Dependent Drinkers and Alcoholics (recovering or active) Support Thread

[BrassicMonkey]

The last thread will close soon, but I want this one to be about everybody, not just me. So Hidesit, Earlgrey, SoSo and anyone else that needs support please post and keep me company.

I've lapsed again tonight, which is a shame as I hoped I'd be able to start this off on a postive note.

Link to the last thread.

LOL! I've only come across it in people who are "old-timers", maybe it's like earning your stripes . I only became aware of "deaf x" because my friend sent an email to someone and copied me in by mistake. I guess it was just easier, as most people had heard what had happened to me!

I'm having tasks set for me by my new sponsor. I sometimes think to myself "but I know all this", and then I come across something that I totally missed the first time and I realise that I'll always be learning in the fellowship. Amazing the way it works.

Yeah, I suppose it's a form of affection really, and considering that we don't usually know each others surnames, it's the obvious way to clarify who you're speaking about. I just hope that when I'm an old timer they come up with something pleasant for me

Hi Ladies, having a good day today. Both kids at school this am so visited a friend, DH working away so am on own with them tonight after swimming lessons. Feel OK today, am off for a shower andam making a big chilli for tea with all the nachos, guacamole etc etc. Have no wine in house and once kids in bed I cant go out to get any can I?. Dont have the 'urge' though. Kids crawling all over me at the moment so will drop in again later when I can hear myself think. X

HI BM and Kokeshi- they do the name thing in Newcastle area too- it is quite funny.

Hope your meeting goes well tonight Kokeshi.
Bloody hell, £8 congestion charge!
Am shocked!

Monkeybutler, glad you're having a good day.

Teasle are you a native Geordie then? Do you have the accent. I looooooooove it. Why Aye man woman man. (Late-H was a Geordie and he cracked me up with some of the things he came out with. I used to get him to say "toast" over and over again: "tooooooeweeist". PMSL.

Yes I know, love the accent too. No I'm not Geordie born, moved here about 13 years ago.
Have a mild accent now I suppose. Come from North Nottinghamshire originally- aayup duck and all that.

Kids are more Geordie, obviously, as born up here. Canny good and suchlike !

An bless, it's like they're singing. did you know that they Sydney HArbour Bridge was based on the design of the Tyne Bridge?

Why aye man

Grrrr, this bloody weather. The battery in my car is flat and DP has the portable charger with the campervan. Can't get to the meeting tonight. Oh well. You'll just all have to come here and have a meeting with me .

Right...ding-a-ling-a-ling-a-ling.

Ahem...'hello I'm Teasle , I'm an alcoholic...'

Do they ring a bell up there then?
Actually, I think they do here too, to get all the smokers in. Sorry you can't get out. Had a great meeting in Toon today.

I'm off to a friends house now, see you later. Hope people post tonight!

Some meetings they do yes, I think for the same reasons. I went to a meeting once where they banged a gavel. Give quite a few guilty looking folk a fright! May walk along to Asda, we're running out of essentials. Enjoy your night teasle

I rang AA for 'help'

Ok PurpleOne, spill the beans. How did you get on?

Hi Purple are you there?. What happened with AA?. My dcs appoinment is cancelled as he off sick so I need to rebook. Hope I dont lose the incentive. Please let us know how you are.....

My new mentor just called me!

She's picking me up 7.15 Friday

Oooh fabulous, well done you!!! Did you find what they said on the phone useful to you? You must keep posting and telling us how you're getting on.

Now we just have to sort you out monkeybutler . Would have thought it? Our own wee MN AA group.

The first guy I spoke to on the helpline number was fabulous, we chatted for ages.

My mentor sounds great too, however she is scottish and had a job understanding her on the phone. She sounds like a top lass though!
However when I told her I could drink 3 liters of white lightning and still be standing....i think she nearly fell over in shock.
Then i told her about my furniture assaulting me....well me being a numbnuts walk into everything when pissed, I usually scrath myself, stub toes, fall over and bruise myself. I fell up the stairs one night outside and took huge chunks out of my fingers (

In all truth though, I'm not sure how I'm feeling about Friday. Scared maybe. Not sure what to expect. I dont want to stand up in front of everyone else and asmit I'm an alcoholic...cos I don't think I am? Alcohol abuser yes, binge drinker yes...
I just don't know how to 'feel'?

Hi Purpleone

You don't have to say anything. You're not expected to, don't worry. You can just sit and listen. Its pretty much what I do to be honest. Just go to a few meetings, see what you think. I was a bit worried at first that people would go on about god, but whilst some people have faith, many don't, and its not about that anyway- thats just one thing that worried me a bit.
Well done, glad you had a good talk to someone!

hi teasle

readin about their 12 steps online it did worry me a little. i am a pagan and the god thing did worry me....but at the end of the day, yeah faith does matter, your god and goddess is what matters, not everyone elses! I have a lot of faith in my own beliefs, but not everyone elses. sorry if that sounds disrespectful, but its the truth.

i'm glad it's not all about god. im just really worried about how to 'define myself'.

i don't stink of piss, drinking whsikey out of a brown paper bag....although i have major issues with getting out of bed in the morning for my DDs.
i wouldn't really call my self an alcoholic, i dont need that 'sharpener' in the mornings....but i guess deep down, it's not really about that is it? I just know that I have a problem.

What started off as self medicating with cannabis on the weekend with a couple glasses of wine,...has now turned into this mess? drinking every night, no respite, no support in RL...i hate it, and what i've become?

knock knock...can I come back in?

I've not been completely absent rather have been lurking, but this last week I've been with family. My mum is in the end stages of lung cancer, so i went to stay for a bit to spend some time with her. It's all been quite harrowing, and I've been hitting the wine a little hard

some of what has been written recently has struck such a chord with me and am again thinking that I need outside help with this as I can't regualte my drinking by myself. I know my DH is starting to get resentful as there is only so many times he can hear "one last bottle of wine and then I'll stop tomorrow" but, he isn't here in the week so he doesn't know the real extent of it.

I really have to go as I've been up since 4am, and have taken 7.5 hours to drive 250 miles with a whingy baby and a mewling cat, so am feeling a bit frazzled and ever so slightly jaded (still managed half a bottle of wine though, and am seriously considereing having a beer even thoguh i shouldn't drink it as I have coeliac disease...so off to bed before I do something rash)

hi to all the names I know, and to those I don't know as well. kokeshi....your posts are truly inspiring

I'll be back tomorrow, I promise.

purpleone, some of what you have posted rings true with me as well. I'm trying to pluck up the courage to talk to someone about my drinking...you've given me some food for thought!

and well done for making that contact

Hi Calalilley, nice to see you.

Purpleone- you already have your own faith/belief- therefore the god and goddess will be your 'higher power', probably. Your higher power can be anything, apparently. I did worry initially, but it was needless. I'm still very new so I don't quite get that yet, but I'm not worried about it. There is a 12 step thing for agnostics- if you google 'AA freethinkers'- I have never tried to do a link, sorry-, and you may find the wording there a little less intimidating- I did anyway.

You don't have to define yourself. The only thing you really need to be an AA member is the desire to stop drinking, which you have acknowledged yourself.
Honest, you'll see. Just give it a go.

(I don't stink of piss either!)