desperate fag quitter! Anyone similar, fancy mutual support group?!

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To my shame it's about my 167th attempt to quit fags... anyone out there trying the same who would like to start a support thingie here where we can rant and vent our frustrations and praise each other? I'm starting tomorrow...

first the postbox, then the huts - so much vandalism, what's the world coming?!

Feel so much better for sharing all this today, you're right mink, the rest of the fags Ilve had have been vile, I now a hurty chest now and dire-ear! sorry - too much information...

looking forward to joining you girls tomorrow in a new improved frame of mind
f xxx ps I look a lot more ravanged in the flesh, cc! 40 this year. (shudder)

Feel free to give me a virtual punch guys but this kept me going one day, cant remember which one, probably the first...If todays not a good day to quit, what makes you think tommorow will be.
FG I know, the post box is not too unexpected as I live in one of 2 council house estates, that I read in a history book were placed conviently out of sight from the rest of the town LMAO but the huts in a grammar school?? Just didnt fit..oh and there was graffiti everywhere, tasteless crap stuff not artistic, well that is rather stunning stuff.
Poor Minks been so traumatised by the Allen Carr CD rom she hasnt came back!

I'm so far from being cured CC, this evening went to Sainsbury's to get a couple of avocados and went ot quickly pay for them at the kiosk. There was a little queue and all the time I stared at the packets and they said 'JUST ONE, JUST ONE!' the evil boxes just shone at me and I began to salivate. Thankfully, the queue was long enough for me to go through a mini debate in my head (not out loud I hope) and i thought 'imagine the smell on you when you get home, you'll be rumbled!' and 'no! you can't do this to cc and fg!' i felt as though i was going to be unfaithful if i had the weeniest stick! (that's NOT what i think about you though fg )

Got to the counter to pay and breathed a sigh of relief that i had made it and danced off to my car . Oh, and I was alone so that played a big part.

CC I have a nose stud as well. not interesting but i thought you should know.

I was reading the thread on Tanya and did you realise that one of the mnetters who replied to you was Strangerthanfiction, the one who wasn't quite ready to join us (are you still there STF?)
Why is DD's chest congested, I don't understand, is it just something that can happen? Whilst DS1 doesn't have anything similar, he does have chronic eczema so I completely understand the trauma of watching your child being 'unhealthy' as it were. So always big hugs

fg, you're not ravaged at all it's really weird (in a nice way) to know what you look like! i didn't really have a picture but it's just strange to post to you today and know 'who' i'm posting to! i'll send you photos of me and the kids if you like...

and i haven't had a chance to visit AC yet because DH is kicking me off now

As an ex smoker I know how hard it can be but Dont give up...I have been clean for 2 and a half years,dont think i have more money or a healthier lifestyle but I smell nicer and feel proud that i was able succeed at one think..Keep your chins up xxxx

www.click2quit.co.uk Give it a try...

keep those quotes coming cc! You've come out with loads of good ones. Am quite inspired by you saying that you are feeling the best ever, it's something to aspire to!

got my feature done, got nice easy work tomorrow plus nice healthy earth mothery friend (one of those people who make you feel quite serene)coming for tea, so good influence there! should be a nice day.

mink how's your cravings these days? You sound quite serene yourself! hope you've had a good day. am gonna have early night so might not post till morning... night night xx

Hi guys!
You lot are great at encouraging each other I'm quite looking forward to stopping.
If you need those little Allan Carr quotes to help in a weak moment, there's a teeny weeny book of his main points, page for each item and it really does fit in your pocket. Last time I tried to stop, I had it in my bag and even got it out to read as I queued at the newsagent. I only bought a paper and no fags, so was dead chuffed.
You know how we all blame our irritability and bad mood on not smoking and reckon it would all be better with a fag? Well I've had a shitty day, big row with dh, tired due to a disturbed night and ds being a grump. Well I was still irritable even with the fags so will keep that in mind when I get to the end of Allan Carr.

Am off to the in-laws tommorrow for a long weekend so may or may not be able to pop in. If not hope the weekend is good for you all.

Cheers Ebbie! Had a peek at that site, far to mild for me, I need you WILL die and it really is of the uttermost importance that you stop to grip me. Which is why ive spent hours here !!!! You must feel brilliant after 2 and a half years, I hope I can stand in your shoes one day!
Hope your taking Allen with you Posey! In-laws or Allen...who will you choose??
Have a nice weekend too, hope we will all be on the straight and narrow then!
MM and FG...i have emailed you my family photo album.
I am sitting here chonking on my chewing gum madly, my non smoking for 2 years cousin came round earlier and my brain remembers us sitting with our coffees puffing away and her being here makes me fidgetty and tense.
AAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH, no desire to smoke but body is in tied in knots.

