i was bulimic for 12 years and it completely debilitated me. i lost my friends, i lost jobs, i lost some hair, i didnt graduate from my college, i spent half my time depressed from what i was doing, and the other half doing it. my life was food. (and by the way hellobello although the first time i did it i was thinking of how thin it may make me, my need for being thin had nothing to do with fashion or how others would see me, it was more about me trying to make myself feel something).
i thought getting pregnant and having kids would change me, but i was throwing up right through my second pregnancy. i would spend time with my wonderful dd1 and then start bingeing, and then just put her infront of the tv so she would be distracted as i ate and ate.
in the meanitme, my life seemed perfect. in love with my dh, dd1 and dd2 incredible babies, a job i love and dreamt of my whole life (and i managed to get it without my college degree), parents who fly in to help me with the kids once a month, and so on and so on, and the whole time, me, continuing to binge and throw up and ruin all the wonderful things being thrown my way.
after years of trying every kind of treatment, with absolutely not a day of success, with scars on my right hand from my teeth, i decided to try a last resort - NLP.
after my first session i didnt do any bigneing or purging for 10 days. 7 sessions later (about 5 months, since i gave birth in between and didnt go for a few months) i dont remember what its like to want to wolf down cakes and cookies and creamy things. i eat normally like a clock. when i feel i've eaten enough i put down my utensils (this being something i never thought i would be able to achieve. i had previously tried to get all sorts of clinical tests done to prove i had a mental physical inability to determine when i was full).
an ed starts for a certain reason. (or any number of many different reasons). but soon after it starts, we program ourselves to use this behaviour to deal. to deal with what bothers us a lot, to deal with what bothers us a little, to deal with bad things, then also with mildly bad things, then also with things in general, and eventually this become the only way we know how to behave. all you need to do to change that is 'rewire' the way you think so that any emotion we have does not lead us down the ed road any more. just need to erase that path from your brain.
and it works. and whats more, i am actually thinner now then during my ed, when i was just puffy and my weight would fluctuate. that happens when you eat normally on a daily basis.
if any of you are looking for something to try that will help you, in a minimal amount of time, change how you think and behave, please try nlp.