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[MaryAnnSingleton]

blimey- we're almost up to our limit...so brand new shiny,sparkling thread.

Good luck with the train jane , hope the snow doesn't strand you .

A basement full of meerkats ? For a school tombola ?
I want one !

Yes 25 sessions , starting tomorrow . Great deal of notice eh ?
Oh well , at least it's getting done .

beep beep internet. lost my post.

Glad you have a date to start, Topsy, hope the weather doesn't disrupt your travel.

at the meercats breeding in the basement. You need a cat.

topsy that is short notice but hooray that it's underway- lots of luck tomorrow- you'll have your mould too !!
DS off to NY next June - lucky,lucky boy.
Have been to coffee with friend and then queued in post office for an age,forgot to buy the batteries I went out to get..grrr
Bought a bag of fun size Twirls though...

just left Tamworth. Soon be in Birmingham! Not told Mum I'm visiting today, yet...

Well as long as you remembered the important stuff eh mas ?

No snow here yet either. A meerkat sounds better than the value custard creams I won at the school fair last weekend!. Had my drain taken out this morning and feels much better but hope I don't swell up now. Having a very lazy day today but the kids will be back soon from school to liven things up. Hope the rads go well tomorrow Topsy.

Glad you are feeling better without the drain 1in8

custard creams :(

Mum says 'oh dear I'm getting in a muddle here' She's not wrong! Heyho.

Glad the drain's gone OneinEight. How are you feeling apart from that? Hope not too bad.

The Meerkat Tombola's for the kids, so we're having a 'things you really don't want to win' one too, where custard creams would be exotic. Last year I won an odd sock.

Sad about your mum, Jane. Must be hard to see her like that. Is she relatively happy amidst it all?

Yayyy, for Topsy's rads (at long last). I hope it all goes smoothly and the snow doesn't cause any hiccups for you.

OneinEight, hooray for drain removal. They're such a bind. Hope you're feeling okay and are letting people spoil you while you're recovering.

MAS, not a good time of year to queue in POs. I was in our village one earlier for stamps and they were queueing out the door. So many people are ordering online and having to collect from the PO nowadays (myself included).

Did someone say custard creams? They're up there with coffee cake in my list of fave things. Tombolas are a good fund raiser but, oh dear, some of the crap rubbish that gets donated should be consigned to the bins. I've won many an out-of-date tin of soup. Meercats would be v. popular at our school fair. I didn't know you had a cellar, Smee - lucky thing. Is it a spooky wooky one?

Enjoy your visit to your mum, Jane. Hope the snow holds off.

It's freezing here. The wind was howling through our old classroom windows this morning and I ended up with a stiff neck. I'm up to my ears in Elf outfits at the moment. Just finishing off the hats in time for dress rehearsal on Monday next week. I love this time of year at school .

She is happier to be at home, watching eggheads at the moment but life is difficult relying on carers to move her from bed to chair to bed. Not liking ready meals is also a bug bear. Neighbour comes in to see her and other friends can drop in too.

Hello everyone, - just to let you know I've just got back home. Thank you so much for all the kind thoughts ad candles, it means such a lot to me.

Well what can I say? - I got through it all as best I could, and my darling Dad had a lovely funeral with his favourite music and poems. My DS was one of the bearers for his Grandad's coffin, and I was very proud of him, and so happy he could do that last thing for his beloved grandfather.

I am OK - most of the time - then I just start crying, but that's OK and I go with it until I'm OK again.

There is so much to catch up with, I will try to read through, because I see we have some new people, and I'd like to say welcome to them (some excellent names too - RightTitNoMore - I'm so cross I didn't think of that name first! )
Topsy - I've spotted good news for you - yay!!, good for you. And loads of love to everyone having treatment, waiting for results and other such things. Thoughts to Amber for rads and her DH's op. too.

I know I've missed loads - I will gradually catch up. I've just realised it is December already, and I haven't bought a single Christmas present yet, so I may hit the shops tomorrow if I feel up to it. - My radioactive malarkey has been rescheduled for this thursday, - so I'll be stuck in for a week or so after that.

love to all xx

kk great to see you back again .
I am glad it went as smoothly as it possibly could for you .
I am sure it will be a while yet before you stop the sudden bouts of tearfullness . It's only natural .
Don't forget to buy you fbs for Thursday .

kk fab to have you back,we really missed you. Well done for getting through what must have been a very hard couple of weeks - I'm sure it all takes time to sink in, and even when it does it's still hard. FBS definitely in order for radioactiveness isolation.

Can I bore you with my bottom ? Not really dreadful,but oddness. A few weeks ago I thought I was about to have a period,on account of p pains,but it turned out not to be and my insides were behaving unusually- ie blood in poo- I asked on a new thread about this as I didn't want to bother you all..and I hate talking about bottoms and poo. I'm still having what feels like period pains (that dull ache in the guts) but no blood for a while. I'm pretty sure it's not bleeding from piles (which I have a few of,but it's usually pretty obvious if they are sore as they sting) It seems sort of higher up,if that makes sense. Mind you I've made my bottom sore by checking whether it's bleeding,so that's not good. Ugh,can't believe I've shared that with you all. Am just keeping an eye on things.I wonder if the tummy pains are just anxiety ?