Dodgy link..www.whyquit.com how strange, mumsnet.com keeps magically apperaing in front of my url.
Oh and im off to Chessington tommorow with the kiddies and dp, I will definetly not be smoking as ive been to theme parks as a smoker and as a non smoker and its much better NOT smoking, hours in queues when you just want a fag, standing outside the kiddies rides trying to blow the smoke into a space and all of a sudden a parent glares at you as you are infesting thier childs air with your dreadful smelling cancerous filled smoke bla bla bla Ill be standing in the queue chuffed to bits with myself

LOL CC, I remember that smoking into space feeling as well! I also remember recently going into Sainsbury's to buy fags and the lady at the counter took one look at my kids and then me in a disapproving manner as if to say 'tsk, tsk, bad mother!' i felt the size of a pea and then got grumpy and went home and smoked anyway!! Great not to be that way anymore isn't it?

Hope you all have a great time tomorrow/this weekend - am I going to be alone all day?!!!! NOOOOOO!!!! Mum and dad are coming back tomorrow lunchtime till Friday and then they're off to Thailand for a holiday. Someone be around by tomorrow evening purleeeeseee

Ebbie thanks for the link, will check it out!

Posey welcome back - check in more often just for a chat!

fg, wish i had an earth mother too, don't you just love people like that? i tried to be one when i got pregnant with max, felt all serene due to non-smoking and having baby. bought all these organic lotions and potions, books on alternative health, using reusable nappies and drank lots of different teas instead of caffeine. Felt really good, hope to be in that place again one day! We all can!!

Will definetly be back 2moro night, if you have a mobile I will text you while im standing around in queues if you feel the need...im usually in all the time, except school runs, its just that dps off work and with 2 kids and 2 adults in our small house we need to get out at least once a day or we'd probably eat each other with boredom!
We are taking the kids to Chessington as we went to Alton Towers without them after winning tickets from Mumsnet, Guilty parents said we would take them somewhere similar throught the holidays.

AWWWWW...CC, they're so cute!! I especially like the one outside the castle!

You don't look like you ate all the pies at all, wait till you see Mrs 2kidsin2years

I'm going to try blueyonder to see if i can send some in one go cos i'm having diffuculty doing that at the mo.

fg - just read through some old posts and missed one of yours! Yes, my parents are from Thailand but my sis and i were born here. hence strange name...

Hope you get the photos sorted, love to see you all, photo bucket is free and apparently easy too. Going to bed to watch Sex in the city, shes was giving up smoking last episode and she slapped on a patch at the end of the episode, it was inspiring!

Had problems with blue yonder so went ot good old yahoo. realised that there are actually no pictures of me, so DH will upload them tomorrow!

Have a good sleep, night night!

Morning everyone, good luck for today Fiona xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Mink what do you have in your nose today? I have a dolphin!
Im so tired I could crawl back into bed but we all need bathed and fed so Im going to have to get my finger out and get on with it...oh I was reading Babyface till 10 to 2 this morning, which is why im so tired...not finished yet, laughing out loud at some of it! There was someone in it that reminded me of your neighbour Fiona....???
I think dps getting jealous or something of my non smokingness/you lot.
He went out for a fag at half twelve last night so I jumped out of bed to quickly see if anyone else had left anymore posts and he went "FFS just start smoking again"(has been relativly supportive till this comment) and I was looking at him right in the eye...and I said "Why" he said your getting a bit obsessed with checking to see if anyones had a fag...I said it gots nothing to do with seeing if anyones had a fag im seeing if someones got some photos together or not....and anyway, your going upstairs to choke yourself to death, im not interrpting you, whats your problem? He still had the cheek to keep going on a bit, about nothing in particular that would make anysense about his outburst but Im afraid to say I just thought you sad sad loser.
IMAGINE WISHING THE MOTHER OF YOUR CHILDREN WAS KILLING THEMSELVES. What a sick fucker and I hope he reads that.
I have only just realised the above, going to get bathed now and dwell on it.
I also think he must smell the success this time...and as a stinking smoker it must be quite sikening to see someone so joyful and free

photos are lovely cc! So nice to put a face to the voice - or at least the typing! A real live person now! Your girls are so cute & gorgeous. How organised to have them all on this yahoo thingie! Must send you some of us lot...

Poor cc, sounds like dh is feeling a bit miffed, left out or jealous maybe - my dh too, I was on the phone to him when I cracked yesterday, lamenting and saying what'll I tell cc and mm - he said FFS - it's only a support thing, just pretend you've still stopped. I find myself quickly pulling up another document if he comes in my workroom (where the pc is) when I'm on m'net. dh smoking mnore than ever. he crammed in three on back step at 7.30 this morning, one straight after another.

I do think (as someone said before on here) that smokers feel uncomfortable when people close to them stop.

mm am v v proud of your for getting through your wobbly moment at the supermarket! If only other people could hear our manic thoughts... imagine this little voice babbling on in the queue: you want one, go on, just one, won't do any harm, no no, I can't, don't do it, need one, they're vile etc etc - no wonder you dnaced out to the car! I do think there's a lovely moment when you've overcome a bad craving & managed to stay strong, and you feel the craving ebbing away. (not that I can talk about resisting! bad, bad mother...)

