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[MaryAnnSingleton]

crikey !

scary tyre exploding kk
That soup sounds most delicious - I long for cauliflower cheese but I'm the only one who likes it. Broccoli and stilton soup is a great favourite of mine too
Dh and ds have been sluicing down the patio in parental garden as it's very mossy and slippery.
What a lovely birthday surprise gig - pear prosecco - right up my street (I think i could manage prosecco somehow !)
Which restaurant did you go to ? (nosy person)
It's so nice to not feel nauseous but I seem to have sore feet,which is a side effect of capecitabine - but preferable to feeling queasy i think.
Am looking forward to Strictly though Darcey Bussell's 'yeah' after everything she says is hugely irritating. And am not keen on Victoria Pendleton- there's something a bit odd about her...

and smee am worried about you working so hard- hope you are having some breaks and fbs...there's madeira cake on the trolley...

MAS - darcy's voice irritated me too, and I'm not so keen on golden girl Victoria. Loved Craig's outburst. I'm looking forward to seeing tonight's show.

MAS has kindly suggested I pop in. So here I am. I feel a fraud as haven't had a diagnosis yet (and have 2 thread already) but now and then I panic and feel scared so maybe I need hand holding so I don't lose the plot again.

Welcome just fab- have a to help. You aren't a fraud and this is best place to hang out as we understand when you get "bad" news but are pleased when its not.

Scary about tyres kurri and completely agree about how babies can be so lively when I feel half dead.

Haven't watched strictly yet (saved for later) but Victoria got on my nerves at the Olympics - something a bit Ott.

We went to river cafe (very spoilt mas) and pear prosecco is every bit as yum as you would think

Thank you.

I have failed badly on my weightloss attempt today and will be having a Baileys later.

Baileys definitely in order - I am eating rest of my birthday cake and contemplating opening the wine but suppose I do need to get kids to bed.

When are your next test days?

Next week is breast clinic and on another day pre op check for gynea clinic then they week after that is gynea surgery. Today I have felt like I have really bad PMS and have wanted to just punch DH in the face (never would) and I don't understand why as I finished my period yesterday.

you're are very welcome JustFab - you do have a lot to deal with so feel free to share on here.
Lucky gig - have never been to the River Cafe but would love to - my dad has and my friend Martha works for Lord Rogers and it's their works canteen so vv jealous of her.
Victoria P irked me in the Olympics too- can't think what it is about her.

There is a lot of cancer in my family so I have expected that I would get it but I don't feel I have if that makes sense. But if I do have it I blame myself for being such a stress head. I am being checked for breast and endometrial c. and just go from certain I am fine to what do I know I am not a doctor.

I feel trapped. I feel calustrophobic. I feel like I have been cuddled all day and not in a good way and just want some space. Feel argh.

Welcome justfab another person to hold your hand. Waiting for appointments and results is just rubbish. All your feelings are normal but they do ease through time.

River Cafe - very gigs but so glad you had a great night.

Glad you are feeling less nauseous mas.

Haven't watched any strictly have to try to persuade DH watching it would be a good idea. fat chance of that

Victoria Pendleton is just TOO SMUG! Can't bear her - she makes my teeth itch. . .

JustFab please don't blame yourself - I blamed myself for being overweight when I was diagnosed with BC, so I know what it feels like to try and find a reason for it. You will swing from one extreme to the other until you know for sure what's happening, and then the path you travel on changes, and the scenery becomes different, iyswim. If you need to let rip in a safe and supportive place that is not RL, then please, do it here. We can be strong and brave for you when you lose your way on the journey. We have all been where you are in some way or another, and know a little of what it feels like. Sending you much love x x x

gig you are indeed a jammy girl - river cafe Hope it was amazing!

MAS hope you're feeling a bit brighter this evening? Sending you hugs and fuzzy luff x x

smee are you working too hard? take it easy, OK? We luff you and don't want you to be too stressed x x

kurri exciting about first proper driving lesson next week - will keep fingers crossed for dry weather for you

Am feeling the luff for all you lovely people - you are all smashing (my new favourite adjective) and I continue to be in awe of the strength and love that comes from all of you x x x x x x x

Waving to JustFab, I was going to suggest you nip over here too. Glad you made it. We're good at hand holding and at least here we know how terrifying the waiting game is. Ask anything you want.

Kurri, that's scary about the tyre. Is DH okay? Must be scary, even if going slowly thinking what might have and all that.

