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[MaryAnnSingleton]

crikey !

Wonderful Ned , I shall toast you tonight !

Does anyone hear from Figgy (on facebook maybe) I often wonder how she is.

Figgy if you ever lurk, do drop in and say hello I hope you are keeping well and all your lovely family are fine too xx

Thanks all - didn't really realise how freaked out I was by the whole idea, until it was all OK. May possibly have had a large little weep of relief on the way home . Stupid, I know.

Am going out for curry tonight with some old friends/work colleagues and I am not driving! May possibly have a small sherry to celebrate!

DS came hope with Star of the Day certificate, where they get to wear a medal and do special jobs for e teacher, like getting the register etc, AND badge for writer of the week, which gets given out in assembly. He's had such a wobble abut his writing this week, I am so pleased that teacher gave it to him.

Am doing a singing day with Bournemouth Symphony Chorus tomorrow, conducts by John Rutter, (God of lots of lovely choral music and brilliant conductor) singing some of his work. Mucho looking forward.

Waves to all - what other plans for the weekend?

fab fab news ned !! have several sherries ! and well done to little ned - clever boy ! Tomorrow sounds brilliant too
Had a nice visit to vet for Celeste's booster - asked them to worm her as she spits it out when I try- she needs to lose a bit of weight though.
Visit was nice because there were lots of lovely dogs to look at,including 2 chubby little English bulldog puppies and a teeny Jack Russell.

Aah teeny Jack Russells are sweet, - when ours was a puppy she used to curl up inside DH's slipper

Ned - I'm well impressed with you being conducted by John Rutter, - have a great time, it sounds like it will be a lovely day.

And well done little Ned - he is doing so well at school isn't he - bless him, what a little star.

Enjoy your curry. I am very full - I made a rice pudding and cooked up the blackberries I picked yesterday - yum! I may have to plonk myself into an armchair for an hour or so.

oh yum- rice pudding !

Yay for ned enjoy your small sherr(y)ies! and well done for minined. Tomorrow sounds great!

Today I took dd1 shopping, had a bit of a ride with her on the 11c, decided against doing the whole loop and came back on the 11a, bought lining paper, went for a swim and made tea. Mum was quite impressed as bus came as I was faffing about, just said bye, ran for it and caught it...

Tomorrow I may get up early and go for a run, then dinner with Mum, out shopping/galleries with dd1 and then catch train back oop north.

well done celeste and blackberries sound scrummy kk

Yay ned so very pleased your appointment went well. I will have a to help you celebrate and well done to little ned.

Just back from the hell that is soft play. Had promised DD I would take her to the park and just as we were heading out the heavens opened so off we went to soft play. Amazed at the number of mothers who sit with a coffee totalling ignoring while their child(ren) creates havoc. One of the mothers hardly moved while her toddler 'acquired' several items from the pick and mix fridge and re-arranged the entire drinks fridge. He also attempted to ride the lift stopped by other mothers while his mum sat and enjoyed her coffee and chatted to her friend.

kurri rice pudding and blackberries yum, yum.

Ned - hooray! ( please don't desert us on here during your 'normal' weeks)

Ned, great news - and enjoy getting your life back to normality. Ds2 loves his 'tangle' and we have had no tie chewing this week so many thanks for a brilliant suggestion. Only problem now is that ds1 wants one so will be ordering more!

MAS - hope you are continuing to do OK. I have been thinking of you a lot and send positive vibes. And Pink too - if you're still lurking.

Can I just ask if anyone has had their chemo/herceptin on their operation side? My veins have become very scarred from the chemo and it is hard now for the nurses to put the line in - three painful goes yesterday before success!
They seem a bit reluctant to go for the other arm where the veins feel OK.

Gracie - how are you doing now. Are you having herceptin too or has the heart scare prevented that?

Hope everyone has a good weekend. I am hoping to get out in the gardin and picking up courage to tackle a massive anthill in the middle of the front lawn.

Morning 1in8
Did you have the nodes removed on surgery side ?
If yes , they say absolutely no needles on that side as it can introduce infection too easily .
Have they suggested a picc line ?
I know Gracie and Gigs have had problems with theirs , but I had one briefly and it was fine .

Morning to everyone else .
Horse riding , pharmacy run , dump , and tescos today .
Please tell me someone out their is doing something more exciting than me today ?

picking up duvets from cleaners topsy - that is quite dull- and probably trying to find jeans that will fit the boy as he is so awkwardly shaped- long and skinny and between child and grown up sizes,plus he hates having to try things on.
Waving to eight and thank you for kind thoughts x

Morning all,

1in8 - I had the same problem with scarred veins - but they wouldn't use the op side, because I had lymph nodes removed on that side, things did improve slightly once I started herceptin - because that doesn't scar the veins like chemo does, so if they find a vein they can use, they can keep using it.

But I would definitely ask about getting a line, - I wish I had - but I wasn't offered one and didn't know, - but its rotten when they have to keep digging around for veins - I sympathise greatly. I did invest in a pair of woolly wrist warmers and used them and a hot water bottle right up to the time of the needle to keep my hands as warm as poss.

topsy and MAS - I have no exciting plans, DH is at his open day, so we can't go anywhere together. I will probably do gardening and housework - there seems to be a mound of washing up in the kitchen.

