Can you keep me company?

[SagacityNell]

I know that you don't know me. I literally have nowhere else to go right now. Ihave used MN in the past but left. I can't link my other names or give clues. I am really sorry.

Just in need of some company.

Sorry.

Sagacitynell children never ask for sexual attention from an adult, they ask for love, positive attention, hugs, cuddles. Always pure and never sexual.

The courage to heal, which is a survivors handbook says that even if a 16 year old girl flings herself naked on her dad it is still dad's responsibility to get her off him, dressed and sit her down to talk. It is always the adult's fault, always, and yes i know from experience how hard that is to accept if you've been abused and the adult has blamed you. It takes a lot of work to get that straight. I'm about halfway there.

Hope you had a good evening SagacityNell, do check in tomorrow and let us know how you're doing, or talk about anything you want to.

Am still here. Emailing Samaritans. I opened some kind of floodgates with remembering what i did the other day. Not coping v well at all.

will stay off the boards now, conscious of being accused of being a troll .
Thank you all xx

Hope you are ok sag, please don't stay off the boards.

Sag who has said you are a troll (curses troll hunting business) - we don't do trolls on mh! Stay and talk.

Not been accused with this name. Have been accused in the past. On MH too. AM very aware that i am "drip feeding" but that is more because i don't want to reveal myself to anyone who may know me.

well done for emailing Samaritans

"please stay in touch during this distressing time"

i don't know what i expected really. never mind. I may just bring todays appt with Dr Smirnoff a bit forward. Liquid lunch anyone?

Sagacity how is Dr Smirnoff going to help in the long run. Better to keep talking.

I should point out that i don't drink this much ordinarily. I don't drink in the day as a rule either. I drink Thurs/fri nights and tonight is a planned night with a mix of ppl. Only 1 of whom i don't have to put on an act with. And it would be nice to be so shitfaced that i can't remember for a bit.

Sorry i will - x posted.

I can't do the talking thing. Only ever tried to tell someone everything once and they didn't believe me.

So you picked the wrong person to tell or they reacted badly.

Shame

I've been luckier and never been disbelieved. Could have been different.

Nothing wrong with occassional drinking but it sure isn't going to help in the long run - it just buries things. And buried things generally refuse to stay buried.

I didn't pick the person, i was sent to them!

A ''professional''?

I ODd when i was 16 and was sent to a psychiatrist (or psychologist - i get them mixed up) and it was her that didn't believe me.

I just never went back. better this way.

I can see why that has affected you so badly - at that age and after such a scream for help...

Probably not much help for me to say that you would get a different reception nowadays.

You will have to find out in your own time that you will have to deal with it and how to go about it.

Sorry.

Pretty sure you said or did nothing that requires use of the word sorry