going to have a 'good' week

[Sax]

Hope to be around a bit this week but on the onwards and upwards line not the low and sad one. Decided to take a positive attitude starting now and hope not to disappoint myself. i should be here if anyone needs an ear! Have a good week everyone......

That would be a good idea so I don't wimp out or if I do clam up. I haven't told dp yet but I have written time of appt on the calendar so he will see it....not like I'm keeping it from him but tbh he's doing my head in tonight so don't want to say anything just now. He is now hinting heavily that I shouldn't be on the pc, also I'm a bit p*ssed off that he hasn't even asked how my day has been...this after saying he will give all his support to help me....think he doesn't quite get it
Hope to speak to you soon...like I said need my sleep. Tomorrow is another day

Sounds like he's giving you extra stress and not listening to you - ie. by not asking how your day was even .
Sleep well Babynovice and don't worry too much about the appointment, you have a little time to process your thoughts but you should write down the feelings from earlier sometime so you can refer to them - pop in tomorrow if possible and discuss it further if you want to.
Sleep well!

Good morning All.
Sleep report - 5 hours unbroken: up at 5.45am. That's a good night's sleep these days so things looking good for today
Sax, you're right about dp giving me extra stress at the moment, I know why he's being like this though....because I'm not really myself we have been having more and more silly arguments and not getting on as well as we used to, I find he bears the brunt of my frustrations as I can't take it out on dd (although recently I have been awful with dd hence realisation things are not well ) and I think this is what's upsetting him. I would usually be much more sympathetic to his little mood swing episodes but they are just making me angry at the moment because I have no patience and I just don't need it just now!
We did make up this morning and he apologised but this is happening too often for my liking.
How are we all doing today?

HI there babynovice, sax, queenflounce....this household is holding its own at the mo, 9.30 feed went smoothly, both boys napping in front of TV...Arthur looks awful but doesn't seem to be feeling to bad - spots in his mouth and on his tongue, soles of his feet, boy bits, back, tummy, legs, ears.....bless him.

I'm still supposed to be working, but actually I want to be outside with boys, nice day, but stuck in cos 1) we in isolation for a least a week and 2) I'm supposed to be working anyway.

I'm also starving hungry and really fancy naughty food, but DH and I on diets, well DH is as he has to lose 5st and I'm supporting him by eating the same stuff and not wolfing down cakes in front of him.

Hope we all have good days

Nice one Babynovice! Its a big step, but such a milestone.

Sax - Sorry I wasn't around when you were feeling rough... how are you now?

Meeely2 - Sounds like you have things under control today! Chicken Pox is naff. I got bored keeping them in isolation and took mine to the Zoo! The funniest thing was everywhere we looked was Calamine lotion covered kids! lol

I'm keeping my eye on you lot.... but bossman (he's my Dad too!)is looking over my shoulder alot! Apparently he can tell when I'm not working as I type faster!!!

Hi guys, I was this close today to sorting out going into work tonight, but as I got in from nursery (had to stay and help today) dh work rang him and has asked if he can do a shift. i am soooo stupid and said 'you go ahead' Oh god, am I ever going to be able to get back through those doors????? May have to come on MN and escape RL yet again eh!
Good to hear from you all. Babynovice, I know all about the extra little arguments with dp, we are going through the same, very stupid things set us off and its so ridiculous but as you say, who else is there to take it out on. We are hot and cold the whole time. good to hear you had a bit more sleep though.

BTW Meeeley2, sorry to hear about the chicken pox, just what you need right now eh! Hope it isn't all getting too much, they are probably more adjitated - hope your day continued OK!

No one around this afternoon then? Will have to come back later when dh at work then, only usually half cut by then and start gassing about stuff I regret in the morning lOL.

I do hope someone may be around tonight, I am feeling very guilty that I am so crap that I didn't say I would definately work so dh didn't feel he had to! Thats so crap and weak fo me, I can't believe I am not pulling my weight for my family - I am sinking today again, always in the afternoon with the evening ahead! Speak to you guys later hopefully!

Hi, just popped on for quick look at the chat. I definitely think Friday night with MN and a glass of wine beats going into work....think you got the better deal! sounds as if you would've gone in if dh hadn't been working so I'm sure you'll get there soon. Will it be first time back since ds3?
QueenFlounce I'm sure I speak for Sax too when I say I'm relieved to find out your boss is your Dad....no sacking on the cards for being on MN instead of working
Meeely2 - have a cake you deserve it! Hope you're OK there with poor little sick baby, and I hope dh doing all he can to help out.
Might be back later if dp (aka Mr huffy-pants) doesn't start his nonsense, I'll probably tell him about appt tonight.

No, no, no Sax, just saw your message...don't sink please! My reply looks quite flippant now I didn't realise you would give yourself a hard time about it. How can you be letting your family down when you look after 3 kids 24/7?

Becasue once the kids are in bed I could be working but so far have chosen not to! I should be doing some work to add to us getting some money - sooooo much debt, dh is working hard but I could earn more for doing tonight than he is going to, so I 'should' have gone in, not him! It doesn't seem to take much these days for a good to turn into a not so good day!

OK, enough, I've just called ds2 a stupid child - I really need to get these kids to bed soon before I flip, short fuse tonight, crap mother insitu!, will have to come back later for a chat so I don't feel so isolated. I hope someone will be around........

I'll be here if u need a chat

why can't i BE tolerant for just another hour, I can't bear the loss of control!!! I use to be sooo capable! what the hell has happened, sorry

Sorry Sax I was on over in chat ah hon I know that feeling only too well! I think you do your best and in any one day sometimes it's just about getting through one hr at a time, whats the situation now? [[[hugs]]]

Sorry I missed you Sax, have to log off for a while though, I'm going goggle eyed from being on here! Will catch up with you later if your on. Hang in there hon [[[[hugs]]]]]

Forget it, boys in bed, I'm OK I suppose........

Oh crap Sax I've done it again! I didnt even log off! r u there now? promise I wont wander off again, I'll keep checking, Im newwish on Mn so still finding my way round.

Yeh, I'm here!

Phew! sorry bout that, how r now hon?

Sorry meant to say how are you now?

Sax?

I'm alright, forget it all, I'm just being daft, they are in bed now so I have the evening to drink wine and forget everything - sounds cool to me!!!!!! should be working though!!!!!!!! silly cow I do feel guilty dh is and i'm sitting here with a glass of wine chatting on MN, not quite the right way round in my opinion!

Erm exuse me mdear but and Idont know your full circumstances and dont need too but who has been a mummy all day? You more than deserve your bit of your own quality time, I'd be joining you for a glass but the earliest I ever manage to get my ds4 down is 10!