MAS sore feet is annoying. Is it the bones which feel achey or the muscles/ tissue? Would a hot bath help maybe?

Gig at River Cafe. Have always wanted to go there.

Hope you're all having a nice cosy Saturday. Got the heating on here. Still working. G'ah.. Think a glass of wine in a bit might speed me up.

Hi all.
and hi from me too, JustFab. The worst bit is the waiting, I've found.
Mmm, Strictly...with After Eight Mints and wine. Well, I have them. They don't.
Anyone else for any?

I could possibly have a couple of After Eights (my favourite). amber I could swap you some for salt & vinegar chip sticks. I already have wine .

smeee did you get all your work done? Hope you aren't overdoing it.

Did someone say After Eights??? I think I accidentally ate a whole box of those once on my own

Welcome Justfab, - I've seen your other threads and you are going through a tough old time at the moment, you poor love. Hope we can hold your hand and give some support while you wait for your tests and results

Tyre bursting was scary Dh said. I gave a proper big bang! he'd just come back from taking DD to her teaching, and they'd been on the dual carriageway - Goodness knows what I'd have done if I'd have been driving, - doubt if i could have kept control of the car. So all in all - a lucky escape I think.

Some of the marking is a bit bizarre on Strictly - I think I'm going to like Sid, he's rather sweet, and that guy who was in the James Bond film is good (Colin?), But I'll probably change my mind after a couple of weeks.

Shall I watch x-factor, that's the question? I can pretend it's just on in the background while I do my sewing.

My mum has put her house on the market. MS (mad sis) wanted to change everything the estate agent had written to her usual odd ramblings ("this remarkable house has not been available on the market for 55 years"????? -bonkers, why would you write that). I have persuaded mum to stick with 'victorian villa style house, in need of updating'

Why do I go from calm to feeling cold inside in a panicky way?

Irony is, I read an article on ovarian cancer and had nearly all the symptoms. 3 years later I mentioned it to my GP and he laughed (in a nice way) that I would be really ill by then if I had it and I was fine. I go for tests for irregular bleeding and then get blind sided by the doctor saying "you could have endrometrial cancer." Didn't even know there was such a thing and totally shocked at how matter of factly he said it.

I feel this is a big deal but mostly I am just getting on and being calm.

If anyone could help with my PMS thread I would really appreciate it as my dh has had enough.

Oh the soup was lovely, - I used this recipe in the end, but with croutons rather than parmesan crisps, which sounded too complicated for me!

Just fab-Welcome- I haven't read your other thread so don't know what you have posted. I'm fairly new to this thread and have found it helpful and friendly and I know you will too.

I was diagnosed with breast cancer earlier this summer, had an op and am now being treated with radiotherapy. I have never felt ill, and don't feel like I have had cancer. I don't think it's that unusual not t feel I'll with bc.

invitia, hello . I have seen you around on here but had no idea you had bc. I am sorry you have had to go through all that having it entails.

Just thought of a question if that is okay. I am going to the breast clinic next week. Last time I went expecting to have a mammogram but was just examined and then sent for one and an ultrasound at a later date. If I am just going to be examined next week there is no lump to find so what happens then, as someone has mentioned you can have bc without there being a lump. If that is the case how is it diagnosed?

justfab I think if they suspect bc they will do a biopsy to check for cancer cells. I may be wrong hopefully someone more knowledgeable will be along soon.

Glad you DH and daughter were ok kurri how scary. Soup sounds lovely btw.

Where do the take the biopsy from though if there is no lump?

Still working. Mind you the boy's in bed, and I can hear the glug of wine being poured, so things are looking up.

Justfab, they tend not to mammogram younger woman, so are you pre-40?. If so ultrasound might be what they suggest again. I had mammo, ultrasound and a fine needle biopsy all on the day of referral. Think that's quite common at the bigger hospitals. Sorry you're feeling so all over the place - though wouldn't it be weird if you weren't? Go hug your DH, tell him you're going to be weird until you know and share a large glass of something lovely. You never know it might help xx

Kurri, sounds like a v. lucky escape with the tyre. Mad sis sounds as true to form as ever. Your soup sounds tempting, will ferret away the recipe. We're having frozen home made something. It wasn't labelled... Can hear DH bashing about trying to get the lid off.

Waving to Gracie and Invicta and anyone else who's around tonight.

x-posted, Justfab they'll only take a biopsy if they find something. Then they use the ultrasound to guide them to the right place.