Hi everyone, just popping in as I've had a day off work and tomorrow am taking DS down to Cambridge for interview on Wed. so am feeling restless/jumpy!

KK - I think you should take Christmas calmly and peacefully this year - don't you start rushing about! I have found in the past that when grieving the very worst thing to do is try to go shopping - honestly! Try perhaps one or two nice little shops but no big busy ones. I'm glad the funeral was a suitable event IYWSIM, and yes I'd be so proud of your DS too.

MAS - sorry to be graphic but when I've read abpout that kind of thing it seems to be more of a concern if the blood continues for a few days and if its dark rather than bright - I suggest you get it checked out, just to put your mind at rest.

Hello to new people - I hope you're all coping - I'm an oldie - can't beliee I've been back at work for over a year now - and not a single day off saick since my treatment ended! Take heart new people - you do come out the other side and pick up life again!

SR lots of good thoughts to you and ds - exciting but scary
Yes, you are right,will get checked,but really wanted to be sure that I'm not imagining things

waves to kk - glad you are back safely. Be easy on yourself, maybe do some shopping online while you are radioactive?

Popped out for some marmalade and Mum rang the police when I was slightly longer than I should have been. Hmmmm.

Nice to see you sand. Getting back to work is next on my list.

Kurri, hooray you're back. We have missed you. I'd bet it will take more than a little while before you can sort how you feel. Must be very strange indeed. How's your mum coping with it all?

Waving to SR too. How lovely to see you. And a huge Yeay for a year on. Me too!! Really hope DS speeds through his interview. Let us know how he gets on. Is his big sister being helpful?

Jane, old age is a such a sod. Must be incredibly hard to watch your mum be so muddled.

MAS, obviously I haven't a clue medically, but go to GP and get it checked, if only because it will niggle away at you if you don't. Book an appointment tomorrow. Get it sorted quickly, then you can relax and enjoy Christmas.

Topsy, hope it's easy peasy tomorrow. Hope snow goes, so at least getting there's not a hassle.

lots of love topsy for today.
jane that is so sad -and really hard for you
smee -am not too worried,really-I just want to be sure I can say what's what,if it's continuing -so far this week all is well,except for tummy,but at this time of year I do get huge anxieties and it feels similar. But I will def. go if it carries on. Lots of work to do today - v frosty here. Was going to get up at 6 but too chilly.

Smee - thanks and well done to you too!
DD is being helpful in general way to DS - very different subjects though. I am indeed excited but scared too! Really horrod weather for the 3 hour drive as well, but at least some of it will be in the light. We're leaving about 2.30.
Topsy - good luck with the rads - I've missed your update on here due to not being on site for a while but rads will be fine - just be ready to start feeling whacked by about day 12-15! With me the effect progressed for at least 3 weeks after I'd finished them, but I was never sure if that was because I was having chemo as well. Anyway I did start to pick up about 3 weeks after the end, so do be ready for the tired phase and take things easy.
(I could scarcely walk for a few days!)

Good luck for today, Topsy!!!!!

OneinEight - glad your drain is out, but take it easy for a bit.

KK, it is so good to see you back, and to hear that your dear old Dad got a good service to send him on his way. Christmas will be very hard for you all this year, I'd say let it wash over you and just enjoy the rest and family time: No-one will expect more of you I am sure. Hoping that nothing will stand in the way of Thursday's treatment......

MAS - sorry, girl, but you need to get it checked. I also think fresh red blood is less of a worry than dark blood, but worry can only make it (and everything else) worse.

Jane - you poor Mum (and you). being old and vulnerable is so awful.

cakes things seem ok again today - I promise to go to gp if it returns.
Am very excited by prospect of Tunis cake,they have it at Sainsbury's and M&S - we used to buy it from our milkman years ago- it's just madeira with a very thick layer of chocolate on top and marzipan fruits....excellent fbs
Good luck to junior SR !

MAS - that sounds like the FBS for me! I'm glad you feel a bit better today, - keep an eye on things yes?

Good luck for topsy today (I am guessing it is start of rads - haven't quite caught up with my reading yet)

jane - I'm sorry about your mum, - it is so hard, and a worry when parents start to get confused.

SR - great news about DS's interview - what clever DC you have - very good luck to him, I shall keep my fingers firmly crossed.

oneineight - love to you, as I see you are recovering from your op atm, - take things easy.

hello Cakes and Smee - it's good to be back. My mum is doing well thank you. - Of course she's had her tearful moments, but she takes comfort from the fact that she was with him up to the end, that he didn't have to go into a home, and that he knew her even at the end. I think the fact that they adored each other, and had such a loving marriage, has been a source of strength, - although she will miss him terribly, she has no regrets and nothing but good memories. She told me that he once said to her 'someone must have been watching over us so that we could meet and be together'.

Mmmmm marsipan and chocolate 2 of my favourite things Hope Topsy is getting on ok today.

Realised that my skin is much better (Two weeks post rads) don't need the dressing under the boob at the moment and the red rectangle from the boost is fading. Little red patch in middle of scar and some dry flaky skin. Risking a radox bath and will slap the aqueous on after :)

All the best to sand for the journey and for Master sand at his interview.

kk It is a hard time for you all. No regrets and nothing but good memories is special.