I am in total agony

[TheOriginalFAB]

Yesterday I woke up with pain in my right arm at the top. Saw a pharmacist to ask about pain relief and she felt I had pulled a muscle. Went to bed last night with it covered in deep heat and still in pain and I couldn't lie on it. This morning it is fine but the whole of my left arm round to my breast and back is absolute agony and there is no way I can lift anything with it. Could it be my FM or something else? I am hoping to see an osteopath on Tuesday but I feel like crying it hurts so much. I have so much to do today, I can't be out of action.

I have asked the doctors for help.

I have medical issues.

I have emotional issues.

That will not be a shock.

But FAB, you are not happy, and not able to function as you think you should.

~Go back to your GP. List all the physical symptoms you have had, say over the last 3 years. List all the emotional/mental health issues you have had - and be brave enought to say how you have really felt.
~Explain to her/him that you have been using this site as an emotional crutch to get you through day to day, but that it is not enough and you need professional help to (1) talk through and reach some sort of resolution with your long-standing issues from abuse in childhood and (2) to get you to change the way your brain works now which is currently locked in a negative cycle of attention/anxiety which is having real impacts on your mental health and on your relationships.
~Say that you are not sure if you are brave enough to see this through, but that you have to try.
~Do not gloss over things, do not be fobbed off.
~Explain and accept that you need help now.
~Accept that you will feel worse for doing this, but as I said before, you owe it to yourself, your DH and your children to do this, before your children grow up and start posting messages on websites about how hard it was to grow up around a mum who didn't seek the help she needed, and how it impacted on them (however much she tried to stop it doing so).
~Do not see this last sentence as a chance to get more anxious about your children and start ruminating on what you 'might be doing to them'. Just go and phone the GP. OK?

You are wrong shiney. If I annoy you so much, stop reading my threads.

Thanks trr.

Fab, you have posted 57 health related threads this year alone. It is complete madness to ask people on an online message board for medical advice. YES I know some are doctors, nurses, physios, pharmacists etc but it's not the best idea.

I have HA, brought on by a hideous pregnancy. Anxiety can cause an absolutely astonishing amount of physical shit.. it's seriously mind bowing what it can cause.

57 health related posts in a year is a lot isn't it..

I am shocked at that amount but I am also certain that some are new threads about something I have already posted about so I have not had 57 different health issues.

I was actually thinking about things half an hour ago and know what is the issue and know what my problem is. Rest assured I won't be posting about it on here though. Not a flounce.

Thank you to everyone who has posted.

Please don't ignore the fantastic advice from therisingroad. She has given you a really good outline of how to deal with your health professionals.

I am not ignoring it.

FAB - I don't think you are aorund tonight. I hope that is a good thing.
If you do come back to this thread, can I suggest you show it to your DH? What is his reaction? If you don't feel comfortable showing him, ask yourself why? What is that telling you?
All the best.