Alcoholics or Dependant Drinkers Club

[Rhubarb]

For SoftStuff, tyedye and anyone else who wants to join.

The rules are that you HAVE to sign in every night to let us know TRUTHFULLY how much you have drunk. You need to let us know your triggers too. So if you resisted for 12 hours but then cracked and had a beer - what finally snapped?

We'll be here to give you encouragement, support, advice and opinions.

Just to let you know i'm alive. I've not had a totally sober night since i've last been on so I felt I couldn't post. To get rid of my killer head I had a drink.. it worked though. I do want to change, really I do. I will sort it out but I just can't do it right now.

So glad you signed in Softstuff, I was worried about you, and I think others have been too. I think that the main thing is coming on here and feeling safe...look on it as a place to share how you feel and where you're at.

If giving up drink is too much for you to cope with at the moment, then please just share what you're going through. There are people who care and much more than that, empathise, with how you feel. Don't think you're alone, that's one of the worst places to be when you're vulnerable. I hope you keep coming back, and anyone else who feels the same xxx

Hi again souvenir,
It's great you have come this far already and I'm sure, like a lot of us on this thread you know alcohol and it's effects better than most!

Please CAT me if you want to have a chat, or ask me anything I don't want to take over this thread with my whole life story!

xxxx

kokeshi, I'd like to hear you story, honestly, it helps so much to not feel alone with this kind of thing.

Souvenir - You sound as though you are currently drinking about the same as I do. I work part time too and finish at 2.30pm in the afternoons. I get home at 3.30pm approx. Cook dinner, do chores etc, all with the thought that later I can allow myself to sit down with a tall, cool can of stella. Its what keeps me going through the day. I am actually dreading this weekend coz I know I shouldn't drink as I'm on antibiotics, but I just know in my heart that I will give in and have a shandy..... and that will progress to lager. Oh you know the story I'm sure

themoon, how long have you drunk around that much? Are you never tempted to drink in the day too? And have you worked out, roughly, how many units you have a week? I'm guessing it's about 2 for a pint and 1 for a half of lager?

I've kind of slipped into drinking the amount I drink, so I'm not really aware of exactly how long i've been doing it. Its sort of built up over time I guess. When DS was little I didnt drink at all coz I couldnt cope with the hangovers.

I was told that there are about 9 units in a bottle of white wine, and I drink 3 or 4 of them on a normal week. I can easily put away 3 to 4 cans of Stella of an evening when I'm not wine drinking.

I hold back from working out total units in a week - call it denial if you want. My brain just sort of shuts off. I know all the gory details coz I work in a mental health unit. The only thing I never-ever do is drive after drinking. That is why all my 'best' drinking is done at home. In an earlier post I said that when I go out I can drink tons, but then my mates have to bundle me into taxi to get home.

Interestingly, I'm never tempted to actually drink in the day time. I occasionally meet mates in Witherspoons of a Saturday afternoon for what we call 'an early doors session', but I get the most horrible migraine type headaches from drinking then. I never get headache or hangover when drinking at evening/nightime.

Gotta go now - I work part time till 2.30pm, so I'd better shut down computer and get off home. Good luck for tonight's drinking/not drinking etc.

Hello to everybody and welcome souvenier!
Im 2beers down already,X-DP is an arse and wreaking havoc with access arrangements again(and with CSA)Today is his weekend and the court is forcing us to help HIM with his access visits despite us having littlies and no money,he has no littlies and a proper posh job.
AND he is self employed AND he is in good health AND he fuels his car thru his business.LOSS OF THE PLOT TODAY!

I want to stop drinking beer in particular as i am 2 stone overweight.I look like shit with it too!i am unrecognisable even from just 5 years agoI am soooooooooooooooo hacked off,i must have been a REALLY bad person in a past life,blah blah

I am not drunk,not yet,my last post was suspiciously self-pitying though wasnt it!

Hi tyedye,
Glad you've signed in again...don't give yourself such a hard time, I can't imagine what it must be like to put up with all of that. Thinking of you.

Jxxxx

Thanks hun,will email you asap.xx

Sorry not to have been here for ages. I fell off the wagon last Friday as got very upset at work. Have had a drink or two every night since then although not enough to get drunk. Feel very sleazy now and in need of a detox next week!

Are you okay, dino?
I haven't been that good lately on the drink front either & only managed 2 nights without drink this week.

My idea of a detox means dont buy cider!!!!!!!!

Thanks for asking, blueteddy. I got myself into a ridiculously upset state last Friday at work (because I didn't get a payrise for the third year running). I know I overreacted, but it just seemed like the last straw and I felt like such a failure in life . DH, you'll be pleased to hear, was actually incredibly sweet to me and has promised to try and be better and not put me under such stress, because I was in a really bad way on the Saturday (and we went to Ikea, which was probably a bad move in the circs!).

Anyway, I'm feeling much better now but I have had at least one drink every single night since then.

lol@tyedye! hi guys, good to see you again. Don't worry, life gets in the way sometimes! Just pat yourselves on the pat for getting thru the crap you've been dealing with xx

BBL, just off to a bbq, I'm bringing salmon...never made it before like that, hope I don't poison anyone! xxx

Im off for now girls,softstuff,DONT BE A STRANGER SWEETIE!!!I will log back in when i canGOOD LUCK!!!!!
xxxxxxxxxx

Sorry to hear you were so down. You are far from a failure in life, but I know these things can really get you down, especially if you are dealing with other stress.
Glad to hear your DH was so supportive though.
I drank loads on Saturday & Sunday, nothing on Monday, but quite a few on Tuesday night after being observed at work!

Hi everybody,
i haven't been on this thread this week because I was so crap last week!! Totally blew out last weekend. This week I watched 'Turn back your bodyclock' and it did kind of inspire me into action. DH and I both looked at each other and said "NO MORE". How many times have we said that? Well, I haven't had a drink since Monday. BUT it's Friday and I just hope I can keep going. I wanted to ask you all, when you have stopped in the past, how long did it take before you started to feel withdrawal? like the headaches and shakes etc? because I have been feeling great, getting much more sleep as I am going to bed at 10 rather than staying up till midnight to finish the bottle! I hope you are all OK and good luck to you all for the dreaded weekend!

blueteddy, I hope the observation went okay? How did you feel about it?

well i have been crap

Hate being observed with a passion & I got so stressed that I went & lost a lot of my voice too!
It went okay though, as I have had the feedback & she thought it was a good orderly lesson!!

Thought it had gone wrong as I felt the noise level was too high, hence the drinks on the Tuesday night!