After yesterday's foul behaviour I have a tight chest, and it hurts every time I inhale - but woke up at 7 this morning feeling so so much better with a firm resolve: I AM FIONA AND I AM A NON SMOKER. Have had none and will have none.

know what you mean about getting out cc - we have to leave the house for a good bit of the day when everyone's home, othewise it gets shouty - chessington sounds fun, we stopped for for day at blackpool pleasure beach on way home from devon & had a fantastic time, am totally converted to fairgrounds! It's only 2 hours from where we are in scotland - it's towdy & v stag & hen-partyish but a real laff, a real 'good mood' sort of place. We wanna take the kids there again in autumn as a surprise.

Thanks ebbie, will have a look, & look forward to you joining us posey!

better get on with some work...
Hope all goes well with parental visit mm, avert your eyes from your mum's fags...
love f xxx

Quick one for now - am popping out to town. Parents have not arrived yet probably get here around 3ish so if you don't hear from me it'll be a good thing as it'll mean i'm not succumbing. oh yeah, forgot you lot were out today!!

hope you had lovely day at chessington cc, bet the girls loved it! & hope all's well with you & your parents mm... not craving I hope...

when we were at blackpool pelasure beach I had to keep sneaking off for fags & felt so lowly & horrible. Like you say cc lovely to enjoy a day and not be craving and wanting all the time.

am feeling fine, bit sticky eyed and too aware of my gums but that's normal isn't it. Am gonna go for a run later, unless it's raining - weather has been appalling. rainrainrain for what feels like weeks. speak later tonight girls xxx

i don't know how heavy the rain is there fg, but when it wasn't actually too cold, i used to enjoy running in the rain because it cooled you down and kept you going for longer. of course you have to mind that you don't get pneumonia!

how was your day at your earth mother's? have you been yet?

I went to Blackpool when i was 8 and have been looking forward to taking hte kids there one day. what a laff. great place for photos because there's so much going on in the background! i think of it as the las vegas of england bar the gambling as from what i can remember it can be quite tacky can't it? (not from my memory as an 8yr old, i wasn't so snooty then just remember from watching holiday programmes) have you guys been to centerparcs? is it as good as all say or is it just a hol for the kids? do you get any kind of rest as an adult?!!!!

Silly question.

mum and dad still not here yet.

Hello folks, had a fab day and we didnt get rain! No fags either. Dragged the poor wussy children on all sorts of rides that they didnt want to go on but they enjoyed them once we were of!!!
Got my oil this morning, thank you! Was expecting a teeny weeny bottle....its HUGE.
Dp has been smoking more since I stopped, one day he didnt seem to have a moment when he didnt have one in his hand or in his mouth.
Mentioned this morning that he wouldnt tell any one else to have a fag if they had stopped smoking so could he kindly not say it to me. Didnt get a sorry, just i knew you were in a mood....well wouldnt you be?
I guess your parents have arrived MM, are they supportive at your stopping?
And well dont Fiona, thats the mood to wake up in, your doing better than me, cold turkeying, I cryed nonstop when I tryed that lark.
Will be back later need to attend to dps foot, big blisters from today.
xxxxx

Why has DP got blisters, what has he been doing on those rides?!! Don't you find it maddening when DPs/DHs end conversations with 'i knew you were in a mood'? like they don't have them!!! i'm sorry he's not as supportive to you as he should be, you're doing a brave thing giving up. the easy option is to just carry on but your big heart has spurred you on to do the right thing! my parents don't really say anything. they know it's best but tbh, i don't think my mum cares too much whether i do or don't. my dad probably does, he's far more concerned about the badness of it all since he's the only one who's ever bothered to give up. they don't say anything about it. i thought they would, but oh well. dh is v. good but he's a non-smoker so that's a diff thing altogether.

Glad you got the oils today, i was wondering whether they'd get there! good they're not smashed.

Also glad you had a great day, you must all be knackered. I'm off now to have a romantic dinner with hubby, he's in the mood...

p.s. i always wear the same nose stud, it's a tiny diamond stud that dh gave me for my wedding present!

Hmmm, nice to be sitting in front of the pc it is...shame the kids arent in bed and im half-way through yesterdays dishes lol! They are having a nice relaxing soak..you know I actually just typed smoke instead of soak...OMG!
Dps feet were blistered, more like skins rubbed off x 100 yesterday in a pair of trainers and all the hiking today rubbed it to high hell and it looks agony.
Havent been to Centre Parcs by the way, have looked at the website though i think!
Hope you have a nice meal with hubby, I hope you dont want a fag after you know what lol! The meal you know!
I have a variety of nose studs, the dolphin one is huge, but as they always seem to end up in the hoover I thought I would wear it until I lost it and I havent lost it yet...probably coz its so big.
Are you off out running Fiona? Must be quite nice actully, running away from the smoking demons!
Tommorow you will wake up without the gunky throat and KNOW youve made the right decision!
Must dash, bidding for a pair of boots on ebay for my sister.xx

Outbid!!!! by 3pence, she said go to 30 quid so I went to 30.00 and the other bidder got them for 30.03, I am going to watch the programme on 4 about the journo with parkinsons, I may or may not fall asleep so Im going to say Night Night just in case do. xx