I dreamed I had a baby (not giving birth, - I just had one from somewhere) and I kept dropping him and losing him, and I was feeding him on apple peel and sweets. People were staring!

wow! new thread and I missed it!

morning all, sorry i've been awol, mainly in bed, really shattered and slept for virtually the whole of 4 days. when awake all i could do was look at daytime TV so not a good stage!

i've skimmed the thread and all i can remember is stick on nipples, violent creams and coffee and walnut cake -

had PET scan yesterday which was horrid, was very stressed as it determines next stage of my treatment (stick with this or change to even-worse treatment) and couldn't have a cuddle as was radioactive for 10 hours! results wednesday - dreading/looking forward to in equal measure - need mind taking off it really.

anyway, today I feel much more human and may even be going out tonight to village quiz (tho not my village, one many miles away) which would be great fun. Have to see if i am still awake by 6 pm - not likely judging by previous 7 days but hey ho, i hope i am

hello to everyone, sorry i have been disengaged but i will be back to normal service this week..

well done otm PET scan sounds scary- fingers crossed for results x
kk I wouldn't be worried about speaking to your doctor about memory loss- particularly as your dad had Alzheimers - (not suggesting that you are likely to get it too) It could be the results of chemo possibly ? Perhaps it's worth noting down when these memory lapses happen ? Understandably worrying. Our family friend who had dementia asked our gp and he rather dismissed it as age.

yes fingers crossed for results OTM, it sounds stressful though - so hope you are able to relax a bit over the weekend. Quiz will be fun if you can manage it

Thanks MAS - noting down the lapses is a very good idea - I hadn't thought of that. I am on various new tablets atm - so perhaps it is some sort of side effect. Or maybe it was the UTI brewing - its only really been for the last couple of weeks that I've noticed.

May also be partly psychological I suppose. My mum sent me some of Dad's old diaries - from when he started losing his memory, and they are so sad - he keeps saying 'I must be losing my memory because I'm not busy enough so I don't have stuff that's important to remember' and how he decided he would write a maths text books to keep his mind working properly.

I've put them away - not sure I can take reading them all through at the moment.

oh kk that is so sad

kk that is sad but if it is any comfort I find myself forgetting stuff - all sorts of things like couldn't remember what beetroot was to completely forgetting to go to a shop for dh when I was out the other day despite discussing it with him at length. I don't know if it is chemo but I know in past illness, stress and fatigue can do this to me. You have had a few things on and been quite poorly with shingles so I wouldn't put it down to anything sinister.

How is the open day going and I am so glad cake and coffee morning was a success.

otm the whole scan and test process is inevitably stressful but even more so when it is something like pet or MRI that involves isolation or fasting . Even worse when you are in your flat spell . I will be willing positive results and virtually holding hand on Wednesday.

gracie shudders at idea of soft play.

topsy no I cannot beat that day- had friends to stay who went this morning (went out for dinner last night and had a really good laugh).

Changed dressing on the sodding picc line which is very sore but don't think it's infected (please I hope not as that would be Sod's law to end up staying in cos of that on my last chemo) and did blood for chemo on Monday. I am anaemic again which explains why I am so l done in (and here I am blaming the little gigs ).

1in8 smee ned somwtimes and anyone else hi /waves.

amber don't know if you are lurking but saw on fb you were having a week of it, so for you.

And I am so thrilled for you ned about your good news

Hi Gig - grr about the picc line. fingers crossed it is OK and you don't have to stay in. When will they take the line out - while you are in there this time?

I think you are right about having had quite a few things going on recently, - I'm not convinced your brain ever totally recovers from chemo either (and I don't mean to a major extent just little annoying things) - anyway to prove I am losing it, I just defrosted a rock bun in the microwave, - accidently put it on high, then went off and forgot about it, - so we have a black clinker that used to be a rock bun welded to the glass plate, and a kitchen full of the most disgusting fumes.
DD and the dog have gone upstairs, I've opened all the windows and doors. The fire alarm which usually goes off when you put the grill on completely failed to notice the kitchen was practically on fire

Open day going OK I think, - they are all having pizza afterwards and DH has made cakes for everyone - so that will be nice.
The coffee and walnut cake was a big hit at the coffee morning - it all went very quickly and everyone said it was yummy. Definitely a recipe I'll be doing again, it was very quick. A few folk have asked for the recipe too, so I'll have to print it out

Take things easy - aenemia is exhausting (do they give you blood at hospital when you get low?) poor little Gigs being blamed

anaemia - got it right on the second attempt!

Oh and thank you all for kind words about Dad, - it is so sad knowing that he knew he getting ill, reminds me how much I miss him - I loved him so much, - it's coming up to a year now without him - where does the time go?

Yes they will give me blood (mas forgot to ask how you are and any luck with finding t some trousers? ) which helps but don't like having it (mainly as am squeamish and makes me sweat for some reasons).

There are lots of other nice recipes for tray bake in same book if need recipes (very nice cherry and almond one).

The kitchen issue sounds like kind of thing I could do- we still have a mark on our patio where I put a pan I had burned potatoes in to cool (yes wooden decking). That was pre chemo and pre kids so think I may be innately daft .

- I may have that problem too Gig. House still reeks - luckily for him, DH has no sense of smell and will not notice when he gets home!

I think blood transfusions do have funny effects sometimes and make you feel a bit odd, - I guess they are a bit of a shock to the system. I always look dangerously flushed after I've had one

Cherry and Almond sounds very good too.