly distracted me, and then I remembered...so now I will suck my tongue and just keep saying fags smoking etc etc while tasting this foul taste...
Well after all my talking to myself I just KNOW your all gonna tyhink im mad now...but if it keeps me off the fags its worth it

Make sure you just go and brush your teeth cc and not hunt for those evil dog-ends!!!!

glad to hear you're feeling freshish in the lungs. i'm surprised that hill didn't kill you, it would have killed me

will do all the gmail stuff maybe tonight...

maybe you should make sure you do miss the bus every few days, then you will be forced to remember how good it feels to have the air rushing through your body? i'm not taking the p*ss, i know what it's like to put off exercise and i think exercise is so important when you're giving up as it reminds you of what your body should be. if you do it this way, it won't seem like exercise at all! wish i had the time...

it's terrible isn't it about the drug leaving your body then only to return and slap you in the face with a mega psychological craving. MIND OVER MATTER CC!!!!!!!

fg, hope you have a good night with your loved one and a good weekend of work! just think how much faster and therefore how much more you can write if you're not fagging for 10min at a time you'll have it done by xmas!

they do that conditioning thing with heroin addicts in thailand you know! they give them some vile tasting liquid to down and then they puke loads!! then they associate vomiting with heroin and eventually are cured. BIG summary of a programme i watched years ago which is probably incorrect

off to spend time with sis so that she doesn't feel like a skivvy nanny!!! will check tho, in case you need the chat cc!

Thank You MM, im sure your sister is loving having the babys to herself!
I am nearly off out now to go and get Tanya, my life is a constant big walk MM, the bus in the morning is a pure pointless luxury, literally to get us from the bottom of the hill to the top. Everyone calls it the Hill from Hell though. Its one of those Engage Low Gear for HGV ones... Have a nice day....glad to here my mad idea might work...!!!

Thanks for sending invite thingie cc, think it might be coming through now - just back from ikea, one hour to work before kids pick up...

FORGIVE ME GIRLS BUT I SMOKED THAT FAG AND HAD MORE OF J'S WHEN HE GOT HOME!!!

I identify with everyhting you say cc about making it hard for yourself etc... so sorry folks, what a dingbat filthy lunged twat I am... am gonna have to face it that I'll have the odd ciggie this weekened while I'm away, just cannot face being awarded such a massive treat as 2 days in a hotel & being unable to concentrate on writing & being all vague & fuzzy...

Mum arrives on Mon and that is my new start date. It's easier with her around cos she helps loads, chats like a maniac (thus keeping my mind off fags) and I feel such a nit going out the back to puff while she's here. Next weekend am taking kids to whitby with 2 lovely pals from london - we do it each year, meet half way - just (non smoking) women & seven kids!! It'll be lovely.

Will miss you folks! And will check in on Monday FAG FREE - have a great weekend xxxxxx

OMG have a good weekend Fiona...I refocus and you fall back in the ashtray...swings n roundabouts and all that. my mind is telling me to go and see if Sams in next door to tap a fag off of. Fighting it, did well to get this far I feel as I really did hit the bottom of the pan the other day...all through having 1 i must remind myself...
MM hope you can forgive us flapping failures, though I am Back On track at the mo...

NOOOO!!! don't leave me on my non-smoking lonesome!! I could have killed a fag this afternoon, had 1 hr without kids with just my sister whilst dh babysat and whilst waiting for bus with coffee in hand, saw a lady walking up after work with a freshly lit ciggie. am now craving having read your posts but i realise that this has been my downfall and that it's all psychological!

CC, hope you didn't manage to swipe one off your neighbour, if you did, kick that arse into gear woman, you did a good turnaround today, turn right back!!

Fg, have a good weekend and enjoy your 'free' time without kids and cooking! Don't enjoy those fags tho

see you guys later...please tell me someone else out there is suffering from not having one!!!!!

There is no suffering form not having one...look at the fine mess me and FG have got ourselfs into, I am lthered in oils and feeling gooooodddd....after a bath..having fun reading all of these

MM going to bed...back tommorow am feeling excellent...there is no pleasure, there really isnt, it IS all an illusion.

Picky I know, but please start a new thread where you spell nicotine correctly in the title

Will do! Monday I expect when the whole lot of us will be here rattling and raving..Hows u MM?

I'm fine CC, checked in earlier when i had 2 mins but no-one was around! Then went ot brighton to drop sis off at her new house she's sharing with friends.

So, been busy and hardly a chance to think about you know what except maybe 5 times!!!

not craving now and i've had something to eat, so that's good news. how are you all anyway? is everyone just busy cos of the weekend?

oh and i'm on gmail now...same name as my yahoo.

Yep tired, is FG not off to her hotel this weekend with her 60 fags and her laptop. HS will be back on Monday and ive been here but didnt want to post manically to myself like I did the other day
Glad you had a crave free day, wish I could say the same myself, have had a few joints and I KNOW KNOW KNOW I am just fueling my nicotine monster. I am not cutting myself up about it. I am gonna start afresh monday.
Sorry MM I know how fucking crap it is knowing you and FG were failing and I was succeding (but struggling) But I promise you you are doing way way way better than us and we are not actually enjoying any of these smokes.
As it is with this poxy addiction they are only precious when you cant have them.

Can I join this thread?? Have been on/off fags for a VERY long time. Smoked during first preg (very healthy baby). Stopped during second preg (also healthy baby but smaller than first...?). Am now back on fags AND am breastfeeding. HELP ME!! Keep stopping and starting. Throw packs of tobacco out in bin every night and promise myself that following day I WON'T SMOKE ha ha ha ha. Go straight to shop in the morning and tell myself that day after will be a better day to stop. Sound familiar??! Eight year old son keeps asking me whether I want to live long enough to see him grow up. Aaaargh! xx

I had been buying/throwing fags in the bin for ages before i joined this thread and whilst it has happened a few times since we all started, friends here have helped me to realise that what i do want to do is stop and get a hold of the situation! it ain't easy, but at least we are all trying and that is the very best you can do lipsty. Welcome!

Bed now everyone, dh has collapsed whilst putting ds1 to bed and i'm all lonely so will shower and read. See you all tomorrow!

p.s. how old's the little one?

She's 3.5 months. Have just had a rollup and feel ill with it! Will stick with the link. Speak later.